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You need to have more random sexual exposure. See more guys. You'll end up meeting a guy who does make you feel like that. And tell him to take it slow. That way you get enough time to heal. It's trauma recovery. With patience from your lover, you can open slowly. You might feel rigid but slowly your rigidity will lessen. This will need time. And then you can open up freely. Your first proper comfortable sexual experience is a long way to come but not too long. Hopefully you will gain the confidence to be at ease in your sexual experiences Just don't judge yourself too much. Your reaction is pretty common among sexual assault victims.. It's an important to find a partner who understands your past without judging.

Whats the meaning of these words lol? I have no clue. These are probably Indian words but not sure.

Thank you for your reply. What's Fe + Ni? I'm sorry I'm new to these things.

Maybe avoid people as much as you can. Because it seems they create negative energy of fear in you. I think what you're looking for is also liberation and not just fearlessness. This has come a deep ego attachment coming from the social setup around you. Understand that this is your human body trying to stay comfortable in that setup in that sense of fear to survive. Go out for long long walks and say to yourself "everything around me is survival and I no longer find meaning in this meaningless attachment of my ego to survival, I'm truly free and fearless and I can be me." See what difference this exercise makes.. The problem is that your mind has been engineered to think a particular way the way people around you think.. But if you retrain your mind to think in free fearless ways you will feel liberated and you will never think like others again. It's only a matter of training your mind to get used to your non attachment to ego needs.

Yea I agree absolutely. I wouldn't want to get raped by some random guy or even a friend/acquaintance. That would be against my wish and that would actually feel like an actual rape. What I have is just a sexual fantasy of conjugal rape with a guy who I share romantic feelings with, someone I can completely trust. It's also inspired by movies like Gone with the Wind (bit of an old school girl here forgive me). Where the guy snatches the girl and kisses her passionately, obviously he knows she has feelings for him I don't like watching Anime or anything Japanese/Asian (not my type) so I don't know much about Beastars. That article was really revealing but I would describe that as a forceful rape situation because he was clearly putting his hand on her mouth. That's a cheap move and not to be done on a friend who is trusting. If a random man or even a friend got sexual I'd feel absolutely disgusted and even traumatized. I am absolutely thrilled that I managed to open up about something like this. You have no idea, I was thinking about writing this last November here but I didn't out of the intense fear of being shamed. Glad to know that people took it okie dokie. I was actually imagining a comment that would say that I deserved to be raped blah blah blah. I definitely want such a fantasy with a man who is actively trying to seduce me with the intention to develop romantic attachment with me to own me sexually and keep me. A very masculine man though. And I want to be able to rely on him through such a dysfunctional sexual chemistry. A man who is keenly interested in a long term relationship, not just short term thrills and ditching later. In reality a lot of such men are just bad. It's not a romantic novel irl, few men probably have the open mindedness to imagine that it's nice to entertain a woman's sexual fantasies in a non-cheap non-vulgar serious way without demeaning her womanhood. And the culture where I come from, it's absolutely impossible to even make such an utterance.

Just imagine if these right wing message boards called Trump the ultimate Alpha. Just imagine.

@Free Mind I am also looking for something similar and I can't find. Also I don't want it to take up space on my phone because I only use the phone

Finally someone with balls said what needed to be said about this guy. Too many people are scared of criticizing Peterson just because it will make them look wrong or afraid of his cult of fan boys. This guy needed such a public roasting more than Shapiro or Harris. All this IDW nonsense fad.

Jordan Peterson is out of his mind, I don't like how he sows seeds of hate through his gender bias. Totally not cool for this guy. This book will be just as absurd as him. He lumps in a lot of things together to sound perfect or useful. But when you pick his general direction, it's usually about attracting right wing narratives. This guy even went on Joe Rogan and said how he made money off of SJWs. Hard to take such a man seriously whose financial integrity lies in being a provocateur and seeks money through creating divisive politics jn a country already struggling with rift and division. No care about common people, only cares about fattening his bank.

I don't like this phrase "facts don't care about your feelings." This phrase has been making the rounds since 2016 when Trump was rallying. I used to see this phrase in the title of several YouTube videos. It sucks. Because feelings have such a strong impact on the mind and the body that it will take a robot to not be impacted by emotions and feelings. We are human beings and human beings use emotions and feelers to navigate through life. And for those who peddle this philosophy, it's so hypocritical, if they were made to deal with harsher realities they would give emotional reactions as well. Who are you kidding then? Doesn't Trump have emotional meltdowns every now and then on Twitter? Granted logic is necessary. But so is the condition of the mind. It's ridiculous to completely negate a fundamental aspect of living. What matters is not just feelings but what matters more is how you execute them and it will show you your stage of development as a human, if you emotionally react childishly, the way Trump and much of the Right wing does that's the real issue. Meanwhile if you genuinely react being hurt by your circumstances, this is not you being irrationally emotional, but fully within your right to have a reaction.

@seeking_brilliance First 3 items of your list Then.. - a few friends - spirituality for saving my sanity - God

Lol really? Hey I actually thought I wasn't a hippie. Well then good to know from someone else. It's good to be a cool hippie smoking grass under a tree in the forest ~~hippie vibes—> @Preety_India <—

Often people assume that attention seeking behavior is a sign of narcissism. Though attention seeking is only one of the many traits. Some people like attention for various reasons. It does not define narcissism entirely.

A silly mistake that most people make is to assume that just a few traits is enough to make a diagnosis of narcissism. Narcissism is a deep psychological condition and often times is only visible to close people like parents/children/siblings and romantic partners. There are lots of key factors in diagnosing narcissists. You need to see their level of charisma, most narcissists are loved by most people. Low grade narcissism is no problem at all because it's harmless. It's high grade (think industrial grade) narcissism often called malignant narcissism that's a huge cause of worry. Examples being Trump, Charles Manson etc. There have been well known celebrities and famous people known for being malignant narcissists. Their narcissism is very visible and almost Incapable of being ignored. Their narcissism is very in your face. They literally like to dictate terms of everything all by themselves. It's their way or no way. Malignant narcissists often end up becoming cult leaders.

@Etherial Cat yea that could explain it.

Well it's time to take a nap

Apart from ginormous confidence whether fake or real, narcissists have a deep wisdom mixed with stupidity. Narcissists are a paradox of sorts think of Charles Manson In some instances you feel like they have an immense amount of intelligence and wisdom and deep understanding of things yet in other instances you're instantly out off by their obvious ignorance and inability to see their own blindspots, often making you wonder if their intelligence is only a farce. I think narcissists have a compartmentalized brain where one compartment s excellent in analyzing and decoding everyday reality and the other compartment is totally vacuous and seemingly oblivious. Maybe narcissists switch between these two compartments frequently causing confusion and causing people to get caught off guard. The other thing that I frequently observed with narcissists is that they have a subtle negative nihilistic persona and they seem to enjoy it or at least be relieved by experiencing nihilism. Maybe it's a good defense mechanism for their ego. However is their behavior good for their ego? Is their ego serving them benefits of keen wisdom?

He was a very affectionate dad. He was always around. He was the main family member who would play with me, give me toys, take me to places like amusement parks.. The only childhood memories of affection are from him. In fact he gave me all the love that my mother couldn't give. He filled where she left me empty. I did love him greatly yet my relationship with my mom was very complicated and I always yearned for her validation and acceptance, something that I always tried to with the narcissists in my relationships as well.

One thing that I observed about narcissists is that they have enormous confidence and that appears very attractive. This got me thinking of Charles Manson who was an absolute narcissist in my eyes, classic case. No idea if he is still alive or dead. Young women used to hover around him like butterflies. He was a chick magnet. But look at the guy, such a small frame with a beard that almost covered his face, scrawny little dude with the little man syndrome but dude managed to get all the chicks because he was such a narcissistic messiah, he could have such charisma. Narcissists can hold people in such a grip. They want all of your undivided attention.

@Natasha thanks girl. I have already watched a lot of her videos on the topic. Very informative. Will be adding her videos once I'm done with watching Grannon videos

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