Preety_India

A lot of women are enablers. They use victimhood as a cop out to their accountability. "I was going through depression and I was sick all the time, that's why I did whatever I did, I wouldn't have done it otherwise. My depression was causing" So when a man does something wrong, it's because he is evil. But when a woman does something wrong, oh wait, it's her depression!!! No woman, it wasn't your depression. You actively caused the abuse. My abuse.

I do not inherently trust anyone as a result of these experiences

Criminals underestimate things. They are ignorant. They don't know how things are going to play out. How eventually justice will come. Even when I was just 7 years old I was able to process things. I had an encounter with a neighbor who was sexually abusive. And even then as a kid, my intuition told me that he is not a good person And I told him to leave me alone and that is how I was freed from his sexual abuse.. I remember that incident very well. The whole idea that kids do not understand things is wrong. They do.

Seeing a person close to me being abused for such a long time, of course it's going to create hate.

@Bill W I'm seeing the psychiatrist for her. For myself I have a therapist that I visit sometimes that gives me advice on life's issues.

So I had been to the psychiatrist. And the doc prescribed meds to my mom for depression and bipolar disorder. I hope and pray that it works this time.

This may not be social anxiety. You're dealing with a psychological clash. That is some people just do not get along with you. They trigger you for some reason. I suggest you should avoid them as much as possible Just like the body is allergic to specific antigens and the presence of these elements triggers a Defence response so in the same way certain people are triggering your nerves, thoughts, mindset, mentality, and your heart Chakra. Stay away from people who are incompatible to your mind. How to know beforehand? Do you know specific behaviors and traits of these people from past experiences? Note down their appearance, body language, opinions, traits that make you feel they belong to that category. For example you might be getting triggered by argumentative people. The best way to screen such people is communication. The first communication tells you that the person is argumentative then avoid. Notice the behavior pattern, in this case an argumentative person is more isolated or standoffish or is repetitive in their questioning or contradictory in their statements. You wouldn't exactly know a person without the first interaction. Very hard to figure out just based on body language. But there are always clues. One way of managing the anxiety is by letting go or simply ignore or rebuff them in your mind as crazy people. Compartmentalize them in your mind. React least. Just avoid reacting to them, become a mute statue. Distract your mind while they talk. Do not think about them. That way you give them power. Do not try to reason with them.

Need to go to the therapist today again Let's see if it works out this time. Last time it didn't.

Trying to put everything together

I'm going to use the term exclusive focus.. That's the most important thing. Resources Tools Health

Minimize the impact. Don't lose focus Keep yourself motivated Work hard. Protest harder. Self care. Task list Be proactive. Even a small thing means a lot. Take baby steps.. Don't give up hope. Pray to God and have tremendous faith

I have decided a 2 to 3 year plan. Like every 2 years is going to be term. Or level Like 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 and 7, 8, 9. Etc. Level 10. To level 15. Visualization technique. A success program at each level.

Today my mood is better. I had my relax tea. And I feel much better Time for me to gain focus and think what more I need to get done. When the demon is trying to win, ask for God's favor.

It's time for me to revamp I haven't tired 5meo Dmt like the direct form but I have tried ayahuasca plenty of times. And the effects lasts for 2 to 3 hours for me. But it's great. Makes me feel more connected to everything..

Today's appointment turned out to be a dud. The doctor left early and it was past the wait time. I had to return home. It was a waste of time. But felt glad that I didn't have to face any drama

Decided to post something that will be found useful. For psychological issues.

Not every man or woman wants short term flings. That's what I meant. A lot of people want long term traditional relationships. I have a traditional mindset. I believe in traditional long term or lifetime relationships. So all my opinions and advice are tailored along that line of thinking.

I have tried dabbling into spirituality for a while and it seems a bit elusive to me. If I have to elaborate I could give this example to explain exactly what I feel about it. If someone told me that I am already living in a glass bubble and that I won't be able to hear what others are saying, I might actually start pretending that I can't hear when someone is speaking to me. This is how I feel about spirituality. This fear sometimes holds me back from exploring spirituality further. Do you think that your spirituality is taking you away from actuality and would that be fair for you to experience? Also I'd like to know how you integrate your spirituality with psyche and general psychology. Does it interfere with your understanding of human nature and human structures and how do you deal with that. Do you go back and forth between the reality and the spiritual perception of things that you hold in your mind.

I just need to learn to be calm. There's a lot of traffic here. It's tough

On my way to the therapist right now. Feeling extremely anxious right now. I just hope that everything goes well. I really don't want to go but I have to. There's like a knot in my stomach. I hope the doctor is okay.

Lmfao. Maybe your witch girlfriend can help. Haha. Funniest thing I read on here.

Woke up early today and I had errands to run. Confirmed with the doctor's office.

Are you sure? You told me that you don't believe in traditional values.