Preety_India

Be gentle with yourself. Nothing worse than judging yourself so badly.

The only way to beat this is to actually go out and talk to people and be ready for new experiences. Rest is beating around the bush.

The scientific research is not directed properly. Whatever data they've collected does not point to that kind of conclusion. If a woman has the power to choose the guy she wants to go on a date with, that's really not a power, but more of a right. And to be honest men also have the same choice. It's no different with men. Both men and women have the right to choose a partner. So I don't see how women have a privilege here. It takes two to tango. So instead of focusing on gender dynamics one should simply focusing on improving one's odds in the dating market.

@The Don you did pretty well. Sometimes it's not so much about acceptance and rejection but more about how you display yourself in front of people. You should always maintain your composure no matter what, it shows your maturity. So you did a fine job. Rejections happen. Maybe you two weren't meant together. @Roy your advice is too harsh and blunt. Don't make dating such a harsh game. What you put in comes back to you. There is nothing wrong with telling the woman he likes that he is waiting for her, he is not trying to turn into a pua bull. He is just being normal, if you reacted that way to me I'd have instantly rejected you. That's like telling someone how to look like an asshole in the name of confidence. It doesn't work like that. Dealing with people needs people's skills and one should always be a gentleman no matter what. Speaking rudely to someone only builds up bad energy within oneself. Be careful with how you extrude your masculinity and inspire other men. Masculinity is not always about showing off and flexing yourself. It's also about being projecting yourself and being a high value man which can be done in the most graceful ways rather than being blunt. @ColeMC01 a woman might not be looking for a date when she is signaling interest.. Maybe she just wants to get to know the person? Maybe she wants only friendship. Also maybe she wasn't in the right place to make a decision over a date. If he is friends with her, he can still have a wonderful friendship with her. Don't try to dig too deep into female nature you will get disillusioned. It's not like women don't know what they want or that they are confused. But rather they want more cues to know what they want and they are simply unpredictable in their reactions. Trying to rationalize every move and decision of a woman will lead to disaster.

@PurpleTree he is Jewish

Isn't he Jewish?

@Javfly33 he is very young. Young people do stuff. He shouldn't be judged when he has only started on his journey. Maybe what he does makes him feel better. Maybe that's his style. Not everyone is going to have the same style.

So I began digging into Connor Murphy's videos and found some of these really interesting. He talks about the difference between spiritual enlightenment and manic depressive disorder. He talks a lot about quantum entanglement, electron slit experiment, awakening, enlightenment.. It does appear a bit scattered but it seems like he is getting somewhere. Nice to see him putting a lot of work into this. It seems he was in the psych ward and it must have been a really eye opening experience. I still see him struggling to integrate things together but that looks like an honest effort from his side. Seems like he is going through the Existential Crisis of spiritual awakening. But he seems more aware. He appears ecstatic towards the end and talks about being himself and spiritual liberation and is excited for his new spiritual journey. At first glance, anyone could take this guy for granted, but as you dig deeper, it seems he is really in it. Cheers to this guy for being brave enough to kickstart all this.

(This is my most heartfelt post on this forum that took me some time to write. I put all my positive energy into this post. Because this post means a lot to me. This is just my perspective /opinion to the whole theory of attraction and people. It's also my final word. I call this post the 'beautiful closure'.) Who is the most attractive person in the world? A person with a macho body ..no.. Kidding. In my opinion the most attractive person in the world is a simple, sensitive, honest, sincere, geniune, authentic, and a pure hearted human being. Their smiles are genuine, their hearts are genuine and sincere. They have nothing to hide. They are not scamming anyone. They say things as they see them. Totally open and frank. They never fake emotions or fake words or actions. They do everything with a genuine purpose and good intentions.. To me they are the most attractive men and women on the planet. They are clear in their minds and effervescent in their personality. They have a flair for honesty and a generosity in their approach to people. I see them as having flaws in their looks (society calls it flaws) and they may lack certain skills or knowledge. Maybe they have very little talent but what they have in plenty is a great welcoming honest open heart. I admire such people deeply. I've had the opportunity to meet such people(both men and women) in my school, some guys I remember who would play sports with me. They were fun, amazing, hearty, effervescent and open honest people with a very sincere approach to life and an attitude of humility, grace, gratefulness, sensitivity, politeness, softness,gentleness, decency, playfulness. They are also loyal and faithful to their friends and mean what they say and keep their word. To me such people are the most attractive and simply unbeatable.

@Rilles nope. Working. They finished studies 2 years ago.

Stockholm

@Rilles interesting. I have lots of friends there.

@Striving for more hey my name is Preety. India is the name of the country. Thanks.

I spent 3 years on this forum. And sometimes I feel like I almost got raised here. In a small way. If it wasn't for this forum, I would have died or killed myself and I seriously mean it because I was so upset and going through so much at the time I joined the forum. This forum saved my life. With zero family support, the only support I received was here. I learned so much being here in the last 3 years. I'm very grateful for the people here. Thank you to Leo and all the people here for putting so much attention and effort into this place. This forum is a life saver for suffering people. Thanks again. I'm thrilled that I spent 3 years here. Can't believe it.

@Rilles I just asked.

@Rilles then?

@Rilles are you French?

@PurpleTree the problem is that Hitler wasn't sensible and saw Stalin as a threat to Germany.

I'm finally coming to cracking certain things in life and using a strong foundation in my life based on the Hindu Chakra system and Spiral Dynamics.. Three models Chakra Model Spiral Dynamics Model Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs.

Taken from the forum. I chewed and swallowed 1 gram of Magic Mushroom at 4:30 am. Then I sat on a Chair and started Meditation in my room. It was not deep meditation. I was just switching between meditation and open eyes so I can notice if there are any changes in my experience. After almost 20 minutes suddenly I started to Hear a Clear Sound of Silence (Beep with 528 Hz Frequency) like when we go higher on Mountains or airplanes. And the sounds of my surroundings became secondary. I became more present and started to feel distortion in my body particularly in the face. I was feeling confused and was not sure if these experiences are my misunderstandings or I am actually feeling all this in reality as a psychedelic experience. Now as my feeling was getting intense I started to get a feeling of fear as well. At 05:00 am I thought that what if I fell from the Chair I should go to my bed. So I turned on Meditation Music on speakers and went to bed and sat down there. Colors became more vibrant. I started to see blood veins in my hand. After a few minutes, I thought that this music was distracting me so I asked my Trip Sitter to turn off the music. And I felt that I should lie down at 05:15 am so I lay down. I was feeling that I am drowning in nothingness or void but I felt really scared so I was trying to resist this also and trying to remain in reality with my body. The reason for Fear was that it was my 1st Psychedelic/Spiritual Experience. There was dim yellow light in the room and I started to feel really congested. Negatively, like I am having difficulty breathing, I got an inner call that said go outside into nature so you can feel better and have different experiences with nature. By 05:45 am I asked my Trip sitter to help me to go to the terrace. I was able to concentrate and Focus on things and at the same time, I was confused also. When I came outside everything was very Fresh, Color Full, Vibrant, Bird's sound was really amazing, Echoes at the same time I was feeling like I am in High Fever, I was feeling High Temperature. I could See Clouds really clearly with different layers of clouds, I was able to see and focus in sharp, small details like Hand pores, etc.., Was feeling a little bit of distortion in objects, I was getting an inner call that let’s leave the steering of this body-mind and let me drive but I was scared to leave the control. At the same time, I was in the Happy, Giggling, and Laughing Mode. I was getting laughs and jokes on every worldly thing. I was laughing at everything like I am watching a real comedy movie. The whole universe was looking like a comedy and a dream as well. My language was also like a funny thing to me. The funniest thing was “Time”. I do not want to think or talk about time because it was the funniest thing in this universe. Because at that time here and now was the only thing that matters and I was sure that the Future and the past did not exist. I was getting inner calls that now don’t focus on this body and world because this world is a Funny Dream. Focusing on the world will cause you only laughter and nothing else. Leave this World, body, and mind and become 1 with nature or consciousness. But I had a feeling of fear and was trying to hold this Dreamworld. I was feeling Morphing in my body. Around 06:10 am my feeling of fear dissolved and I got an inner call that now I should get serious if I want to learn something new I was ready to go with the flow and was serious to learn, understand. Around 06:16 am I was feeling intense Joy, Calmness, Amazing, Freedom. I was feeling very trapped in the body like I am trapped in a very small thing and there is no oxygen and I wanted to come out of this world and body. I felt like birds were talking to me. I had a lot of compassion toward every being. There was a whole Universe or infinite Well or infinity in each cell, or atom, grain of sand, in everything. Focus on each object was sucking me into the infinity of that spec. There was infinity in each pore of my skin. Now I was looking at my body and all other things in a 3rd Person. Like VR Game Experience. My whole body was melting away. It felt like I have left everything but I am stuck at the back of my head. I was in total presence, I didn't want to hold on to thoughts and memories, and everything in each moment was perfect. There was Blind and infinite well in each thing, object or thoughts. In which well I was focusing on I was getting sucked into that thought or thing. I was not able to identify which sound is coming from where. I was getting aware of everything but was losing my sense of My Words and body. Everything was dissolving into nothingness. Everything was flowing like Air or River. Nothing was staying. Each moment was unique. I don’t want to talk about the previous moment. I was feeling distortion in Heartbeats also. Whenever I was laughing I felt like my mouth would morph into an infinite wide open. This body was feeling like a prison. Then my 2-year-old daughter woke up and came to me. I was amazed to see her. It was like I was looking at her for the first time. And she was looking cutest. There was a whole universe inside her eyes. I wanted to drown in the infinity of her eyes. For some time I enjoyed her cuteness and company and Now I want solitude so I can understand things more deeply. Sometimes my hands were looking like baby hands and sometimes it was looking like monster hands. Then I decided to go inside to enjoy a few things from the computer and for Meditation. I asked my Trip sitter to help me to go inside. And When I stood up I felt so amazed. It was like I am wearing VR Glasses and watching my body arms in the third person. My body was looking very small. But I was able to control my body and walk. When I came inside it was like I was looking at my home from inside the 1st time. The entry door of my room looked very small. I sat on my computer chair and started watching a few nature Pictures and I was getting sucked into those pictures. Then I Started to Watch the Documentary “Moving Art” on Netflix (Nature Documentary) and after just 5 minutes. I started to cry through my heart and there were tears in my eyes and while crying my feelings and thought was that I or He (God) is alone and has no one for the company to enjoy and these World objects, World Nature, etc..are the only Imaginations I have for my company. I or He (God) has nothing other than this dream and I had intense compassion and self-pity at that time. At that time I felt that Surah Ikhlas (Verses of Quran) is not just a surah it is a His Sad Story as well... Everything on the computer was looking very clear and sharp. Wisdom & Insights I got during this Trip: He is just exploring himself. He is infinite. Everything is him. He is happy and enjoying everything and wants us to just explore and enjoy. Enjoy the dream. Don’t take anything seriously. Then I thought I was wasting my time on the computer so I shut down the computer and came back to my bed and started Meditation. I closed my eyes and there were a few blurred and faded patterns. It was like there were infinite doors and He (God) was asking which door do you want to enter. Then I felt like laying so I get laid on the bed. Now I feel that my psychedelic experience is going to end so I thought now I should spend some time with my family. I came to my family room enjoyed the cuteness of my daughter for a bit more time than I thought I should watch myself in the Mirror so I got up and went in front of the mirror and I got really disappointed I was looking really bad and unhealthy and felt self-pity and asked myself that what have you done with this body which was a temporary gift to you. At 08:00 am I was back home from my trip.

@Tim R what's the concern? Or is the concern even legitimate? Don't you think a psychedelic revolution is on the way already?

To me Hitler is a solid combination of red and Blue. He used brute force to get what he wanted. However i don't see Hitler as a narcissist. To me he was drunk in passion, he wanted something, a purpose, probably the best example of a delusional toxic life purpose.. I don't think Hitler wanted power but righteousness. In his mind what he was doing was exactly right and necessary. It seems he put his creative energy into politics and wanted it to thrive. His ideas were too extreme and far fetched, from the depth of pure madness. I wonder what Hitler would have been like if he were a young man today, would he be equally mad or would he chill himself in a bunker with psychedelics. One thing is true. Hitler was a brave soldier. He took risks unlike the draft dodger in the white house right now. He won medals in the army. Yet it sounds inappropriate to associate the word brave with someone like Hitler. I often wonder if there can ever be a positive version of Hitler. Someone kind and protective yet upfront brave and tenacious. Someone open minded to all races and yet resilient and passionate and firm in their pursuit of life..

Senses are to help understand reality. Both objective reality and hidden reality.

... What are the changes through the last year?