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Update 3 December 26 I drank cold juice right now. And I ended up making my sneezing worse. I'm so tired of eating stuff and not really feeling full. Recent entries .

Update 2 December 26 Today is December 26.. Not a good day for me. There was no power half the time. But I arranged my bed. So a brownie point for that. I have mostly been sneezing and coughing because my mom had been coughing and she passed it on to me. My eyes are swollen and red and runny nose. Not a good feel. Recent entries

Planner Check mom's phone if it's repaired

These are important to me as well.

My basic health is in jeopardy. I need to first fix that.

@Marcel hun there is no power in my house today and the charge is just 2%. Hope you get my message. See you when the power comes back. No power since 3 hours now

This is very true. Often when a man approached me, I would always have a fear that he might think that I'm rude. So I would talk him politely. But if he was persistent and didn't get the clue that I'm not initiating anything, then I would mostly be blunt in the end, it leaves no option at that point.

Totally agree with this. I like to be a hermit as well. Social games suck.

@Marcel Yea. My mom has a throat infection right now and it seems she passed it on to me. Cuzz my throat is acting funny since this past hour. I'm trying to smell the lavender talcum powder to test my sense of smell..#omicron fears.

@Marcel Lmao Aww. So sweet of you. Hun, your forehead is so beautiful, my wonderful Prince Charming. I wanna lose myself into your deep blue eyes. lub lub.

Update 5 December 26 .

@Marcel (made a cute post for you) If you don't feed me mango ice-cream, then I'm gonna land an aeroplane on your forehead,because it's that big. Omg. (laughs and giggles). ?????Recent entries

Update 4 December 26 .

Kuss kuss. I guess I need all of that. *gladly and greedily takes everything she can.

Merry Christmas. The holidays always bring in a cheerful spirit.

Update 10 December 25 One of the things that I find strange is that I'm made to grow faster that I would prefer in most social situations. It's tough that way. But all these experiences are cumulatively a good thing. They taught me so much and made me wiser beyond years. It's almost like I went through a process of metamorphosis. Like in snakes. The shedding of old skin and growth of new skin. Everytime I have a new awakening about reality, I turn into a completely different person, wiser and mature than before. Update 1 December 26 The areas that I struggle with the most are social, emotional and family,health. These are some important categories and there is absolutely no compromise with these ones. Social - I suck at this big time. Social games and social politics is not my thing and I don't even want to excel at it. It has never led me to anything good. I have been most happy around authentic people. Emotional - my emotions have never been stable. A lot of it has to do with repressed and unprocessed trauma and I always believe in organic healing rather than trying out clinical medicine. I find the medical field to be rife with corruption. Family - my relationship with my mother is antagonistic. Health - I tend to neglect my health especially when my emotions are in a knot.

Update 9 December 25 After all the collective experiences I've had with women growing up, especially in my university dorm days and then later in my neighborhood, it's enough to say that I don't wish to be friends with women anymore. I experienced a lot of aggression from women in my university. They would constantly play all these games like a dick measuring contest. The typical mean high school girl behavior. Some of the girls had the tendency to do this. Gossip behind back. Back biting. Back stabbing. I can't say that I didn't engage in gossip myself. But I always did something either reluctantly (to fit into the group, a part of my people pleasing behavior), or I did it in a naive way which was being enabled by the group of women I was hanging out with. I saw that company you keep has a huge effect on your persona and psyche. One of the reasons why I disabled followers on my profile. It leads to being influenced the wrong way. People want to be friends with you. Yet as time passes by, they start drawing you into a mess that you don't want to be a part of. I saw this literally everywhere. It impacts your health. It's best to avoid anyone who enables this. The best example I can come up with is that of addiction. If you are addicted to something, it's best to avoid people who are addicted to the same thing. Why? Because they would enable your addiction and make it worse.. If I enter a female group and if they begin to gossip, I tend to gossip as well. Instead of them discouraging this behavior, they enable it. How do you stop making it a part of your life? By exiting that group. I don't even remember how many times I have had to do this. If someone breaks your Boundaries whereas once or repeatedly, you simply walk away..

Update 9 December 25 Its not like I don't have female friends. I do. It's just that they aren't too narrow minded. I feel that whenever I have friendships with women, they tend to act like rivals. I'm done with that type of rivalry shit. I don't want a female friend who is making me feel like she is competing against me and constantly one-upping me instead of being a supportive friend. That's like passive aggression and I don't need that. I'm not too Keen about females who act competitive with me. No thanks. (by now I've almost read all the female games that women play with each other, if you don't get along with a woman, they will purposely be friends with her, it's something they do to my mom all the time. I always see her complaining about this.) Thanks one more time for putting me down lol

Compassion is suffering a global deficit. How about we become less insensitive to the suffering of others?

The dream was pretty hilarious since I never saw anyone with that username on the forum.

Update 8 December 25 So i had a dream and I woke up and found myself sunk into the corner of the bed. The dream went like this There was someone who joined this forum. Some guy. It seems he kept changing his user name once every minute. His user names would be like - "the best user on this forum," "the worst loser on this forum," "the worst idiot on this forum," "the God on this forum"... He had very trollish names. When I clicked on his profile, I saw that he had posed along with his friend and they were both involved in some real life shit like hurting someone or some plot to hurt.

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Update 7 December 25 (not interested in hav.... A convo Not sure what to do right now. Feeling a bit tired and drained. I spent the whole day cleaning the house, decorating the garden. Putting up lanterns. Cleaning tables.. So tired right now. Recent entries