Preety_India

The real question is where are you going to draw a line and call it a conspiracy theory?

I don't know how much of this is true frankly.

Yea I used to do lucid dreaming before. That was a crazy time.

I know one book known as the love languages.

If she calls herself your girlfriend, then the relationship exists. If she doesn't call you her boyfriend or doesn't call herself your girlfriend, then you can't really call it a relationship. A relationship to exist needs mutual agreement at the very basic. Otherwise it's null.

The ghosts have come back to harass and trigger me. But this time I'll win. I won't let myself be Defeated by pathetic spirits I have a good heart. I don't give a shit what anyone thinks.

I have severed my connection with this forum almost completely. I don't know anyone here. I don't want anything here Me and my journals.

I cried so much today. Remembering my dad and what he meant to me. It still hurts after so many years.

I just wish to journal in peace.

I just don't want to talk to anyone anymore.

I cried for 4 hours and then I slept off.

I have decided to leave the forum. It doesn't have the compassion I need. I never felt accepted here. I always felt bullied here. Anyone who was ever trying to show compassion was only rubbing more salt into the wounds. I never felt understood here.

There is really no way to cope with the death of a family member no matter how hard you try.

Tears never lie.

I have decided to stay away from things as much as possible. Because, what's the point?

The German shepherd The golden retriever

A study on different dog breeds.

I have begun to navigate this whole social arena rather more carefully and seriously and very accurately than before.. I don't think anything for granted anymore. I don't automatically assume that someone is nice anymore. I don't joke as often as I used to.. It reminds me of the days I used to spend at the office where initially I was everyone's favorite joker and then when people began offending me I became gloomy and sad. It's like you have to be serious with people for them to be chill with you. You sort of like to be a happy spirit but for some reason it's not exactly what people like.. Not that I care about what people like anymore but you have to do the tit for tat kind of thing. You can't afford to be hilarious and funny in a miserable sad or angry crowd. It won't suit.

I don't believe this to be completely true. For example if someone called me a "whore" and it hurts me, does it mean that I think that deep down im a "whore." absolutely not. It still impacts the psyche and creates feelings of distress because I don't wish to be labeled something that I'm not and that creates conflict and resistance and the need to give back or retaliate. At the very least it does create feelings of anger at the derogation.