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From your posts I have read so far - you got a problem with pleasing Work on yourself and

I think he does love you. But something is still missing which is hard to figure out because his part is not here. So no idea how he feels. Relationships are very complex. At the end of the day, only honest communication with a person brings out the true picture.

What does he generally say to you when you tell him you love him..

Yes I do feel like some sort of an emotion is attached to my profile picture. Although others simply see it as a profile pic, I see it as something that has a life of its own. Funny how that works. But I can't help feeling it that way. To me every profile picture signifies a particular sentiment, event, mood, vibe, situation in my life, artistic or Aesthetic sentiment or value. I pay careful attention to what picture I select to use as a profile picture and its a deep sentimental process, sometimes it can be a fun gif, other times it can be a sad woman if Im upset or sad or going through a hard time. Sometimes I upload a picture and I'll be like, "ehh, this doesn't vibe at all or looks completely different from what I imagined to look like." I'm a super emotional person and I consider myself to be an HSP, highly sensitive person. I guess I can relate to how you feel yet most normal people won't be able to relate to that. It's almost as if I find a sentiment buried in everything I look at. If I look at a statue, I see a sentiment in it. If I bake a cake, it's because I was having a good day, if i look at a flower, I see some meaning in its color, I can see emotions and sentiments in people's faces, in colors, in objects, they convey some vibe, feeling, value, whereas to most people they're simply mundane objects. I never changed anything around me. But when I buy something, I make sure I really like it so I don't have to throw it away. I rarely refurbish or redecorate. With objects I'm less picky than with profile pictures. I think this is because I see general objects such as walls and furniture as emotionally distant from my inner self so I don't pay those objects much attention. A profile picture is associated with identity of a person and maybe for that reason it comes emotionally too close to my self or inner self. So I guess I tend to profile pictures a little more seriously than other things. I also suffer social anxiety and in real life I'm constantly trying to hide myself from other people. When people look at me, I get anxious and look in another direction. Also I'm too shy and introverted, so I pretty much remain cocooned in a shell of my own, rarely peeking out. This behavior is also reflected in my profile picture. I guess when people visit my profile, I get a bit self conscious and this awkwardness causes me to get a feeling that breeds the thought - "my profile picture must be weird and that's why people are visiting my profile, so I must change it." It's the social anxiety, shyness, Introversion contributing to feeling self conscious. I suffer this as well. In my case, it's more about energy. I guess my profile picture is always hauntingly looking at me. Not having a profile picture is not an option because that would translate as "empty" or "zero identity" which is equally bad, so something has to be there for the sake of existing, yet every profile picture tends to emit an energy. This is the energy I tend to internalize while writing posts. So if the energy feels negative, it interferes with my writing and I immediately take down that picture. The profile picture stays up as long as it is giving the right kind of energy. Or it feels like it's out of touch with my inner energy and doesn't resonate any more. In a sense it literally turns into a catalogue or calendar of different aesthetic pictures that I put on rotation. Yes definitely. Whenever I'm browsing online, if I come across a new picture, I'm like "this is how I'm exactly feeling like right now, I need this as my new look, this picture is so me," and I download it immediately and it's fun in the moment. Sometimes I download a whole set of pictures and keep testing them serially to see if they perfectly resonate with how I want it. I treat it as serious business. If I am not satisfied and even if the picture looks good enough, I take it down simply because it doesn't appeal to my emotions anymore. In this sense, I'm sort of a perfectionist. I'm a perfectionist even in my journal writing. I carefully choose my journal titles and topics. If something goes wrong or does not resonate, I scrape it off and restart the whole process. To me every word in the journal should be exactly how I wanted it, the same exact word and style gets reproduced the same exact way in every journal. You must have observed that my style stays the same with little difference here and there. That's why I'm not too verbose in my journals, every word is carefully selected and specific to what it should mean. This is some cumbersome labor but it is satisfying at least. I do experience some resistance when it comes to changing . And God forbid if my mother even slightly placed some object in my room out of order, all hell breaks loose. I fight tooth and nail to have that object placed right back in the same place. It's like everything in my room has to be how I wanted it. Or else it agitates.. One day an insignificant box was missing on my table and I never used the box in almost a year. Yet I remembered somehow that something was missing, although I wasn't sure what it was, but I felt like something was moved or disappeared from its place. I asked my mother about it. When she told me that it was a box, I threw a huge fit, and I ran to the dumpster and searched through it and got it and placed it back on the table. It was just an empty box. But if it is in my space, I develop some sort of a connection with it. My mother and other people don't understand all this. It's complicated but I understand why I do what I do. Yea. Me too. For me literally everything is a catharsis. Few people understand how emotions work. Yep. My feelings change very rapidly, not in a bipolar kind of way. But as is visible in most of my journals, my emotions are very extreme and direct. Journaling does help in keeping those emotions in place. It's the same with pictures. If the emotion is missing, the picture is outdated and not resonating anymore. Lately I have been tired of changing profile pictures. I changed it so much that I got sick of changing. I kinda need a break from constantly feeling agitated or "out of alignment." So i have finally that I will use a few pictures on rotation depending on my mood, it can save my energy spent in searching for new ones. So i decided on these pictures and each of these will represent a certain mood and will be chosen as per the mood of the day /week. When I am generally in a happy mood, I'll choose this one. If I'm feeling dull, Melancholic or serious, I am going to use this, which I'm currently using. If I'm just angry or moody or being extra Introverted, this picture kinda vibes with that. If I am feeling peaceful, breezy and upbeat or just normal, I'll upload this one If I'm feeling playful, childish, less serious, if I want to fool around the forum a bit and pull someone's leg, I might use this kitty pic

This is not an example of supportive behavior. I think you don't love him enough. At least that's the vibe I'm getting from the post. Because you're trying to decide things that he needs to decide. In that case, you should let him go and he can find someone who truly loves and cares about him.

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Well to each his own.

Well if you want to take it spiritually then Yea, I agree with the whole karma thing. But practically speaking, you need to step up your A game and not let someone poach your hard earned money. Be slick, be smart, do your research right and always be vigilant. Their karma will be taken care of in the mean time.

I'm not hyped yet. I might have preferred some other YouTuber. An interview with Sadhguru would be a treat to my ears.

A little twist. I am morphing Leo's character into something that is feminine. (I've this huge thing with characters) Like Leo turning into a female character (for my girly girly self), and I'll name it Claire. So Claire in the form of Leo is going to be a character for my books.

I'm like you in that regard. Happens. But we learn eventually. It's far too common. I don't have a sureshot way to avoid being scammed because in reality there is none, manipulation is such a thing that when it's really well orchestrated, it's kinda hard to know what's going on behind closed doors. One suggestion is to always invest in something that's fully transparent. If there's anything the company chooses to not disclose or there is stuff you aren't sure about, then never invest in that. Go for something that's so transparent and popular that it just cannot be a scam For example, if I attended a Tony Robbins session, I can never call it a scam. Everyone knows it's your money's worth. That's why branding is so important. It builds trust. Most companies or organizations that scam people are not good with branding, obviously because they can't build a brand, given their shaky reputation. That's their weak spot and that's where you catch them. And another suggestion is time. Give some time before you take the leap. Time is a great teacher. If you allow more time, you are more likely going to find something about that company or offer that will make you to pull back. Some things are good in the beginning. But give it a couple of months, don't invest and you will receive a call from some acquaintance telling you how they find that company /business shaky. What I mean you tend to gather more clues if you wait for the right opportunity where everything gets exposed sooner or later. It's more or less like detective work.

@Ethan1 you lol. You're gullible. You need to take a tiny bit of blame here. From all the stories you said, you tend to easily trust anyone who wants your money. Have you explored that a bit? Maybe you should?

That's a horrible thing. I have always heard about Indian scam callers. I never knew it was this bad. Our government is too corrupt and lazy to put this in check. They do nothing about them. It seems senseless to me. Right now I have several messages on my phone from Indian companies that send scam messages to get people to invest money in some ponzi scheme. And the Government of India constantly sends messages to Indian citizens almost regularly to avoid scammer calls and texts. This is like a routine in my country where I have almost become used to it. Once my mother was going to give all her bank details to an unknown caller who threatened her that she had violated bank rules. I had to snatch the phone out of her hands and warn her to not ever fall for that kind of rubbish. She doesn't understand and she is not that literate. She actually believed the caller and didn't realize that they were fooling her. For me it is such a regular thing that the moment I get such a call, I disconnect. I get at least 3-4 calls a month that are like that. It's shitty that the Government doesn't do enough to give the citizens some respite from this horror. Also every day some Indian citizen who is uneducated and naive usually ends up falling for such scams and end up losing their money and I really feel sorry for them Unless the government does something severe this won't stop. So these are the recent messages I have on my phone, some from the scammer Indian companies and some from the Government of India urging citizens to not respond to scammers. Following are Messages from fraudulent Indian companies /scammers These are messages from Indian Government warning to avoid scammers

Self upliftment exercise. Today I received a thousand thank you letters.

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Wow. He is a real dick. Charging a nephew. Absolutely heartless. Such people make relationships fickle. I have a couple of people who are like that in my family. It makes me hate the word "family," feels everything is fake.

Self upliftment exercise. I received a thousand thank you letters exercise I created this picture where I'm receiving several Thank you letters to boost my self esteem and sense of worth. It creates a feeling of wanting and Belongingness and a feeling of pride and satisfaction that people find me valuable.

A thousand thank you letters. We are all looking to become whole. Maybe I found my wholeness in God. May God liberate us from all these bonds.

Everyone deserves love and I'm an emotional person.

In my opinion, the feminine energy lies in deep empathy

Journal divided into two parts — the mind is one consciousness — secrets of the universe

Focus on high self esteem behaviors. <I don't like to be logged in here >

In tune with my body. Journal will be divided into two parts — healthy social role — in tune with my body