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@Raphael I sense your anxiety. You're going through an existential crisis. You are questioning everything about life, world and reality. It happened to me when i first came here. I'm already warning you. This can be a difficult process. Lots of confusion. Lots of doubts. Lots of thoughts and ideas. Lots of curiosity. You will see yourself going through all this. It's important during this phase to be as patient as possible because you're going to be experiencing a lot of anxiety as you keep exploring. This is a natural process that your brain has to go through in order to come to a point of peace and fruition. You will be experiencing agitation. People will tell you a lot of things. Some of it will resonate whereas some of it will generate even more questions in your mind. I have been through all this and came out of it successfully and came to peace. What you need is proper sleep, water, lots of quiet, patience and self appreciation during this time. The anxiety can make you uncomfortable. Sometimes you might even feel like deleting your journal. You might even feel like leaving the forum. Because the mind is not able to handle such restlessness, tension and curiosity. This is a rapid growth process that the mind is not totally ready for so there will be lot of resistance, agitation and backlash. Let it happen. Just take basic care. You are going through a classic spiritual struggle that I went through in the form of existential crisis. Just remember that you are Going through intense growth right now and these phases are very uncomfortable because the brain is processing more information than it can consume. Let it go like that. You can't block this process, this process and phase is absolutely necessary for your mental health. You're not going crazy but it will feel like that. I also felt I was going crazy but it is simply growth. This process can go for months. For me it went from 2018 to 2020 December. It finally came to an end in March 2021. So hang on. Your roller-coaster has just started. Keep courage till the ride is going on. Intense ride. Don't panic. Just go slow. You will experience some sleeplessness and constant curiosity. It's alright. You will also feel like obsessively journaling. That is also alright. Everything is a symptom of your growth. The best advice is to take it patiently and slowly and trust your own growth. You will not get answers right away. You will keep getting new answers everyday because this is exploratory phase. Keep exploring. Just take basic care like food, water, sleep and some rest in between. Keep going. Keep journaling. And understand that the truth is only love and pure wisdom. That was my end realization after the whole journey.

@Raphael I can completely relate to that paragraph.

@Raphael yes I'm experiencing a lot of synchronicity with you.

It always gets better.

@lmfao if you take compassion as agreeing with someone and understanding someone is such a huge deal for you, then why even bother. I need people who are understanding, who say something I can find some resonance with so I find it helpful. At least I'm not coming in your journals and pissing you off lol. Move on and do your own stuff. Just because someone doesn't want to get along with you doesn't mean they are wrong

@Marcel

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Sorry to hear about that. Actually cabbage juice and apple cider vinegar will worsen the situation. Cut it out. Also take sufficient breaks before and during the meal.

I've been feeling mentally and emotionally weak for the past couple of days. And I'm trying to keep myself stable as much as possible. This is hard work. I have to constantly journal to be consistent with my feelings. Update 1 December 23 8 am Update 2 December 23 Update 3 December 23

My mother is a sociopath. I really don't know how to deal with her..

core areas of focus... CAOF Area which is generally the source of my misery and my problems or obstacle to my growth Area which needs healing and recovery... Like health Area which needs growth... Like stage orange stuff,money, career. Area which needs continuous improvement - example life skills and interesting things like art Either you have to do inner work or outer work.. Areas will need to be worked on Elimination Healing like recovery Improvement Fixing Continuous growth Promotion Cultivation

The thing is that my focus should always be on things that have practically harmed me. No more babysitting illusions.

"Authentic interactions with authentic people" I should have done this long ago. I would have spared a ton of suffering.

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