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This problem is interrupting my FLOW . Once I'm able to either contain the problem or resolve it, I will get back my flow in life. Since the problem has already robbed and drained so much from me, I'll pledge to myself that I won't allow it to damage or drain or steal my life any further. There is a huge opportunity cost associated with this problem. And I'll always remember that. Finally I'm breaking the grip.

I'm going to be using 2 terms to deal with the "BIGGEST HURDLE OF MY LIFE." These 2 terms are flow and crackdown. So I'll need to be very very very like ultra strict while dealing with the current ongoing problem in my life. So I'm going to call it the CRACKDOWN MISSION of my life. This mission will continue for next 3 months. I anticipate that the problem be at least manageable if not completely solved by the end of next 3 months and if not 3 months then by 6 months. I have kept a deadline of May 2 for the problem to get resolved by. And if not May then by August 25. This is my crackdown year. 2020. If I'm not able to solve this hurdle I will have a serious downspiral in my life. I want to put a FULL STOP to this problem once and for all. Because its stifling my growth big time. Without resolving it all of my spiritual effort will be pointless.

I am thinking about the biggest question in my life that has been bothering me for a long time. And I guess it's time for me to turn over the page of my life and dissolve the past and start over a new leaf. This is going to be very difficult. This chapter of my life has been going on for many years now. So it's finally time to fix it, now or never. Because I have taken too much of the rut. It's time for me to move on. I need to work extra hard this month to solve the hardest most impossible problem of my life. Of course that b is not going to help me. So I'm left on my own to fix things. This hurdle is going to be the hardest. I need lots of inner strength to work out this thing. I have faith in God. So hopefully God will pull me through this curse of my life. This has been the hardest most grueling the worst hurdle of my life. I feel that only a miracle can save me. I do believe in miracles sometimes. Maybe it's a mind in despair that wants to believe in it. I also need a great dose of sunshine and happiness to pull myself out of this huge quagmire that I'm stuck in. But maybe just maybe there is hope for the restless soul. Maybe one day there will be justice. Maybe one day there will be closure. Maybe one day there will be freedom. I'm looking forward to it with lots of hope and faith. Once the ray of light and hope illuminates my darkness, I'll be very grateful and happy to move on. This is how I feel right now.

I feel like I have come so far in my awareness. I can't imagine. A year ago everything felt like a blank board. All blank squares. And now I feel like these blank squares are gradually filling with color. My awareness is expanding at the speed of light.

The other concept is about Filtering in and Filtering out. When you are dealing with incompatible people or ideas, there should be filtering out. When the person is compatible, there should be filtering in. Other concept was about self esteem. Low self esteem and fatal self esteem. Low self esteem is when you feel unworthy. Fatal self esteem is when your identity is based on properties/assets like social status, money, relationships, social standing, group dynamics. Your persona and choices get significantly altered as a result of fatal self esteem. You change to fit in. Generally observed in narcissists. The other concept is about personality alterations. If you find yourself in a relationship where you feel like your personality is changing rapidly but not in a progressive manner, meaning you are doing things that you wouldn't normally do and how you are doing is impacting your well-being, then you need to quit that relationship.

Two new concepts One is natural behavior and triggered behavior. The behavior under natural circumstances is natural behavior. The behavior under special circumstances is triggered behavior. I forgot the other concept.

What a lot of men might not be getting is that discovering their inner manhood can go a long way than looking for approval from a girl or girls. I guess sometimes it's the low self esteem in men that makes them want the approval of many women to feel wanted and accepted and like a pro. But I guess some man with a higher self esteem will feel secure enough to just get the one right woman he wants. Now what if men took the whole dating thing as an elimination process rather than a method of getting maximum approvals and hits. What if a man thinks that every girl who rejects him wasn't meant for and through frequent rejections from several women till he narrows down to the one woman who is really attracted to him and wants him. That way he makes it like a narrowing down or elimination process like if you're searching a needle in a haystack. But first you'll need to remove the hay to see the needle. Same way he can ultimately find the right woman for himself who likes him and he won't feel dejected by the rejections because those rejections helped him find his perfect match or perfect woman for himself. But for that he will need a great deal of self confidence and self awareness and a stoic confidence in his manhood and identity. That way he is able to screen out unhealthy women who get attracted to the bad guys and get the normal healthy woman who is attracted to his good qualities. This way he has a chance to not only become the best version of himself but also attract the best version of the woman who is compatible to his values. Of course all of this would need a great deal of patience and persistence on his side but the fruits of his labor are going to be sweet.

Yep. In the context of the video.. For the same scenario what happens when the genders are reversed?

What happens when the gender is reversed? Do you think when a man says women, is he talking about his woman?

Maybe it's solid advice. I found it too generic not something to pay for. But glad you found him resourceful. (Glad I'm not married lol. ) His way of talking is smooth btw.

I'm just so consumed with the anxiety of seeing the therapist tomorrow. I feel so uneasy. Like I don't want to see the guy. I don't want their intrusive questions. Wish I could postpone tomorrow's appointment. But can't do that once it's booked. Fingers crossed. Just don't want that guy say something ridiculous to me or put me on meds. I have tried meds before. They don't work for me. And I'll be going with my sister. And I don't want my sister to pressure the therapist. Like she usually does. I think the therapist should allow me to talk instead of jumping to weird conclusions.

He is regurgitating the same things that the average guy around the street would say. I'm baffled that he even has a Patreon. Rip off. He is saying all the obvious things that are already out there. Of course a woman is always looking for a high value guy. Every guy has to invest in self growth to get the woman he wants or else a lot of women are going to ignore. Women are kinda business centric not in a bad way. They just want more value in life. She likes the guy who adds the highest value to her life. It's natural survival instinct in women.

I've returned home and it feels amazing. Tired but glad that everything went well.. I need to unpack and get things sorted out. Tomorrow I have an appointment with the therapist. Hope it goes well. For the rest of the day iwill be focusing on meditation in the evening, attending a satsang meeting later in the evening. But I'm planning to spend just 15 mins because got some form filing to do. I will be collecting all of my spiritual practices and lining them up, I got to do them seriously next week on. I don't want any further delay. Andrew will be home in the evening and planning to have dinner with him. Hey cutie

I also purchased pink Himalayan salt for the second time from the kiosk at the hotel. I'm planning to use it while cooking. It was good the last time I used but the bottle was too old so I had to throw it out..

1 hour remaining and I will be returning home.. This will be a great day. On my way ill be reading this short meditation book I purchased while at the center last month.. I'm seriously looking into different meditation practices now.. That one that will suit me in my spiritual journey..

Yay only a few hours left and I'll be done with the whole juggling of work. The seminar will be over in a few hours. And I'll get some rest. After that I'll need to do some packing at the hotel to return back home.

Socializing has less to do with looks and more to do with personality. Don't try to please people because that never works. Only be with those who accept you for who you are. If someone doesn't get along with you, let them go. They are not the best for you. When someone likes you they will be with you. So if someone is not interested you can't win them over. When it comes to socializing and making friends, the thumb rule is like attracts like. You will attract people who are in the same boat and think like you and appreciate your thinking. Be with people who resonate with your vibe. Appreciation is key. Being around people who don't appreciate you is always going to make you feel ignored. You be yourself. But it's important to be likable if not desirable. And likable means qualities like frankness, politeness, charisma, humorous, respectful, gentle, kind, sweet, empathetic, most people are going to like a person with such qualities but you will need to cultivate them to become a better version of yourself. Also always be positive so if someone isn't great at first, don't give up easily, be your best self for the second and the third try, if they still ignore then let it go and try others. Don't get defensive right away if someone isn't showing interest, being defensive puts people off. The whole socializing thing needs tremendous patience, emotional intelligence, tact and constant learning of people behavior and human nature. So it's going to be stressful obviously. To get one good apple, you'll need to try a thousand bad ones. That's how it works. It's a long arduous process. Looks can only go so far. The real deal is the personality. And lastly self worth. Whether you succeed or fail at socializing, it's really not an indicator of whether you are good or bad, beautiful or ugly or worthy or unworthy. These are just labels designed by human society and you shouldn't allow it to impact your self worth. Try to be more rational about it rather than emotional.

Be funny, frank, open, gentle and kind. If a person doesn't like you being kind to them, they are not worth your time.

Wish I get that lucky!

Just forget it. Focus on other stuff and do and watch stuff on YouTube in free time. Try to be relaxed. Take it easy.

So the good news has finally come in. A colleague of mine informed me just now that it's only 23 hours more till the end of the event. Which means tomorrow. That's some relaxing news. I can focus on other things in the meantime.

You're absolutely right. I'm glad you have such a great marriage of 25 years. Rock on. Have a wonderful day!

I feel like I'm juggling so many things at once. Camping, events, exes and relationships, family issues, financial investments, I do forex trading, cooking and cleaning at home, seminars and courses, my art course, looks like my plate is full. Yesterday I was just too tired. I collapsed in my bed. Had no energy to clean my room. Sometimes it feels good to have a full plate and I'm slowly getting used to this lifestyle because it removes intrusive thoughts about my childhood and relationships. Two years ago this lifestyle would have overwhelmed me and burned me out because I would have felt anxious doing more work everyday. Today this lifestyle makes me feel full. If my feet get tired, I feel exhausted but unusually I feel very calm and content like I did something, it's a great escape from the emptiness and depression I suffered 2 years ago. I think sometimes distraction and work serves a good purpose in removing the emptiness and chaos of life. Part of this is because of Cindy. I look up to her. She is a busy mom of 2 kids and works really hard every day. That inspired me. If she can then I can too. She finds satisfaction in being a mom. Seeing her over the past 1 year made me want to work harder and not shy away from work or think that work is bad or uncomfortable. In fact now I tend to seek more comfort in work than other hobbies. Maybe I might get workaholic but immersing myself in work is far better than immersing myself in reckless relationships and all the melodrama. I have expanded my comfort zone when it comes to work and now attending events is no longer painful or disdainful but a sense of achievement, relief and satisfaction.

Need to wait another 1 hour till they tell me the time the event will be over with. I need to rush for another appointment. I'll be attending a seminar on financial consulting. This event was like 6 days God really long. It's a catering course event. Awesome. But they stretched it too far. I was helping with making so many dishes. Feet - tired Very exhausting. We will be going to another camping event next month. For a corporate dinner and event..

If anything is good or bad, it is only so when the intention behind it is nefarious. Till then it's all just moralistic bullshit. However true love is not just about sex but much more so I would be glad to know that you enjoy each other's company and love during the time you guys are not engaged in sex. It's only that most people who are into that sort of a lifestyle like porn, nudity, swingers lifestyle aren't into it with the most innocent intentions but for gratification, greed and money. And usually those relationships and lifestyles don't end well. So I wouldn't want to be involved in that kind of a lifestyle unless I can completely trust the other person. But when people follow any lifestyle with innocent intent and without greed or lust for money or selfishness/disregard then anything is absolutely fine. People are not to be blamed for their perceptions towards certain things. They say it out of observation, experience and sometimes out of ignorance. The important thing here is to do what you enjoy without caring for what others think..