Preety_India

Dude, you're on some other level than everyone. Hope I can achieve your state and maturity some day Glad I'm subscribed to you. No compliments will ever be enough. I cry watching your videos.

Why this ? What makes you think this ?

You are liar You are fake

@Eph75 you sound sweet even after getting so many kicks. Must be that meditation or some secret psychedolic.

@Eph75 who knows maybe you'll help me become that. I'm trying to be a high quality woman Let's see. I need a pat on my back. Give.

@Eph75 I'm a bit high strung.

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You played with my heart. Never do again what you did to me. Never break someone's heart the way you did mine.

You lied to me so that I will stay with you. You tried to convince me that you are the best man in the world. You tried to win me only to hurt me Go away.

Ok I'm sorry if I hurt you. I don't mean to at all. You understand me a bit better than most people on the forum. And also you're mostly kind to me, which I appreciate despite the disagreements we run into.

Yes. When I don't feel like it's helpful to me, I should say it as I feel it. What's the point of hiding and simply agree to something that I don't feel like agreeing from my heart ? I would much rather prefer to speak truthfully to you than make you feel better about helping me when it's not actually helping me. By the way I am grateful for your kindness you show to me. No complaining there uncle sam. You would have become a great boyfriend to me if you were living close to me. But we would have fought a lot over little things. Hehe.

Yup. You're the one preaching into my ears. And I refuse to listen.

Have you tried drinking lots of water ?

Where things really went wrong and how..

I have finally figured why I suffer so much. And the root cause of my troubles. The root cause is that I'm not selfish. I'm barely selfish. But not selfish enough to maintain survival. I'm simply surviving but selfishness is not a solid background underneath my survival My survival is aimless like that of a poet who sits down by the river and keeps writing songs but never actually does anything that will truly help his survival. His bare instinct is helping him.

Yup.

This answer by another user is extremely helpful and insightful, in fact the most important insight on my problem. I can't believe it. It really goes deeper into my problem. I'm insightful and creative. Yet some deep introspection is missing this is great....... Well I guess the first question to act yourself is what is blocking you from meeting your own needs in these situations right now? The reason you can't act more 'selfish' is because you have a certain fear behind what will happen if you do. Only you can know/ figure out what that is. There seems to be an underlying need you're meeting that is taking priority over meeting your other needs. Your job is to introspect and figure out what that block/ fear is so you can consciously choose what needs to meet rather than unconsciously.

Sticking fingers in my ears.

This was extremely insightful almost psychologically going deeper into my psyche. Great job at dissecting my thought. Even I can't do it. I really need to introspect on whatever you brought up. Thanks for pointing me in that direction. I just wasn't aware. So your post really helped me notice that.

You are right.

So Emerald (from Diamond Net) made a neat and cute list for me on how to become more masculine and how to integrate masculine qualities that I lacked. And I really love the list. It's concise and has every quality on it that I struggle to embody. It's very important to integrate the masculine side as a woman because it helps you temper the Shadow Feminine qualities of indecisiveness, fretfulness, and vagueness... among others. I recommend integrating the following masculine-principled qualities... Emotional mastery Stoicism Ambition Purpose Assertiveness Strong boundaries Self-focused drives Individuality Intellectuality Discipline Courage Generosity (Giving orientation) Having principles Endurance Having a focus towards something bigger than you that you're willing to kill and die for

Oh yes yes yes. This is what I was lacking creating too much frustration in me. Thank you so so much for making that list. It's really helpful. Thanks again. You rock.

@Eph75 I love your rants. What sort of meditation techniques do you do ?

Then don't read my comments. You have ignore option. Use it.

Make short lists everyday to not lose focus.