Preety_India

I'm really frustrated with all this unnecessary complaining. I have no time to joke in all sincerity When I did try to joke, it was given a negative twist and called stalking. Enough and done with this thread. So called busy people however keep commenting on this. Bye

I provided my points. If that dude again complains about me, do what's necessary because I'm fed up with and tired of all these stupid petty complaints from so called highly spiritually matured people. Give warnings to both me and him because I'm tired of his gossiping and conflict

Talk about triggering me to the point of insanity and then labeling me a stalker.

@Carl-Richard Honestly I have not stalked anyone. It's an absolute ridiculous claim from deluded brains. By that definition everyone is stalking each other here. So many people visit my profile every 5 minutes and write an awful amount of personal stuff about me to others. Then even that should be considered stalking? All I ever did was take his profile picture of the Devi. You know why? Because I liked the Devi picture and I was fascinated by it and at the time he had no profile picture. So I thought it would be okay to use it since he doesn't need it. Then we had a squabble over the journal. I had found the journal title funny so when he deleted the journal, I thought of playfully teasing him with a similar name. Honestly at that point there wasn't much bitterness between us so I wasn't taking our fights seriously and that was the reason I had that journal, just to kinda tease him(I wasn't trying to ridicule him). He took it so damn seriously and said that he would kill himself. Over what really?? So when I came back to the forum and saw all the drama go down, I was honestly taken aback and I immediately deleted the journal and removed that profile picture. That was it and this girl went around calling me a stalker without getting to know the whole story because she loves to blame me and get between people's conflicts and then likes to blame the environment. The next time too.. When me and him had a fight, I was being playful (because I hadn't developed enough hate for him to completely discard all connection) and so as a way to tease him I had the pendant/necklace picture on. I thought he would be cool with it because I had used it before and he was cool with it. I even told him that I wasn't trying to harass him, just doing it fun. He even agreed that he doesn't care so it gave a false impression. Because clearly he doesn't have proper communication. Then when I realized that he might be upset, I immediately took down that picture as well. Now I have written about the Dragon many times before. I have evidence of this. I was flipping through my old journals and I came across a journal that I written almost a year ago about dragons and many people had Congratulated me on it and said they had liked it. That journal was called Dragon Energy. Here it is. This is long before even knowing this person who made the Dragon post that he keeps talking about. When I saw that journal, I thought I would revive something around the concept of Dragon again and with that intent in mind I decided to start a Dragon journal again. I did not think of that guy's post at all, I swear to God, I did not think about him even once while making that journal The funny part is that for a so called open minded place such as this and this guy who constantly talks psychedelics, Devi snf love, he cannot take another person on the forum writing about a Dragon. Does he hold some kind of copyright or patent on the word Dragon? That nobody else is supposed to use it? So because he talked about the Dragon, nobody else can? I was immediately called a stalker after I created the journal.. I was like wtf? Everyone has creative freedom, they can use whatever title they want. THAT'S NOT CALLED STALKING. stop the pitiful victimhood over fucking petty nonsense like titles. I did not even have the same title. It was a different title from his post. But he so likes to portray this image that I'm stalking him lol. And he used this woman (who cares so much about environment) to start a war against me. To be fair he did not even tell her to come at me. This was all her plan. We wouldn't even have this conversation if she hadn't started shit here (her audacity to blame the environment when she started shit by writing stalking in bold letters, this is the same woman who said she never wants any drama or doesn't time for it) Now for all the people on the forum. If you were stalked by someone, wouldn't you feel threatened by that person or some sort of discomfort around that stalker? Would you be on their threads? Would there be a chance that you would to make things worse by purposely engaging your stalker lol? This guy who loves to bicker around the forum that I'm a stalker appeared and commented on my threads. Wow. Definitely scared of a stalker lol. There's evidence for this too. Surprise Surprise!!!!!! A person who is so concerned about me stalking them is perfectly comfortable with replying to my threads lol. I guess the stalking isn't bothering them enough to avoid me altogether. Not only that. Just yesterday the person so scared of my stalking decided to talk about something related to me. Now everyone on the forum knows I have BPD. So far I'm the only one. So this guy starts a thread directly about my mental condition. I don't think there's BPD in his family. So what was this thread for? About me? So they can freely demonize my mental condition lol but I'm the ummmm. Stalker. A person who truly wishes to be left alone, why would they be bothered about my mental condition, why drag me into their equation again by making indirect references to me? And then play victim that I'm doing something to them. How about not bothering me at all from their end? Does he enjoy being stalked? Maybe a possibility since he cannot stop talking about his stalker lol? Neither can he avoid his dangerous stalker. Or maybe the whole dreamt up idea of being stalked is too tantalizing to resist?? "a girl on the forum is stalking me omg." Even when I repeatedly said that I wasn't stalking and wasn't interested. Regarding the whole bipolar thing. My mother is Bipolar. I'm trying to fucking understand the disorder so I can handle my relationship with her in better ways But as you all know. Everything I do has to be about him right??? Since I am this dangerous malicious stalker omg. So he even made the bipolar thing about him. I have to tear my hair out trying to prove that I am not stalking him. To be honest I feel like I'm the one who is being stalked in all fairness. Because everything I do, he takes it all to be about himself, his stupid paranoia because he just loves to be a victim of my supposed stalking Enough of this pathetic drama.. This girl started it who is always sitting on a high horse judging others And that fucking Benton dude. I'm stalking him only in his deluded dreams. I have absolutely nothing to do with that person. He can do whatever he wants and keep fantasizing that I'm stalking him. Done.

I came across this term "love language" recently and I'm fascinated by it. I didn't know people had their own unique love languages. How can anyone know what their love language is?

Brief encounters.

@Knowledge Hoarder just imagine you tell a mod to ban your account and then you try to make a new account and it's says not allowed. Hahaha. Punked lol.

Yea a lot of things are fucked up. I wish I could change my account name.

Right right right right right. You know I talked about this 2 years ago and still no change.

This thread is useful.

This is a huge thing for me and I have to do this for very important

I agree.

I see.

Blocking is not an effective option. The blocked user is not removed from your space like on Facebook where you'll never see that person again. They are only removed from your view. Plus others can quote the blocked user. And so you can see it again

@Carl-Richard to be honest blocking doesn't help psychologically. If you open a journal yourself and you know someone stated something nasty in it, it's hard to simply go on. You know there was a thread dog piling on you. You locked it. It feels the way you felt at the time.

Feeling surprised. When you open up your wounds to people, they either understand and empathize with you or simply ignore or invalidate you. You quickly realize who is who. Being around people who never give you a closure or acknowledgement of your pain hurts. And so is equally hurtful when people act or pretend like they are empathizing only to double down and invalidate you further the next moment. The thing is intentions usually become clear one way or another. Your inner energy always shows. You can break trust once. You can break trust twice. You can't keep breaking trust forever. Somewhere down the line, karma has a way to show things, things become synchronous enough to show you what resonates and what doesn't. I have always been a simplistic person and it provided me some form of protection. This kind of matured understanding of things is quite heavy for my brain and quite stressful to process. I was never the one to understand things deeper than my intellectual capacity would allow.

A personal journal.

I also have emotional baggage and unresolved issues from my past relationships. My emotional baggage comes from being mistreated by my exes and feeling a sense of deprivation and abandonment. The only regret is that I stayed with them longer than I should have because I trusted them too much and believed that the relationship would still work even when they were clearly not putting any effort in making it work And I was a very positive person who tried her best to make those relationships work and did not realize that sometimes you need to stop hoping and start learning. I had this mentality back then that I could fix things and turn negative into positive. Sadly I learned my lessons through my relationships that relationships can't work just with one person taking the entire burden of the relationship, the other person must put equal interest and effort or else it crumbles. One person can only do so much. You have to break things and cut your losses instead of hoping for better things. Also i was manipulated extensively in these relationships where I was made to believe that I'm loved every time I doubted something. It's hard to think straight and logically when you are manipulated. I was completely brainwashed to believe that the relationships were working despite my intuition saying otherwise. Every time I tried to break these relationships, I was given new hope and I was manipulated even more. It was tough to understand what was going on. And I was a person who trusted very easily. I am better at detecting manipulation now than before. If someone told me something that doesn't feel okay, I lay down my boundaries instantly.

Is it possible that psychedelics can change the stage Orange mindset?

That's a serious side effect

I'm very frustrated on this. And I'm falling short of insight despite contemplating for hours on end. I'm extremely conflicted between good and evil. It seems like my spiritual journey just cannot kickstart without this being fundamentally sorted out.. I constantly feel like good and evil are same But then again this conflicts with the social conditioning of the definition of evil.

I'm collecting some data on bipolar disorder to understand it better. This is just a survey question to people who have bipolar to list what kind of symptoms they experience both during an episode as well as regularly. Since mental illness is a hard topic to discuss in public, I appreciate your participation and it's your choice to participate or not. Thanks.

Well as you know, it's never worth it. Come back to life. There are so many fun things to do. Go join some group or festival in Sweden. It's not that hard.

@Carl-Richard I can't imagine you acting too weird for some reason. you would be so cute to listen to. Maybe emotional (I'm imagining Jordan Peterson vibes)

Dude are you really scaring me?