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I wanted to write about the phenomenon of energy scattering And about emotional recession. I created the term emotional recession to identify feelings of hopelessness and apathy. General lack of focus and motivation. No drive. This happens during prolonged periods of depression or being stuck emotionally in a bad environment or a bad relationship. This phase is characterized by feelings of being helpless or not anticipating a positive outlook for the future. The anxiety gets so extreme that it drives away the motivation to do anything positive. This anxiety leads to a period of misery and a general feeling of lack and frustration. The resultant feeling of failure causes the person to be detached from their environment and seek distraction in gambling, drugs, self destructive habits and other such things that take the mind off of the situation but not in the most healthy manner. Such distractions only serve a temporary comfort from the stressor or trigger but stifle conflict resolution and growth. I'll call such a phase - emotional recession. The phenomenon of energy scattering When you find yourself devoting your energy to things that do not help you in your growth or in the achievement of your highest potential then this energy scattering. Your brain feels cluttered. Your focus keeps diminishing. For healing to occur, it's important that all your energies get focused on your growth and empowerment alone and nothing else. Energy has to come together in a concentrated form to focus on growth. This is Concentrating Energy..

I'm still thinking about the healing phase and what picture I get is Something like hope..... Feeling of positivity. Morale building Healing the deprivation with basic resources. Giving basic essentials like nutrients food, sleep, water, rest,hygiene, proper basic functioning A basic layout. I can give an example of injured skin, skin getting soothed by ointments and then finally strengthened by exercise and nutrition and care. A proper base to launch from. Removal of negativity. Replacing negativity with hope and positivity. Preparing the mind. Reassurance Patience No further exacerbation Soothing relaxation calming Positive brain enforcement Encouraging I'll call this the incubation period. It's almost singing a lullaby to a child to assure it that everything is going to be fine Another example is of a plant that's dying. Watering it and then caring for it but the first necessity is to expose it to sunlight. Here I gave 3 examples. One is of a plant dying. The other is injured skin or wound healing And the other is recovering from drug addiction. All examples focus on healing from damage. I'm also include a graph on phases of healing.... A little later. There can also be a possibility of a downward spiral during the recuperation phase. But this downspiral can be avoided by proper healing. Healing is the intermediary stage on the curve between the recuperation and the Regeneration phase.. How to bring about healing Increasing focus. Focus on both liberation and also on hope and positivity. Determination to do well Positivity From hopelessness to a glint of hope or sliver of hope. Just the beginning of hope, just that small beginning. A spark A start An example can be something crude, something like a starter Your first attempt at writing before you become a writer Your first sign of motion in a sprained arm or muscle Your first walk around the building or in the nearby woods to get out of your depression Your first date Your first attempt at socialization These are steps you take towards healing. Of course these are baby steps but these steps are the first sprouts. An example can be of soil that is beginning to show signs of fertility, like the first sprout.. A parched land showing first signs of growth. (then comes momentum) The body and the mind has an innate ability to heal itself. You just have to let it be and activate that. Toxicity can hamper this activation process. The mode in which toxicity is prevalent is the damage mode. The mode when it ends its the End mode The mode when it actively regenerates is the Active Mode. The mode before the active mode is the passive mode. In Healing the passive mode is very important. The Damage phase --- > the end phase - - - > the recuperation phase - - > the healing phase - - >the Regeneration phase - - > plateau..... Stabilization. I'd say that healing is more like the hope phase where you are still figuring out a way out of things and you have just got a way that looks promising. Let's say you are caught in a distant island in Jurassic Park. You're in a state of hopelessness because you are imagining that sooner or later you will be eaten up by the dinosaurs. But you are struggling, you aren't doing good, you have no food, you're living in a makeshift bunker... You are barely surviving. There are problems after problems. But you're still surviving. You have a map and you are trying to figure a way out of the jungle.... And let's say you found a way to the waterfall and there you found a rope that you can use to climb to the top of the stones and it looks like you can escape somehow, only you need to struggle for a while before you get it. This is your first sign of hope. The rope... You were hopeless for so long but now something within you is holding on to the hope for good things, you're suddenly energizing yourself to fight through the situation, you are ready for the fight, you are ready to struggle to freedom, you are ready to motivate yourself to succeed and turn your hope into reality. This process means the healing phase. The phase of getting ready, getting motivated, finding that sliver of hope, trusting the process, taking the baby steps, holding the rope and having the courage to make that climb.... Making your hope a reality. .

Post in draft mode I forgot to write about the healing part, also right now my mind is so muddled with so many things that I can't really figure out how to place healing and what healing will look like. Just trying to imagine. Maybe during my meditation I'll get some new idea or insight. I'll have some clarity Till then I'm just fumbled on this word. And this puzzle is not completed yet. Need to wait till I get a new idea or concept in my head. I'll call the Recuperation phase as the zero aggravation phase First is looking at signs of emotional entanglement and then looking towards liberation. Recuperation This phase will focus on awareness, rest, liberation, going away, cutting off and Avoidance. Just like quitting a drug habit.. Having space. Breathing. Relief. Comfort. Healing Regeneration Regeneration needs love and support. Supportive care. This is like the resource building phase or strengthening phase. For example - taking herbs that strengthen the parts damaged by the drug. Getting prepared.

Post pending Draft post (post is in edit mode with all mistakes, will be fully edited later) The heart must be set free from whatever is hurting it. When you have a negative emotion you feel trapped. The heart suffers extreme stress. This is visible both in the heart rate and blood pressure and also in sleep wake patterns as well as the nature of dreams nightmares. The feeling of vexation and lack of control. The feeling can be described as depressed, trapped, helpless, stressed, pressured, unhealthy, uncomfortable, gnawing, irritated, tensed, disturbed, confused, traumatized, hurt, distressed, chaotic, cathartic, anxious, angry, mad, obsessed, etc etc.... The list goes on. The point here is that whenever the heart experiences discomfort, it's important to listen to it, this is the start, this is the first step, is to listen, see what's making it feel uncomfortable, do not ignore it, don't think that anything that stresses you out is worthy of getting into, no its not, in fact it's the opposite, you shouldn't have to experience discomfort, it's not helpful but damaging... Now the damage can be little or huge. Damage is inevitable but not necessary. Anything that is fragmenting your emotional state should be discarded. This post is going to be extremely long and I'm going to be focusing on emotional liberation and the heart Chakra both in the romantic sense and otherwise. This will also involve aspects emotional abuse, terrible relationships, and since emotional abuse is such a strong word, I'll replace it with the word /phrase emotional tangling. Emotional entanglement, emotional knot or Emotional Jumble. And the process of coming out of this will be called Emotional Uncoupling. And this can be further taken to complete recovery. This is the new chapter after Uncoupling. It's called The Recovery Channel. In this recovery channel, there will be phases. Recuperation - this is the phase I'll call it the rehab phase where the potential cause is first removed or separated in order for healing to happen.. This is like going on vacation. Healing - The last phase is Regeneration.

My current focus will be more on emotional liberation. This thing is working for me. I finally can see the unraveling.

Some of these stats look exaggerated to me. Like I just read somewhere that 4000 people died in New York. But I checked on another source and the number was lesser than 3000. Will need to do a lot of fact checking because the media is in a frenzied mode and just jumping at anything they get Reliable news is hard these days because it's too easy to manipulate numbers on a website. I don't think journalists care to actually go to the places to check things for themselves. They are too spooked for that. It's always easy to feed false data into a website and create a fake chart or numbers. It's also good fodder for traffic. At this point everything is just conjecture. Even YouTube cannot be trusted. Too many organizations revving up income through false reporting. Of course the situation is dire but the numbers are all bungled on different websites.

@Raptorsin7 thank you

Saturday 4th April Today is the best day. Got some good hours devoted to meditation. Was satisfied. It really kinda removed the "high strung" in me. After many bad days today was a good day. Yay yay yippy yippy yay

What if I told you that even if you became aghori you'll still reincarnate. And nothing will stop your reincarnation. That you have no control over it. Can these aghoris prove that they didn't reincarnate. And why this fear of being reborn. If you believe in Hindu philosophy, then you are never going to get freedom from samsara. You are in it. There's no escape. Well if you did manage to successfully escape, come back and tell me so I can also follow your path.

Today I did something different. I meditated for 20 mins and then simply stretched my whole body immediately after and that was very calming. I really want to activate all the Chakras and that's what I'm going to do. I always feel like the vibration of my heart Chakra is very strong because I become emotional very quickly. So today I did a little something different to escape my emotions. I wrote "freedom" on a stone and kept it far from my eyes, like 6 feet away and then looked at it intently while meditating. This thing really helped.

@Chintan desai in my mind it's all superstition. And by the way even superstition gets a lot of followers. Something doesn't become true or right or beneficial just because many people follow it. Look at drugs. Many people do drugs. Does that mean that drugs are healthy?

Don't believe all that. Birth and death is for everyone. Nobody is privileged enough to escape this matrix. Nobody can save anyone from anything. Nothing can be planned. What happens after death is unknown. Nobody can know because there is no way to know. Try living this life fully. Worry more about this life rather than the life you have no idea about.

@Nahm you're awesome

I don't agree with this. This virus is not the first (nor the last) thing that has rattled humanity to think about its survival, wars, famine, epidemics have happened much worse in history and yet we still had dysfunctional governments, individualism, capitalism, elite etc, this will never end, no virus can end it, much of the cash flow is run by government and corporations and the elite. The poor classes and the middle classes are merely slaves to the government. Elections are based on choosing the lesser of two Evils. All that I see that's going to happen is the government in major countries announcing stimulus packages for public health and safety, allocating more equipment to hospitals and refurbishing the emergency health department that deals with global epidemics and then later on politicians politicizing it and bragging about it. The only silver lining here is if less people die and some hope for the future in regard to preventing such outbreaks in the future in terms of immunization and safety standards. Economy is hit now. But it recovers. Everything goes back to normal. Corporations and elite profit from capitalism. They'll never let it die. And middle class. All they can do is vote. But their vote doesn't count much when most leaders are puppets of corporations and organizations. The above situation will continue as long as the following three exist Government Money Elite Government is a false illusion. Government is meant for governing people. But it always does the opposite. It controls people... In every country. No exception. Having complete autonomy independent of the government is the key. No dependency on the government at all. But this is extremely difficult but not entirely impossible. The only way I see all the bad stuff ending is if people collectively boycott and refuse to cooperate the government and create their own viable systems. But this will need massive responsibility and moral control..

When I was thinking and writing about emotional abuse, I also wanted to elaborate on spiritual abuse. I call it moral abuse. For example shaming a person in my opinion is like moral abuse. We aren't aware of it. But in every moment we are suffering some form of emotional abuse that goes unnoticed. Take responsibility for your own emotions and detect and stop emotional abuse early.

I'm not pretentious, that's the thing. If I pretended here to be this awesome person with an awesome life, that would be a lie and that doesn't help with healing. I have to be honest with my emotions. That's a tall order. But that's exactly what I need to do. I'm suffering currently from a mixture of emotions arising from multiple things and the breakup hit really hard and in the middle of a pandemic, things have been bad, if I pretended I'm all cool, it's not going to be right, I try to be as vocal as possible, I vent, I put it out all there.. It's like my throat Chakra and heart Chakra are in perfect alignment. Whatever I say, it comes right from my heart. If I look bad or crazy to people who read my journal, I don't care. I'm not here to impress them or seek their approval or be popular for them or inspiring for them. I'm me. Just me. Whether you like me or not. I can't be anyone else. I can only work through me. So pretense doesn't make any sense to me. I'm not here to be a model writer or clinch a title. That's like window dressing. This journal is my bare soul. What I feel I write. No holds barred.

Learn to label bullshit when you see it.

When you realize that you are not in the league. Trying to be that....... Escape queen

Pouring out my juvenile inner child Note to myself - Don't just focus on desires. Also focus on reality. Reality is much bigger than what you can imagine. Look at it. Don't ignore. Take responsibility. Don't act like you never had a role in anything. Look up and look at the big picture.

Note to myself Don't talk to fake people. They're a plague You said you will always be there for me, like a 4 am friend. But when I actually needed you, you just.......

I believe in the power of transformation, in the power of change.

Another way of achieving emotional independence is to set barriers and filters. A person who is constantly trying to aggravate you or not being appreciative of you is probably not the best person to hang around with.

Sometimes I think how this is going to change the world after we are done with it. The question also arises, are we ever going to be done with it? And even if we are done with it, how is it going to change people across the globe. Remember 911? That changed everything. Back in those days if my relatives went to the airport they wouldn't need an ID or documents or any of thay stuff. But now if I have to go to the airport, I will need so much documentation and multiple baggage checks and this and that..the added layers of security just screw you up, tensing up your body. Travel feels like a mission to Mars. I'm suspecting something similar with this Corona crisis. Imagine if I went to the doctor the next time just for a routine health issue and God forbid if I happened to sneeze, the doctor might tell me to get tested immediately or I'll be told to sit away from the rest of the crowd. How is that going to feel like? Being segregated, isolated... Are we going to do social distancing forever? What if people are afraid of the dormant virus? What if someone said they had Covid-19 but now they are symptom free and doing well, would someone want to be close to them, would someone be willing to kiss them. These questions are difficult and their answers uncertain. We never know how humanity is going to shape up in the throes of this gargantuan challenge. What happened to the world in just a matter of days? Although people will get back to work and everything will seem as usual, will it be possible for people to simply forget and act like nothing ever happened. Because the impact of 911 was so severe and was never completely forgotten even after a long time, so it might be all smiles and joy on the surface but people could harbor tremendous fear and aversion inside them towards each other. As if humanity wasn't already separated by so many different aspects like culture, religion, skin color that we needed a virus for people to fear each other even more.

Aspects of emotional independence Recognizing hurt cycles Ending hurt cycles Full responsibility for how one feels and what one does to address it Seeking freedom and liberation Counterintuitive behavior carefully dissecting what has been spoken and how it was processed Detecting signs of emotional abuse at the earliest Labeling and identifying emotions as they are felt Letting go and learning exactly when to let go. Not allowing the mind to stay in an emotional knot

In reference to this, I'd like to give examples of certain cults in India, especially a recent cult where people supporting the cult guru gave death threats to anyone leaking secrets or leaving or protesting the cult. And a lot of religions in India do that too, instead of collective ego I'll call it mob mentality.