Preety_India

This relationship won't work. She is too deep into guilting herself. If she has a problem in having sex lovingly with the man she is in love with, what else is left? You can't do anything here. Be honest with her. Religion should not interfere with the bedroom.

I'm leaving this journal for emotional reasons. I'll continue the content in other journals. Bye.

Learning a lot from my personal guru and guide Leo Gura. Leo I'll forever be indebted to you for all that you have done. This is another dimension of my spiritual journey. Understanding Leo on a deeper level.

(write later about emotional reward) So i do come across thoughts like — is this just all in my head? Maybe what I'm thinking is not real at all? Lately I have had such thoughts. So I'm trying to dissociate myself from things that appear real but aren't actually real. Strange how the mind plays tricks. Maybe I'm desperately looking for love, who knows. I really don't have an answer to what one should do when they don't have romantic love in life. How should they feel about living, how should they go about with it? I'm young and having been through so many failed relationships can be hard on the self, given I'm a romantic and loving person. I always dreamed having a man as my soulmate as a kid. This was my most vulnerable part. So growing up and learning the reality that such things are not very real is disheartening. But maybe spirituality holds a key to most of life's questions and that's probably is going to be the next chapter of my life.

What if I create a spiritual ritual/practice where I do a cowrie shell divination first and then followed by a diehard emotional litany. Would that feel like Liberation?

Santeria practitioners perform cowrie shell divination.

What sort of space I want to be in? Most people assume automatically that an emotional person is crazy. But being super super super emotional is a huge relief. Lets say I'll label it as "diehard emotional." Does this help me with being extremely sharp and psychic? Maybe who knows

Being extremely emotional to the point of madness How does it feel? How do I visualize this space?

You have no idea how jealous I am.. I cannot imagine the kind of peace felt in a low population density country. It's the greatest privilege. Cherish it as much one can.

@Blackhawk is Sweden a very isolated place where nobody comes? I never hear much about Sweden. It feels like an island.

@sda India. He was an Indian guy running a scam company. I realized one day it was all a scam and that day I quit the job He scammed me of $1000.

I wish we were 1 million instead of 1 billion.

@Knowledge Hoarder I was scared of losing the job. There was pressure. I had just joined, it had barely been a month working there. I was trying to adjust to that place because it was new. The fear of losing the job was real. So I didn't want to get too confrontational with him. And my nature is that I'm shy around strangers. I felt very scared and threatened around him. He was very dominating..

@Hulia he didn't say it in a romantic way, more in a threatening way. And in a dirty way. And I'm generally too shy especially around men. I don't look at them in the eye.

@Carl-Richard Norway would be rare. My boyfriend was Norwegian.

Indians generally prefer America. I haven't heard Indians going to European countries. Maybe if they do, it would generally be Germany or UK. So i don't think he is from India. Less likely. Indians most likely settle in America and Canada and sometimes Australia.

@Blackhawk He is a Muslim.

Why do you have to be green or yellow for that? You can be at any stage and yet call out racism anytime. Calling out racism is always ethical, presuming the racism case is genuine with evidence of said discrimination.

My family is awful. They are stage Blue crap. They have been forcing me to marry a guy that I'm not in love with. I find him abusive, he is ruthless and very mean. My family constantly tells me that he is good for me because he is ready to marry me. But I'm not ready to marry him. I feel very pressured and trapped. I don't want this pressure. I feel suicidal dealing with this crap. I even feel embarrassed to say this.

Please. There's too much poverty in India and its massive. Also look up on Google, India is a third world country. Wikipedia is not a valid source. It's all over the internet. And you don't need the internet. Just look at the conditions in India. I don't believe the sugar coating by media and politicians for votes.

@Gesundheit2 Right now I don't have power/electricity since last 7 hours in my entire neighborhood. And my battery is only 3%. So Yea. Definitely India is third world. Stop sugar coating brutal truths.

India is a third world country. It has more problems per square kilometer than a city in the US.

Is it right to think that we can change this world? This question has always bothered me.

The condition in India is really awful. You simply don't have a clue.

Actually it's not free But yes more needs to be done by First world countries to change the situation in the Third World. The level of apathy is astounding. In First world countries, there's always some sugar daddy to pay for things.