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Why a narcissist is the worst? There is a difference between a psychopath and a narcissist. A narcissist thinks that they don't harm society that they only mean good. A psychopath is always hated by people because people look at them with suspicion. Yet from my personal experience, psychopaths are only dangerous when they really hurt others or implement their psychopathy in extreme ways. W

Negotiating on the values of honesty and Dishonesty.

I'm sincere but not honest. I can be a bit of a psychopath. I can state a bold faced lie with apparently no problem at all When the means justify the end I see no problems. Because the end is more important to me than the means. Yet I don't let my psychopathy run riot. I know my own shady character. I keep it in check so as to cause minimal harm to anyone.. We all have the capability and the capacity for evil. It's how we deal with it that makes all the difference To say that you simply can't do evil is absolute hypocrisy, something that narcissists do. They pretend to be perfect.

I think generally what people like about me and what I have generally observed in myself with respect to others in the same context is that I don't have any agenda when I say something. I don't wear any masks when I talk to people. It's like this. I say everything from the bottom of my heart. Not necessarily Blunt because I tend to avoid blunt language as much as possible yet I am not diplomatic at all. I simply have zero agenda. I believe in the trueness of spirit Which means I simply say what my heart thinks. Whether it is true or not in relation to reality, I'm not aware of that, nor does it really matter. I simply speak with the trueness of spirit. I might not be a good person or even even desirable in any way, neither do I strive to be. I just want to be my true self the way I am so I am. What I mean to say is that whatever word that comes out of my mouth is a sincere word. Meaning that's what I meant, wholly and fully, nothing less nothing more. This does not mean that I'm honest. Nope. Sometimes I'm not honest.

Even if I want a person as a friend they should be fully authentic and open with me. I look at people straight in the eye. What I mean by this is that if I'm your friend I want it straight and simple. Every word that comes out of my mouth is just plain and simple and exactly what I mean. I never hide my intent. This is who I am. This is what you get. Nothing more nothing less I am who I am. That is all I can be. And I wear my heart on my sleeve. One of my greatest qualities on the big 5 Ocean test was Openness. I'm very open about matters. I don't like to hide. So i don't hide my intent or feelings. If I like you I'll let you know. If I don't like you, you'll come to know. There is nothing narcissistic about this. This is just me plain and simple. I just don't know how to pretend to be someone I'm not.

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But I'm slowly coming to a point where I need to be authentic to myself in order to attract authentic people to me I'm generally quite authentic. But maybe at least 10% about me is not authentic and it is this 10% that is attracting the wrong type of people to me. What can I do about this? I need to cut the shit. I'll have to pick a few tricks up my sleeve in order to surround myself with authentic people. One thing that I brutally brutally wish to be honest about. I know this type of honesty hurts. But it's best to say it rather than bottle it up. I have found that women aren't sincere at least in my personal experience Any time i meet a woman, my general experience goes like this — They are nice to me. They are polite to me. They are gentle with me. They compliment me. They praise me And after some time like a few days or months.... They backstab me. I'm not saying that all women are this way. But most of my experiences with women ended up in me feeling intensely uncomfortable, manipulated, played with, ditched, being blamed for nothing and finally hurt and disappointed. It's almost like women work in very sneaky ways. Very few women are authentic with other women.. All my life most of my problems were because of women. I was repeatedly betrayed by women. I'm simply being frank about it. I did not like how women would initially praise me and then sneakily find a way to judge me and one - up me.. So my trust with women has significantly declined after all these experiences. If I want authentic people around me, I have to cut out everything that doesn't sound authentic to me. This is less of a hunting process and more of an elimination process. ---------------------------------- As a result of these experiences, I've decided that I won't have women as friends anymore. I get nothing but gaslighting. No thanks. I'm better off being friends with men. At least men don't play sneaky games and far more authentic than women. This is something that men will never understand. You need the brain of a woman to know how women measure up one another. Men simply won't get it. Women play sneaky games, not with other men, but usually with other women. I can never get along with women and I had enough of women in my life. I literally grew up around women all my life. And I can openly say that a woman did the greatest harm to my life. I know this sounds very anti-woman.. But who can deny an experience? An experience is a better teacher than any book or theory. If I ever have women as friends it will mostly be women who are truly authentic and straight forward with me. No ugly games. And no one-upmanship or rather should I say one-upwomanship. If I have to screen women, the first kind of women that I'll screen out are women who praise or compliment me. Whether it's little compliments or long stories of praises. To be frank, the women who hurt me the most are also the same women who complimented me the most. I read somewhere a few days ago. The ones who betray you the worst are also the ones who are closest to you. Women act somewhat in that manner with me They gain my confidence and trust by praising me. And then attack me later after I have left my guard down. It feels gross, dirty, filthy and bizarre. The last thing I need is games.... I hate that kind of shit.

One problem that I usually face with people is that sometimes I'm not able to differentiate between authentic and inauthentic people. This is a huge struggle for me in fact this is my biggest struggle.

I generally have an easy time with people who are gentle, polite and simple.

What are my triggers? Mean comments Right wing stuff Lack of understanding and consideration Lack of respect. This is obvious Anyone who mimics my mother Anyone who cannot show compassion Anyone who assumes too much about my situation. Anyone who says something that isn't true and is absolutely opposite of what's happening with me or my life. It feels like slander.

I think I can slowly warm up to this community at least especially with people who care about me but it might take some time I like helping people.

Do you have a specific list of goals? Are you ambitious enough? Do you compare yourself too much with others? It seems you need some basic exercises to get going. You need basic motivation.

If someone said something bad to me should I take it to heart? I have an issue with getting triggered.

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I hope you find the answers to all your questions You seem to have been through a fair amount of struggle. I hope you find your path and it leads you to a place of meaning, freedom, purpose and peace.

I'm kinda ready for more spiritual questions from now on I'm done with dating questions Also I don't like to argue too much. Debating doesn't really help that much.

@Marcel holding hands and kisses your hand sometimes..

@Raphael what answer did you get for those questions?

Why did you feel like an imposter? What did you do that makes you think you acted like an impostor?

@Danioover9000 Also this very important advice from another thread. Please follow.

@Danioover9000 I empathize with you. I'm dealing with similar fears. Although I did not take the vaccine so I'm not sure how it must feel, it's sad that it has this side effect. Did you have any other condition that could have possibly contributed to the heart rate problem? Also it could be possible that this side effect might slowly go away on its own. Now who knows. Just speculating and trying to offer you assurance. I have been quite fearful of the vaccine too. I just want to know more about it. I think if you take good care of yourself and continue to eat healthy then most likely these effects might go away. I wish you feel better soon if my words can give you some assurance. Is all I can say right now. You might even schedule an appointment with your heart doctor to see if you can take some medication or do something specific to reduce the severity of your symptom. Regarding your booster dose, im not sure if you need it if you aren't going anywhere. Ask your doctor if you really require a booster in such conditions. Just take good care. That's all you can do right now. And please consult a doctor as they might already have an answer if many patients have this complaint. The sooner you meet a doctor the better.

Maybe self development is only useful and resonating for those who have higher needs and are above stage Orange needs in life. For me personally having a car or anything fancy never made me feel like it's going to make me happy. In fact it was the opposite. I did all that career stuff before. I wasn't happy with my job, not that it's extremely boring. But I found my calling in spirituality. I see every stage orange aspect of life as mundane. Now you can call it a stage Orange shadow. Yet for me the breakthrough to happiness and fulfilment only came when I started pursuing spirituality on a serious level. I can say to each his own. For some people there is happiness on this path. For others their desires are their key to happiness and success. For me personally I don't consider success that is traditionally defined by society as a road to fulfillment. It has only created misery for me. I could never sit in lush house with fancy cars and say this is success. To me it never made any sense. For me true satisfaction comes when I pay attention to my inner calling and live life on my own terms

You have to figure out the reasons behind your anxiety and worry. Get to the root. Anxiety is rarely irrational, if at all. And if it is, then try to use relaxation exercises and Positivity to get it from the root. you will find peace of mind only when you get rid of that anxiety. It's impossible to feel peace of mind if you suffer anxiety. You can't have two diametrically opposite states of mind and can't have them co-exist. In order for you to find room for peace of mind, you have to first tackle what's bothering you. Once you tackle that, then peace automatically follows.. It's like water, it won't flow as long as there is a wall holding it back, obstructing it's flow. Once you break this wall, the water will automatically start flowing. Find the root of your problems, anxieties, frustrations through shadow work. Start it today, because going through the cycle of confronting and solving your problems itself takes like 6 months if you start now.

@Someone here you will find peace of mind only when you get rid of that anxiety. It's impossible to feel peace of mind if you suffer anxiety. You can't have two diametrically opposite states of mind and can't have them co-exist. In order for you to find room for peace of mind, you have to first tackle what's bothering you. Once you tackle that, then peace automatically follows.. It's like water, it won't flow as long as there is a wall holding it back, obstructing it's flow. Once you break this wall, the water will automatically start flowing. Find the root of your problems, anxieties, frustrations through shadow work. Start it today, because going through the cycle of confronting and solving your problems itself takes like 6 months if you start now.

You have to figure out the reasons behind your anxiety and worry. Get to the root Anxiety is rarely irrational, if at all. And if it is, then try to use relaxation exercises and Positivity to get it from the root.