Preety_India

Sexy moves work, 100%.

Being a peacock doesn't work. You need to know some moves. Some slick moves. Some flirty tricks. Some poetic lines. Some dance. Some desperation. What's art good for? J'adore. Some skeleton moves. Sexy moves.

Whenever I psychoanalyze myself, I see two sides in me. One is polite, gentle, helpful, caring, sweet and funny. Subdued. Submissive. The other is mean, bitchy(bitch - like), critical, psychopathic, sketchy, condescending, egotistical, selfish, narcissistic etc. I sometimes take pride in having attitude. I switch between the two very often. I can almost see myself switching between the two. There is always a tug of war between these two sides. I feel conflicted because of that and it often ruins my relationship with people who I interact with. I don't think I want to get rid of the bitchy side. I don't like to pretend that I'm nice. How should I reconcile these two sides?

@Michael569 thank you for the info.

@Michael569 thank you so much. I'm simply trying to rely on garlic, spinach and juices to get through this.

@Michael569 what is NAC?

Found a new concept. This is not given as an option. But this is where I'm at. I'm at the phase of strategizing.

Oh yeah the same thing is happening to me. It hits me. I feel it's gone after a while. And then it comes back. Like waves. Is this how we build immunity lol?

I don't think I connect with people at all around me. Most of them are too career centric and I am more interested in spiritual things. That's an impossible conversation to have. So I do feel left out a bit.

Yea there's a shit load of corruption in the US.

How do you know that she is Canadian?

That was really nice. I like that perspective.

I'm going to embody elements of the Warrior princess.

She came in my dream. She was like an anime character.

So how does my warrior princess look like?

I was thinking about all sorts of things.

@Lyubov me too same symptoms. Waiting for it to go.

I sometimes laugh about my bitchy side. Is it okay to laugh about it?

My couch is not ending. I feel tired all the time. I feel like a never ending flu. Hate this crap. I have been drinking juice everyday to keep up. Hate hate hate hate it so much.

Whatever money I had saved up I invested in my current house that i share with my mother. Back then when I bought the house, I had no idea things were going to get this worse, however my relationship with my mother has always been more or less tumultuous. Today I had ordered some water cans because I was feeling very dehydrated. She didn't like it and for no apparent reason she started an argument with me and began using cuss words. Then when she was on a call, I felt like she was talking to my aunt, so I went to her room and (this was hours after the argument) and asked who she was talking to, and her reply was "don't come to my room, expletive." I left and as I was walking towards the kitchen she came out of her room angrily and I turned around and she grabbed my arm and twisted it and kept punching my arm repeatedly until I screamed very loudly. When she saw that I won't stop screaming and she knew that it was possible for neighbors to come over she immediately stopped (out of fear that neighbors will notice, this happened plenty of times before where neighbors warned her that if she doesn't stop she will be evicted, so she has the fear of eviction, without that fear she would have beaten me blue), she stopped and went back to her room. The attack happened just 10 minutes ago and I feel scared. Moving out is not the option because I don't have the money. If you are living with a violent person or family member and if you don't have the option to move out, how do you handle the situation? What can I do to keep myself safe and not get hurt? Also how can I prepare myself during an attack? Like what can I do to help myself when she attacks me?

She is heavenly with beautiful hair.

Decided on a combination of 5 characters. The white Princess Jodie Comer The white Queen Rebecca Ferguson The Hollow Crown Clara Oswald the Robot of Sherwood. The character of Merida

Poverty in stage Blue = rules, rules, rules, and these rules protect each other from annihilation. Collective protection policy followed by all. Little crime, self patrolling community. Poverty in stage Red = zero rules, tear each other down, no ethics, kill for profit. Raw jungle survival, no shame, no dignity, no respect for each other, no value for life, extreme greed and selfishness. No code/ethics. Violence and brutality =zero humanity. High crime. Zero patrol. Poor countries like India, Bangladesh, Thailand = bounded by stage Blue religious ethics. Poor countries like Congo, Nigeria, Sudan, El Salvador, Honduras, Mexico = stage Red with no ethics. Low influence of religion. Bad government.