Preety_India

Sometimes I feel like I want to stare into the Abyss. The void. The darkness. It brings back a sense of peace. I have never been arrogant. Suddenly the darkness tells me that being arrogant is a good thing. Just be yourself my-mind-goes-blank

I have always felt like people with high EQ feel lonelier than the general crowd.

Good point.

After my recent breakup with my boyfriend, I began to get lonelier. Loneliness began to bite me.. Yet being in that toxic relationship was not a solution to heal loneliness.

There's no point in begging people to cure your loneliness. You have to do it on your own. I know it's tough living in a world where you don't feel valued enough. But this is your struggle. Heal on your own. Don't give into self pity.

Is salt good at retaining water ?

@Leo Gura tell @StarStruck to take it easy and be chill around girls. He doesn't understand what women feel comfortable with. You should tell him to let it loose and be light hearted around women..it's not about sexiness, more like being strict stresses a woman too much.

@StarStruck my God, can you loosen yourself just an inch ? You act so stiff like everything is a rule to you Girls hate that. You need to funny and playful and very impromptu. You should be very quick and easy to get along If you make things strict, the girl will get bored

And a bit of genuineness.

I just don't want to talk to anyone (except a few people who respect me ) . I just don't wanna talk. I get hurt by all this shaming. It doesn't do me good It hurts me. I rather not. I just keep to myself. That's why I changed my profile picture to a blank black slate . I'm fed up being treated like a clown and constantly being considered a nuisance when I'm just being my genuine self. It hurts deep How do you feel when you're disrespected ? Same. I don't want any drama. I never wanted to begin with. I think I should strictly talk to only people who respect me. Enough of everyone's projections and bullshit assumptions. Like I said it hurts. I'm already a lonely,isolated repressed, suppressed woman. On top of all this shaming gets to me. It's like being blamed for nothing. It hurts. Because I'm just me. I constantly feel punished for only being me. I have understood that there is no point in expecting that people will respect me. Because it will never happen. It's a huge mistake to assume that people are going to welcome with open arms. That's a joke, I'm a fool to believe that. I should drop it, it's a mistake to ask for love, it's a mistake to ask for warmth, it's a mistake to ask for respect. A nihilistic perspective serves me much better, soothes the inner flames and anxiety/expectation of something better, the anticipation that people will love and respect me. Well, it's just a pipedream. Humanity will always survive and progress and achieve big things. But these things will only serve the ego. A true lonely heart will never find a place in this world. This world can never cure that. Like Christ said - "it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God." My happiness stays with me and dies with me. It can't be shared because the world doesn't want me. The world get richer and richer and lonelier and lonelier because all these bodies that want all the goodies, all this materialism, they're basically dead inside, they're hollow and empty inside, devoid of a beating heart! So whatever they achieve, they'll never have love. Because true love doesn't exist in this world, doesn't exist in this materialism. Here a poet will die a lonely death. Those who seek love, the world will only give them misery and hurt/pain. It's a mistake to expect love..this world is bitter and cold, an emotional poet will die here.. I have a poet's heart. I can't take this world anymore. It hurts me.. Let God take me back. I can get relief. There is pain in my writing, because there is pain in my heart. It will never go away.

There was a certain kind of discomfort brewing within me in the light of recent Changes going on. I hate narcissism.

This sounds like conspiracy.

Winderbeetle is someone, a character I developed who plays the role of a doctor. A doctor who talks to me and the bunny family and he will say interesting things related to psychology and medicine. This will also help me hone my psychological skills.

You don't have to bash yourself for feeling lonely. No it's okay how you feel.

But why do we need it now ?

Don't be a drama collector. Be a drama deflector. There are many opportunities that come up for drama. For example Yesterday there was someone in the journal commenting. And it was really Targeting me. So I kinda decided not to participate in that. The other example was my thread ....in which I was slut shamed and I decided (instead of engaging with the person and fighting and arguing with them) I chose to simply get the thread locked.

Good morning Suburbians! I start my day with my little family of bunnies..

My little fam are these imaginary bunch of rabbits who I want to talk to everyday. I wanna call them Suburbians. They're cute as my fantasy characters. And Winderbeetle is a doctor (doctor cosplay photo )

My little fam are these imaginary bunch of rabbits who I want to talk to everyday. I wanna call them Suburbians. They're cute as my fantasy characters.

I think one solution to this early morning problem is to cut out drama from your life. Whenever an opportunity for drama arises, don't be tempted to give into it, it could be n number of reasons like Can you map your psychology from moment to moment, wouldn't that be great ? I created the character Winderbeetle and Suburbians my-mind-goes-blank

You hurt me. And it still hurts. You lied to me. It's no joke You played with my heart. You didn't love me. It was all a show.

My mind often stays blank unless I'm engaging myself in something. It's tough when I wake up in the morning.. I'm trying to bring positive changes to my life and the process is incredibly slow because my mind feels numb. Part of this might have to do with stress/trauma response. So the blank state stays for quite some time, nearly an hour until I jolt myself back out of it, snapping out of it,this happens on its own. Have you felt this way and what practical tips do you suggest to keep the mind in order and not have to suffer this constantly. Forgetfulness Absent mindedness Blankness Stress Avoidance Unawareness

Maybe whatever I'm experiencing is a huge stress response. It could be a multitude of things. One of the things that I need to target here is Forgetfulness Absent mindedness Blankness Stress Avoidance

So I feel a bit of forgetfulness whenever I wake and I don't know why. It just happens. I feel cold, dull and empty. ..... I can deal with this. Ask yourself this question - What am I forgetting here? It will most likely be usual things. The other thing to ask oneself is What am I gaining here ? What is my advantage ? Remember it becomes a distraction when you forget things. I feel a bit kinda brain scattered and "going blank" .....this state doesn't help me at all. I think it's the result of trauma and stress.

Still not vaccinated ? Are you sure? And what's stopping them from getting a vaccine?