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I love Indian dance poses, costumes and moves/styles. It's been a long time since I first showed interest in these things It's time to reinvent my old passions. Singing and dancing was my passion as a child I love looking at these dance poses

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I love Indian dance poses, costumes and moves/styles. It's been a long time since I first showed interest in these things It's time to reinvent my old passions. Singing and dancing was my passion as a child

I have been taking interest in Indian classical dance.

@Gregory1 thank you

@RickyFitts hey can you leave a review in my journal

So here is my first singing sample of the song Silent Night Holy Night by Sinead O'Connor, only the first few lines That's one of my favorite songs I hope you enjoy.

Any review you want to give, write it here, because some mean comments are being left on my YouTube channel and as a result I had to disable the comments. Your review is highly appreciated

I don't feel very confident about my voice. I have a lot of insecurities about my voice. I feel embarrassed frankly. But I need to talk more to break this embarrassment and blushing that I suffer while speaking.

So I uploaded a video again after many days and I still felt like my voice was a bit hollow and not crispy smooth. It kept jumping. My voice gets emotional really quick and I don't like that. But it can be soothing in between. I want to do some voice training because I want to choose careers like broadcasting where I can use my voice So I'm working on it. Also my accent is terrible and heavy. It butchers the language. I need to work on my accent so it sounds smoother.

Namaste I love some of these internet pics or gifs that show animated versions of the Indian dance. Frau Tänzerin In Nationalen Indischen Tuch Tanzen Bharatanatyam I came across these German words written on the Indian dance picture.

The forum had raised my tension to dangerous levels But my boyfriend calmed me down. He has this miraculous ability to calm me. Every time I think of him I'm taken to another world Well his advice was helpful. He told me to leave the forum and frankly that was the best advice he gave me.

My name is Hannu. Recently when I took the MBTI test, the result was INFJ-T. This is almost my identity. It defines me perfectly. I have always been shy and introverted.

I don't read that Hannu thing. Oh c'mon now.... (*giggles) So I'm back at being myself and being with myself albeit and apart from my boyfriend who is almost my mirror image. He says things that I'm always absolutely in agreement with. He is so funny. I'm just rolling on the floor. At least in this whole wide world there is one person who understands me perfectly. Now that's a huge satisfaction. He is the best thing. He makes me laugh. We need to grow Periwinkles together.

Just reading the dating section again I mean I was a bit addicted to that section. It messes with my head. I have to constantly remind myself that I should not read that section. It upsets my mood. So I consciously try to avoid reading it as much as possible. A lot of Comments there are simply unbelievable and shocking. I don't like it My main source of trigger is that section. However people are people. One cannot say don't have so and so opinion. After all there is freedom of opinion. So it's best to not take it too seriously. And also if someone has a bad opinion then it's they who are impacted the most. You become what you think is the principle. Generally I see a lot of backward thinking on this forum especially the dating section. It doesn't fit my personality because I don't think such a way, I have an open mind when it comes to relationships and romance The dating section has a patriarchal smell or rather a patriarchal stink to it. Every time I see a patriarchal notion it triggers me big time. It makes me want to vomit. Aren't we living in 21st century? Why do we still expect women to follow patriarchal standards of femininity and why are men supposed to dictate how a woman should or shouldn't be. It's kinda awful. But enough of that. I don't want to ruin my mood again It's just that I feel very uncomfortable when I read patriarchal stuff because I come from a patriarchal country where living as a woman is a mental gymnastic. I faced a lot of sexism at my job. I was harassed on my way to work. I was groped and touched inappropriately. And the law doesn't help women in my country. Most families simply tell the girl to not go out. I don't wish to be dictated on what I should do as a woman. Fortunately the conditions in my country are getting better because girls in my country are ready to fight back. We don't take shit from men anymore.

Honestly I feel so relieved that I left this forum. So much better and peaceful. No more arguments and no more trouble. Why didn't I think of this before? But anyway it was a huge learning lesson after being here for 1 year on the forum. I have been here for 3 years out of which I spent at least 1 year on the forum. Rest I spent on the journals and I will say it was time best spent because I learned so much about writing. I feel so confident now. My brother has a garden where he grows chilli, orca, collards, bitter gourd, ridge gourd and zinnia and oh my God he has Periwinkles too. He showed me a picture of his Periwinkles. My boyfriend is planning to grow Periwinkles as well which is awesome and I'm planning to grow Periwinkles as well. My mom had grown Periwinkles in my garden for almost a year and recently she discarded it because it grew too big and she was tired of caring for it I had no interest in Periwinkles up until now when my boyfriend called me a Periwinkle endearingly. So i got fixated on Periwinkles. The biggest excitement is that my brother has Madagascar Periwinkles. That's awesome (Right Hannu!!!) Madagascar Periwinkles Oh My God, I always wanted them. Monee is sleeping right now.. And I'm writing. I hope Monee finds pink Periwinkles and grows them. He even got a pink pot yesterday, and that's a miracle for both of us. I love pink Periwinkles. But the Madagascar ones are dark pink.

Today for the first time in months I spoke to my brother. It felt a sense of relief. We talked for full 1 hour. It was his friends birthday. They were going out. I'm so proud of him. He has achieved so much in life Although two months back he told me to commit suicide and that made me very upset and I stopped talking to him. He was being pressured by my mom. So he gave into that pressure and told me to kill myself. It was incredibly rude and awful. But after many days he has felt like talking to me. He is my only sibling.

These days I feel like I'm in a happy place. But still I got so much stuff to do and I feel so tired First I want to build a large garden around my house I went out to collect some plants but because of Covid the shop was closed. I'm still a bit wary of going out. It seems the cases have gone down a bit and so my Covid nightmares aren't that frequent anymore.

@Marcel you are a man who helped me live a new life. You basically gave me a new life. I'm so proud of you. You've angel wings I bless you and you'll never be taken from me.

my heart dropped when you said these words do me. Honestly you're like a poet Marcel I'll always cherish these words from you and they mean so much to me.. "I love and adore you so much. You have made me the highest mountain top because you raised me from the deepest depth of the toxic oceans. My wasteland desert of emotions has turned into a flowery utopia."