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It will destroy your relationships on an emotional level. Because you will be confused on how normal regular women relate to experiences of sex. It can create unnatural expectations in relationships and a degrading way of looking at women due to the transactional nature of such sex. Can make you feel less interested in the curiosity of sex with regular women because you're fulfilling your curiosity. Sex is not just sex. It needs romance. When you have sex on a level that becomes too physical and mechanical then it's emotional aspects go missing and it's no longer a memorable experience but only an activity.

It's November 21 and it's so cold outside.

The greatest ingredient necessary to developing deep intimacy is trust.

God has no source. God is the source. This source is infinite and Infinity is a strange loop that begins and never ends. For example if I said "I'm living." This sentence is a strange loop because I'm still living and at any point in time I'm still living. As long as I'm living it's a strange loop.

People who love you don't hurt you and people who hurt you don't love you. Confusion between love and hurtful behavior . It doesn't matter if they are actually narcissists. No need to figure out. Emotional abuse is emotional abuse . Narcissists don't actually love. They are Incapable of loving either you or anyone You cannot love them better. You just can't please them. You can't love them enough or love them the right way. No amount of love is enough in a black hole. . It's important to work on oneself rather than trying to help them. Your locus of control is always on them. You lose your internal locus of control. You always keep your focus on them. It's all about them all the time. Bring back the focus on you. It's not love but trauma bonding that is keeping you in the relationship with the narcissist. There is no loyalty. They only want a supply. They don't care about you. You might think it's love but it's only a supply for them. They have created feelings by manipulating and Gaslighting you. They are not authentically inspired, but manipulated into you. Actions speak louder than words. Look at the actions of the narcissist rather than their words. Your childhood experiences have made you feel like abuse is a part of love. (my mom interspersed love with abuse making it difficult for me to separate the two.)

Yea. Not sure. I still have this anxiety for this vaccine.

I'm very much connected to my emotions. I just cried while watching TV.

$1500..? OK I will take the vaccine..

Ralston's books: The Book of Not Knowing (required reading) Pursuing Consciousness (required reading) The Genius of Being (required reading) Zen Body-Being (required reading) Consciousness Dialogues (required reading) Ancient Wisdom, New Spirit Reflections of Being Other Educational Possibilities: (if you have time) Zen Flesh, Zen Bones Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind, Suzuki Actualizations, Stewart Emery On Time and Being, Heidegger The Knee of Listening, Franklin Jones (Bubba Free John) Steps to an Ecology of Mind, Gregory Bateson The Way of Chuang Tzu, Merton Tao Te Ching, Lao Tzu The Book of Tea Zen in the Art of Archery Critique of Pure Reason, Kant (difficult) Some others: The Journey to Ixtlan, Castenada

You simply have to forget sleep paralysis. That's how you deal with it. It's something like a bad memory. The faster you get over it, the better. Whenever I get sleep paralysis attacks, I laugh about it after some hours Best cure.

This is some serious Hitler stuff. Trump is really going overboard with this.

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Be careful with such things. Don't allow your mind to be too suggestive.

Post on ego A bad ego is delusional and it will believe that there is no global warming. A good ego will try to come closer to truth, will be more eager and inclined to know the truth, will also be inclined to curb biases.. A good ego will be Aware of Reality Flow with reality. Archetype of the Good Ego. The black panther. New archetype character Zicxxxxxcagon

When you're all ready.

Wanted to add this image in the journal.

@Raphael yes of course He is a great source of inspiration for practicing Spiral dynamics most unhealthy toxic aspects of stage Red/Orange. What else? So shocking that people still find something in him to be inspired by meanwhile those who are really inspiring, people go around with a magnifying glass trying to find a flaw in them.

??????????? Look into productivity journal and progress journal.

@Raphael this is like a Trump speech, everything bigly eh

>@Raphael it works like this. Misinformation propaganda machine, MPM

I'm the Green Beast. I'm still stuck in Green but I'm happy with it. Don't regret it a bit. For me Green Green all the way.

I call bitch behavior Sandy behavior named after Sandshit.

Don't talk to mean people.