Preety_India

@Dark_White @Dark_White The ruling planet for Pashyami or Pushya is Saturn while the God is Brihaspati or Saturn. My family is not into astrology. I went and paid an astrologer and got a scan copy of my horoscope or kundli.

I just want to pour my heart out Everytime. It hurts so bad sometimes. I often ask myself - what's wrong with me? And the answer is always hidden in deep layers. Layers of trauma. There is something that eats me inside. The lack of love as a child hurts too much. Having to had to witness my father dying from terminal illness and finally succumbing to it while I was just a teen was too much to take Those memories hurt too much. Never having a sense of freedom or space or happiness. My mother was extremely emotionally abusive towards both me and my father. His problems were a direct result of her behavior. She was reckless and extremely dominating. She was miserable to deal with. She would give everyone a hard time. She would stare me down with anger, get physically abusive. There was just nobody to run to. Nobody to ask for help. Growing up under her was very difficult. Everyday was a struggle.

@Dark_White it's nothing but pushya

Today I saw a post on the forum that I really liked a lot. how to go Meta morality? what are your perspective about morality? for example I develop a framework of Meta morality that is based on chrstianity faith. “Thou shalt have no other gods before me.” — Exodus 20:3 he understandood he is God but the situation he is in makes it impossible because bestality can't be God, the mind can't be God but idol. saying I am God only makes consciousness to ego. consciousness can't be materialise, which ultimately turns it to the devil, Worshipping devil is sin. because man isn't consciousness but matter too. man is a microcosm being. man contains a mixture identity. 2. “Remember the sabbath day, to keep it holy.” — Exodus 20:8 respecting oneself and God. Worshipping God on the sabbath day. 3. “Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee.” — Exodus 20:12 he understandood mother and father aren't only of flesh but evey living being of earth are his mother in soul and his father in sprit. realized not only physical mother and father but the breath of holy sprit in evey human soul is his mother. and the image of God sprit found on every human being is his father. 4. “Thou shalt not kill.” — Exodus 20:13 not only physical killing but people's ego as well, thier identity. 5. “Thou shalt not commit adultery.” — Exodus 20:14 adultery in this stage isn't only of sleeping in flesh but also fornication with soul too. avoiding living from the ego. 6. “Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbour.” — Exodus 20:16 being clean in every aspect of life and obeying God law's in every directions of life. not bearing false witness weather at work or in every part of our life. Edited Monday at 06:46 PM by Conscious life missing passage

☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ In order to organize life successfully, you should also know what you really want. Do some inner connection exercises to know get to know the inner self and psyche well. ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ The problem that I deal with is that I don't have or at least I think I don't have sharp mental skills and I suffer because of that. I think one way to beat this issue is to play games that increase mental acuity and alertness, sharpness, increase grasping power and concentration and increase memory. I'm going to do that and a host of other things that will improve not only my cognitive skills but add to intellectual expansion. I also want to improve my communication and articulation and contemplation skills and get better at deep insightful and deep reasoning based thinking. Gonna read some books and work on basic mental skills ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ Another thing on my list is to know what real spirituality is? The definition of spirituality keeps changing and I want to incorporate and integrate every definition of spirituality in my life. I want to embrace all forms and ways of being spiritual in my life. That was always my main focus. I want to know what spiritual healing really means so that I can effectively pursue it and make it a concrete part of my life. The definition of anything spiritual has always been wishy washy, vague, and unclear. ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ The other thing that I'm going to focus on is OTM and condensed learning. ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ Not only should you know what you really want(in a basic way) but also make a laundry list of things that you would like to know more about or things that are sitting unresolved or new things that you might have wanted to explore in your free time or anything that's been bothering you about your personal growth. ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️. Remember that making friends is less of an associative process but more of an elimination process. Don't be scared to reject those who don't resonate. ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ I'm also going to focus on improving and developing critical survival skills, both physical and mental survival. And emotional survival as well. Maybe the clue to all the metaphysical/ spiritual activity in the world might in physical things. Will work on Upgrading my survival arsenal and learning critical life skills ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️

Spend your day in organizing and structuring things. I like how this woman speaks ?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️ ?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️ Is this information currently relevant to what I want to get done? Is this action/reaction currently relevant to what I want to get done? Increase focus and reduce distractions. ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ Sometimes you have to ask yourself how much am I putting in (in terms of general distraction) and how much am I receiving (in terms of personal growth)? ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ Because questioning and questionnaire is going to be a big part of self awareness!! ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ One basic question to ask yourself while doing anything is "what am I accomplishing while doing this?" and if you're not accomplishing anything it's important to stop doing what you're doing to stop feeding the distraction cycle. And if you feel like you are really going to accomplish something, (Btw this is your just your anticipation and expectation, not necessarily the outcome) then by all means invest a measured amount of time and effort into it, but anywhere along the way you get a whiff that things aren't going as you thought and you are likely going to be ending up accomplishing nothing despite your anticipation and it would be wiser for you to cut losses and cut corners and come back to doing something more essential and useful to your goals. Try to streamline your actions to suit your goals.

The key aspect would be how to integrate different spiritual components into my life along with the materialistic components. How to integrate everything into my schedule

Learn better. Be better. Don't make the same mistakes again or you'll be a fool. Learn something new everyday such that it is useful to your life. It benefits you. Does it benefit your self development? Ask yourself, why am I doing this? Learn to hop to the next plane Everytime. From your lower plane to the higher plane. At every plane you need to show greater awareness, maturity and intelligence.. Always try to come to a point of closure because the mind has a nagging need to distract itself.

So ask yourself these questions so that you have a track of your time, a track of your activity, a grip of your time, a grip of your activity. Keep an activity log and keep a time log. Or are you simply wandering like a leaf, scattered brain?

Daily Self awareness. Ask a bunch of questions to yourself Did I get this job done What did I want to focus on today? What did u accomplish today? What is my plan today? Did I report in correctly? Am I keeping a track of time? How am I spending my time right now (productive or distracted) What can I be doing right now that can add value to my life? What are the goals for this week? How much am I implementing of whatever I'm consuming or learning? Am I really learning? Am I having a sense of closure? Do I have a fixed framework to organize my life around?

Member Raphael here helps me a lot with self awareness..

I think as a Pisces im always trying to seek closure in some form But closure is an elusive thing.

When you are an introvert trying to deal with people, it gets tough. You feel like you are an old rugged ship in the sea that steadily and heavily makes its way through the turbulent waters. The ship carries many scars and spots and broken parts,holes in its structure, loosening ropes, muddied paint through years of being used roughly and maneuvered around in dangerous toxic seas. (superior arguments and cutthroat language)

When you peep out of your shell for once to get a whiff of socializing with people and to feel less lonely, and then it hits you that it's the same old stupid nonsense and you retreat back into your shell. So much for community.

When you are apologetic, warm, kind and gentle to someone and what they give you in return is a big slap, then you need to cower back and simply protect your aura and be more self protective and remain to yourself.. No need to engage with such people. Just be you. Sometimes my introversion tends to protect me. It's hard enough already to deal with such folks. I always have a hard time with hostile people. Especially the passive aggressive ones.

By letting yourself be detached from inner judgement.. Be supportive of yourself. Also more self love.

His motivations aren't relevant.

Yea I don't get it since he is all about the environment. Kinda sneaky and hypocritical.

Reporting in at 10.00 Just browsed the forum. Made an important entry Will be focusing on conscious forum use Posted a topic in Society section and let's see how it goes. The post in Actualization section turned into a bummer. Going to post lesser and lesser on this forum now. I found that much learning doesn't come through posting questions. I agree a lot with @electroBeam about the use of the forum. I also expressed this same sentiment in another one of my threads in the self actualization section. There are other psychedelic communities which are way more useful. This forum is also clogged by a lot of right wing shit. Will minimize my activity here. Only use it for logging journals and self awareness exercises.

I call this my crazy favorite. It puts me in a mood where I feel like a ghost has fallen in love with me. K. B. Caps do you really need me Michael Bedford more than a kiss Lady of ice fancy Ago computer in my mind Toybox Super duper man Eenie Meenie Miney Mo Toybox Www.girl Best friend Aqua Barbie girl Gazebo. Love in your eyes Gazebo sun goes down the milky way Baltimora Tarzan boy

Another song with the 90s feel

I got addicted to this song when I heard it at a neighbor's party 10 years ago. I was so addicted to it. It had a 90s feel to it. It was my favorite back then.

I used to love ATC. I used to always listen to older music from the 80s. I wasn't interested in the music of 2010s. Teen mode activated

Gazebo I like Chopin Black - Wonderful life Gazebo I like Chopin original Savage (my favorite singer) - Radio Silent Circle - Touch in the night My ultimate favorite romantic song Silent Circle - moonlight affair (all versions) I'm sucker for italo disco I love everything Italian. My ex was Italian. Hehe. One of my favorite sung by my favorite singer Savage. Takes me to another world The old computer in this song makes me giggle. I almost fall in love with Savage when I watch him in this video. Another favorite. I was such a sucker for these songs like 10 years ago in my teens. There's always different about Real McCoy

?? My heartfelt post for men?? Trying to understand the male perspective and also trying to appreciate men a little more. It also makes me love men more. How difficult it must be for men to live up to the male stereotype, especially those who feel anxiety around being more open to showing emotions Men come around even when rejected. They can be so humble and sweet. Being able to have a four minute phone conversation and say absolutely everything that needs to be said, men try to keep everything drama free as much as possible. Men can sometimes be the best friends. Men become boyfriends and husbands and fathers, brothers and friends. They help in creating and expanding families Men are protective of women and they have a natural protective instinct towards women. Men don't take anything too seriously, they let go and forgive easily. Men are so chivalrous. Seeing their chivalry, I'm developing a lot of love and kindness for men. I remember always asking my boyfriend 'manly jobs' like unscrewing tough jar lids and feeling so glad that he would do it for me. Men help women when they're requested. Men don't forget old friendships. The worst part of being a man is people assuming life is easier for men I never focused so much on male beauty. But when I started thinking about it, it occurred to me that men are beautiful and special in their own way. They have effortless beauty in their arms and chest, legs and shoulders. Men have a sharp jawline and they look adorable with their cute eyebrows. All men are handsome and beautiful in their own ways. All men are charming in their own style. Men do so much for society. They build places, they build civilizations they run governments yet they receive very little credit for what they do for society. #Mentoo - men become victims of violence and rape too. Everyday many men die due to violence and no fault of their own. Very little attention is paid to violence perpetrated on men. There are no institutions or programs to handle men who get abused in their families physically or mentally. A lot of men are regularly dumped or divorced and thrown out when they no longer appear useful to the partner. A lot of men suffer betrayals and get cheated on and suffer trauma for the rest of their lives. Men love to make women laugh. Men put so much effort in wooing women. Men make us laugh and men make us happy by their presence in our lives. Men are never seen much as sexual creatures. But men can be sexy too. Almost all men have a raw sexiness to them simply by the virtue of being male. Their testosterone renders them a unique sex appeal and this can make them incredibly attractive. Men can look good even without much grooming. Their masculine voice can make them very charming and irresistible. Men have inherent leadership skills and men work very hard to make their life work. Men are providers to their families, wives and children. Men make sure that their children are raised in the best environment and work hard to provide the best to their children. Men can be wonderful creatures when they are given enough attention. I feel sorry for men who were raised by abusive moms or narcissistic mothers and fathers. A lot of men feel unloved and uncared for in life. A lot of men are simply misunderstood. Men are constantly put under pressure to perform in every possible way. When men try to show emotions, they are insulted, ridiculed or belittled. Men have emotions too and these emotions can run deep. Men are awfully judged when showing their emotions and its quite detrimental to their emotional and mental health. Men are constantly told to man up. When they could have easily been the victim and in need of help, they are still told to man up. This can be an incredible challenge for men. Men are rarely given or shown empathy. Men are easily relegated to the corner or often taken for granted by society and rarely shown empathy when they go through horrific events in life, their pain is very easily forgotten. Men do so much labor and devote themselves passionately to their life and community goals. Men can be so loving and kind and beautiful. They can have such lovely hearts, strong bodies and determined minds. So a big thank you to all the men for being men and being the nicest that you can be. Thank you men for being men. A big kiss to all men out there. ?❤️ ???????????????