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I feel like I have come so far in my awareness. I can't imagine. A year ago everything felt like a blank board. All blank squares. And now I feel like these blank squares are gradually filling with color. My awareness is expanding at the speed of light.

The other concept is about Filtering in and Filtering out. When you are dealing with incompatible people or ideas, there should be filtering out. When the person is compatible, there should be filtering in. Other concept was about self esteem. Low self esteem and fatal self esteem. Low self esteem is when you feel unworthy. Fatal self esteem is when your identity is based on properties/assets like social status, money, relationships, social standing, group dynamics. Your persona and choices get significantly altered as a result of fatal self esteem. You change to fit in. Generally observed in narcissists. The other concept is about personality alterations. If you find yourself in a relationship where you feel like your personality is changing rapidly but not in a progressive manner, meaning you are doing things that you wouldn't normally do and how you are doing is impacting your well-being, then you need to quit that relationship.

Two new concepts One is natural behavior and triggered behavior. The behavior under natural circumstances is natural behavior. The behavior under special circumstances is triggered behavior. I forgot the other concept.

What a lot of men might not be getting is that discovering their inner manhood can go a long way than looking for approval from a girl or girls. I guess sometimes it's the low self esteem in men that makes them want the approval of many women to feel wanted and accepted and like a pro. But I guess some man with a higher self esteem will feel secure enough to just get the one right woman he wants. Now what if men took the whole dating thing as an elimination process rather than a method of getting maximum approvals and hits. What if a man thinks that every girl who rejects him wasn't meant for and through frequent rejections from several women till he narrows down to the one woman who is really attracted to him and wants him. That way he makes it like a narrowing down or elimination process like if you're searching a needle in a haystack. But first you'll need to remove the hay to see the needle. Same way he can ultimately find the right woman for himself who likes him and he won't feel dejected by the rejections because those rejections helped him find his perfect match or perfect woman for himself. But for that he will need a great deal of self confidence and self awareness and a stoic confidence in his manhood and identity. That way he is able to screen out unhealthy women who get attracted to the bad guys and get the normal healthy woman who is attracted to his good qualities. This way he has a chance to not only become the best version of himself but also attract the best version of the woman who is compatible to his values. Of course all of this would need a great deal of patience and persistence on his side but the fruits of his labor are going to be sweet.

Yep. In the context of the video.. For the same scenario what happens when the genders are reversed?

What happens when the gender is reversed? Do you think when a man says women, is he talking about his woman?

Maybe it's solid advice. I found it too generic not something to pay for. But glad you found him resourceful. (Glad I'm not married lol. ) His way of talking is smooth btw.

I'm just so consumed with the anxiety of seeing the therapist tomorrow. I feel so uneasy. Like I don't want to see the guy. I don't want their intrusive questions. Wish I could postpone tomorrow's appointment. But can't do that once it's booked. Fingers crossed. Just don't want that guy say something ridiculous to me or put me on meds. I have tried meds before. They don't work for me. And I'll be going with my sister. And I don't want my sister to pressure the therapist. Like she usually does. I think the therapist should allow me to talk instead of jumping to weird conclusions.

He is regurgitating the same things that the average guy around the street would say. I'm baffled that he even has a Patreon. Rip off. He is saying all the obvious things that are already out there. Of course a woman is always looking for a high value guy. Every guy has to invest in self growth to get the woman he wants or else a lot of women are going to ignore. Women are kinda business centric not in a bad way. They just want more value in life. She likes the guy who adds the highest value to her life. It's natural survival instinct in women.

I've returned home and it feels amazing. Tired but glad that everything went well.. I need to unpack and get things sorted out. Tomorrow I have an appointment with the therapist. Hope it goes well. For the rest of the day iwill be focusing on meditation in the evening, attending a satsang meeting later in the evening. But I'm planning to spend just 15 mins because got some form filing to do. I will be collecting all of my spiritual practices and lining them up, I got to do them seriously next week on. I don't want any further delay. Andrew will be home in the evening and planning to have dinner with him. Hey cutie

I also purchased pink Himalayan salt for the second time from the kiosk at the hotel. I'm planning to use it while cooking. It was good the last time I used but the bottle was too old so I had to throw it out..

1 hour remaining and I will be returning home.. This will be a great day. On my way ill be reading this short meditation book I purchased while at the center last month.. I'm seriously looking into different meditation practices now.. That one that will suit me in my spiritual journey..

Yay only a few hours left and I'll be done with the whole juggling of work. The seminar will be over in a few hours. And I'll get some rest. After that I'll need to do some packing at the hotel to return back home.

Socializing has less to do with looks and more to do with personality. Don't try to please people because that never works. Only be with those who accept you for who you are. If someone doesn't get along with you, let them go. They are not the best for you. When someone likes you they will be with you. So if someone is not interested you can't win them over. When it comes to socializing and making friends, the thumb rule is like attracts like. You will attract people who are in the same boat and think like you and appreciate your thinking. Be with people who resonate with your vibe. Appreciation is key. Being around people who don't appreciate you is always going to make you feel ignored. You be yourself. But it's important to be likable if not desirable. And likable means qualities like frankness, politeness, charisma, humorous, respectful, gentle, kind, sweet, empathetic, most people are going to like a person with such qualities but you will need to cultivate them to become a better version of yourself. Also always be positive so if someone isn't great at first, don't give up easily, be your best self for the second and the third try, if they still ignore then let it go and try others. Don't get defensive right away if someone isn't showing interest, being defensive puts people off. The whole socializing thing needs tremendous patience, emotional intelligence, tact and constant learning of people behavior and human nature. So it's going to be stressful obviously. To get one good apple, you'll need to try a thousand bad ones. That's how it works. It's a long arduous process. Looks can only go so far. The real deal is the personality. And lastly self worth. Whether you succeed or fail at socializing, it's really not an indicator of whether you are good or bad, beautiful or ugly or worthy or unworthy. These are just labels designed by human society and you shouldn't allow it to impact your self worth. Try to be more rational about it rather than emotional.

Be funny, frank, open, gentle and kind. If a person doesn't like you being kind to them, they are not worth your time.

Wish I get that lucky!

Just forget it. Focus on other stuff and do and watch stuff on YouTube in free time. Try to be relaxed. Take it easy.

So the good news has finally come in. A colleague of mine informed me just now that it's only 23 hours more till the end of the event. Which means tomorrow. That's some relaxing news. I can focus on other things in the meantime.

You're absolutely right. I'm glad you have such a great marriage of 25 years. Rock on. Have a wonderful day!

I feel like I'm juggling so many things at once. Camping, events, exes and relationships, family issues, financial investments, I do forex trading, cooking and cleaning at home, seminars and courses, my art course, looks like my plate is full. Yesterday I was just too tired. I collapsed in my bed. Had no energy to clean my room. Sometimes it feels good to have a full plate and I'm slowly getting used to this lifestyle because it removes intrusive thoughts about my childhood and relationships. Two years ago this lifestyle would have overwhelmed me and burned me out because I would have felt anxious doing more work everyday. Today this lifestyle makes me feel full. If my feet get tired, I feel exhausted but unusually I feel very calm and content like I did something, it's a great escape from the emptiness and depression I suffered 2 years ago. I think sometimes distraction and work serves a good purpose in removing the emptiness and chaos of life. Part of this is because of Cindy. I look up to her. She is a busy mom of 2 kids and works really hard every day. That inspired me. If she can then I can too. She finds satisfaction in being a mom. Seeing her over the past 1 year made me want to work harder and not shy away from work or think that work is bad or uncomfortable. In fact now I tend to seek more comfort in work than other hobbies. Maybe I might get workaholic but immersing myself in work is far better than immersing myself in reckless relationships and all the melodrama. I have expanded my comfort zone when it comes to work and now attending events is no longer painful or disdainful but a sense of achievement, relief and satisfaction.

Need to wait another 1 hour till they tell me the time the event will be over with. I need to rush for another appointment. I'll be attending a seminar on financial consulting. This event was like 6 days God really long. It's a catering course event. Awesome. But they stretched it too far. I was helping with making so many dishes. Feet - tired Very exhausting. We will be going to another camping event next month. For a corporate dinner and event..

If anything is good or bad, it is only so when the intention behind it is nefarious. Till then it's all just moralistic bullshit. However true love is not just about sex but much more so I would be glad to know that you enjoy each other's company and love during the time you guys are not engaged in sex. It's only that most people who are into that sort of a lifestyle like porn, nudity, swingers lifestyle aren't into it with the most innocent intentions but for gratification, greed and money. And usually those relationships and lifestyles don't end well. So I wouldn't want to be involved in that kind of a lifestyle unless I can completely trust the other person. But when people follow any lifestyle with innocent intent and without greed or lust for money or selfishness/disregard then anything is absolutely fine. People are not to be blamed for their perceptions towards certain things. They say it out of observation, experience and sometimes out of ignorance. The important thing here is to do what you enjoy without caring for what others think..

Sandra will be at my birthday party. So I'm excited about that too. I'll call this Sandra month.

I'm waiting for this event to be done with. 2 days 2 days 2 days. So my feet can rest a bit.

Woke up with nightmares again. This time it was different. Not the ones I had before. It was so strange but frankly funny. Didn't feel like a nightmare. So here I was trying to exit a class we had. Like a lecture hall. And I was exiting through the door. And I saw stairs on the right but the entrance is blocked. You need to go around it and make it to the concrete slide around it. This looks like climbing a tree. I'm just puzzled. It really looks like a stone slide. So I try to climb it hoping to find an entrance at the top because I can see people calmly climbing the slide and making it through out of it and the other way whether they find the entrance to the stairs. And they exit the building that way, lots of people doing the same. But when I reach to the top of the slide, I'm filled with dread because I don't know whether I should peep into the narrow hole I see. Holes can be very tricky. I mean a narrow tunnel that goes winding inside. It can create a great deal of anxiety. You never know what's in there. Now the size of the hole doesn't matter. Let's say the hole is big enough for you to simply roll into it, would you? What if you fall into this tunnel and never get out. What if you can't get out. Now if the hole is small, really small like you can only stick your head into it. You wouldn't even want to stick your head into it because your head might get stuck and you might suffocate to death. If you put your arm into it, your arm could get stuck. Right now(in the dream) I'm looking at this tunnel hole anxiously. I can't figure out how big this is. Will my body get stuck in it because it sure does look like that and even if I manage to wiggle through it, what if there's nothing there and I can't get out because there won't be sufficient room for me to comfortably work against gravity and jump out. It will be being trapped inside a hole in a tree trunk not able to get out because you can't curl up your body in that small space. So I'm still wondering whether to stick my feet into it and push myself and see if I can make it to the other side. Is there an other side at all. This has been making me claustrophobic, such little space and a minute's decision can change everything. What if I get stuck and nobody sees, I'll be stuck there forever like getting stuck in an elevator that doesn't move. I swear every time I get into the elevator there are always images in my head of people who got trapped in elevators. Sometimes having fear is wisdom and having no fear can mean stupidity. Because fear is the root of survival. Knowing that something can be dangerous helps to stay out of it. Not having the fear and facing it head on and getting into huge trouble can put survival in jeopardy. I woke up before I could know what exactly I did. Maybe I just sat there watching. End of the dream..