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Rhododendron (energy of evil) Chrysanthemum (energy of karma)

@RickyFitts thank you

There are 4 flowers that will represent three energies. Rose (energy of beauty) Chamomile Periwinkle Blue lotus

I was thinking about 4 flowers. Rose (energy of beauty) Blue lotus (energy of passion) Chamomile (energy of calm) Periwinkle (energy of respect and energy of balance and comfort )

In regard to this topic this post is super helpful about energy.

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I have barely been able to take a couple of steps in enforcing boundaries since I found my new relationship. This relationship has taught me lots of things about boundaries. For the first time in my life I felt loved and I felt like I could say what I wanted to, I felt free. It created such a feeling of relaxation and calmness (btw I was never calm because of my PTSD) that it automatically showed the huge contrast between lovingly respected and being violated and disrespected. Anyone who violated my boundaries appeared in such sharp contrast to the way I was being lovingly treated in this new relationship. My awareness grew. The wool was taken out of my eyes and I was shown what love truly looks like.

It's your own duty and responsibility to keep a safe space around yourself. I'm always very poor at enforcing boundaries. What should I do if someone is constantly trying to manipulate or annihilate my boundaries?

Since passion creates a lot of high energy. Calming is also important at the same time.

A rose as a symbol of beauty and perfection.

At some point in my life, I would have wanted to be a paranormal investigator. I know it sounds silly and impractical. But I really have deep interest in paranormal stuff. Recently I found this channel called Ballen. I find it quite interesting as the man narrates paranormal and strange stuff in the world. I myself had a few paranormal experiences in my life. I always believed that there is something out there which is bigger and larger than ourselves something we can't comprehend but it exists. I don't know what it is. But I know for sure that humanity is not limited to only the 6 senses alone, there's much more than what we can perceive through our biological senses. There are things that are to be sensed by the senses. The psychic senses I mean.

Will try to keep a consistent journal on bad dreams.

I might learn a little from you on how to write beautifully. I'm amazed at your talent and it makes me very happy. Honestly I can never write like you but you're teaching me lol.. You're a good writer and poet. Hehe. Love you.

@Gregory1 keep going and don't doubt your own talent. You're young and this is your chance. Keep working hard. Also try to look out for auditions in your local place so you can showcase your skills there. Even if your talent is raw right now, you will need intensive training to reach professional levels. There is no harm in trying how this talent works out for you. Take it as an adventure rather than looking at it from an angle of perfection.. Nobody ever starts out perfect. Everyone is just raw and natural and unskilled in the beginning. So there will be flaws. However these flaws will gradually improve as you keep practicing and sticking to your determination. Often times talent is neglected or ignored either by the individual themselves or by others. Do not ignore or waste your own talents. You don't need to spend too much money on this. But you can continue exploring your own talent in cost effective ways. You really have a gift of singing. Use it. Attend festivals or places in your local area or city to see where you can find anyone to appreciate your talent or give you some upward mobility so you can join groups where you get to learn more about singing and how you can turn it into a professional career. This is no easy task because competition is extremely tough in the field of arts and music. So you will always need a plan B ready. You can't rely entirely on one talent alone. If things don't seem to be making a breakthrough, then you will need to explore other areas for a steady career. Keep going and don't give up. Your determination will gradually open new opportunities for you wherever you are in life. Also don't hold yourself back for any reason. All reasons are simply imaginations of the mind. I wish you luck on your path.

I researched online about the connection between Annan and elephant and found that there is a specific elephant by the name Annan in the Amboseli trust sanctuary for Elephants in Kenya. It's a strange coincidence. This elephant was trying to kill me in my dreams. I have a deep connection with elephants and I respect them a lot. They signify bravery and authenticity to me. So when I woke up I felt very upset that an elephant would even want to attack me. In reality I would love an elephant so much. I have a lot of empathy for elephants and maybe some day I will find them somewhere and touch them. The problem is they're always in some form of captivity whether it's a zoo or any other place and I don't like to go near a captive elephant, they're obviously traumatized. The friendship between elephants and humans is simply not possible because elephants are wild and difficult to tame..so any elephant that is acting tamed has been through some human cruelty in order to reach the stage of being tamed successfully. Elephants aren't pet animals like dogs and cats. A wild cat is easily petted with food and affection. That does not work with elephants. You can feed them but you can't simply touch them. Elephants are very sensitive and hard hearted animals. It's not easy to win them. They are pretty ferocious and they will swing you by their trunks and throw you 5 feet away if they are annoyed Elephants by nature are also the most easily annoyed. So any elephant that acts nice has probably been in captivity before.

So today I had 2 bad dreams back to back and I woke up extremely stressed and tired. One bad dream consisted of an elephant and the word Annan being repeated throughout the dream. The second dream was someone trying to kill me.

@RickyFitts thank you. That means a lot because I'm so self conscious of my voice.

I love to use gifs with you @Marcel. It helps express my thoughts in cute ways

These words are so beautiful. You have a poetic gift. You inspire me to write beautiful things as well. You are my amazing hero.

Have to add more images Also I forgot to add images of my dress collection.

@Marcel thank you so much. I hope you enjoy my singing.

@RickyFitts thank you for the feedback. Appreciate.

@Applegarden8 Thank you