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Note to myself Don't talk to fake people. They're a plague You said you will always be there for me, like a 4 am friend. But when I actually needed you, you just.......

I believe in the power of transformation, in the power of change.

Another way of achieving emotional independence is to set barriers and filters. A person who is constantly trying to aggravate you or not being appreciative of you is probably not the best person to hang around with.

Sometimes I think how this is going to change the world after we are done with it. The question also arises, are we ever going to be done with it? And even if we are done with it, how is it going to change people across the globe. Remember 911? That changed everything. Back in those days if my relatives went to the airport they wouldn't need an ID or documents or any of thay stuff. But now if I have to go to the airport, I will need so much documentation and multiple baggage checks and this and that..the added layers of security just screw you up, tensing up your body. Travel feels like a mission to Mars. I'm suspecting something similar with this Corona crisis. Imagine if I went to the doctor the next time just for a routine health issue and God forbid if I happened to sneeze, the doctor might tell me to get tested immediately or I'll be told to sit away from the rest of the crowd. How is that going to feel like? Being segregated, isolated... Are we going to do social distancing forever? What if people are afraid of the dormant virus? What if someone said they had Covid-19 but now they are symptom free and doing well, would someone want to be close to them, would someone be willing to kiss them. These questions are difficult and their answers uncertain. We never know how humanity is going to shape up in the throes of this gargantuan challenge. What happened to the world in just a matter of days? Although people will get back to work and everything will seem as usual, will it be possible for people to simply forget and act like nothing ever happened. Because the impact of 911 was so severe and was never completely forgotten even after a long time, so it might be all smiles and joy on the surface but people could harbor tremendous fear and aversion inside them towards each other. As if humanity wasn't already separated by so many different aspects like culture, religion, skin color that we needed a virus for people to fear each other even more.

Aspects of emotional independence Recognizing hurt cycles Ending hurt cycles Full responsibility for how one feels and what one does to address it Seeking freedom and liberation Counterintuitive behavior carefully dissecting what has been spoken and how it was processed Detecting signs of emotional abuse at the earliest Labeling and identifying emotions as they are felt Letting go and learning exactly when to let go. Not allowing the mind to stay in an emotional knot

In reference to this, I'd like to give examples of certain cults in India, especially a recent cult where people supporting the cult guru gave death threats to anyone leaking secrets or leaving or protesting the cult. And a lot of religions in India do that too, instead of collective ego I'll call it mob mentality.

Another part of emotional independence can be taking full or at least partial responsibility for the way you feel. The most important question to ask here is Why I feel the way I feel right now and what did I do to resolve it?

I'll have to write down some of the thoughts I get in my dreams. So these are the thoughts "why do care so much about?you're better

No truer words have ever been spoken.

One part of emotional independence is letting go. And I'm going to elaborate on this The other part of emotional independence is carefully dissecting what has been spoken and how it was processed. This is a part of emotional regulation. The third part of emotional independence is counterintuitive behavior. Lessening emotional Reactivity. The next thing I was going to write about was the subject of emotional abuse. And how it plays an important role in our life. And how emotional abuse could be happening on the sly and you not being able to detect it. Becoming a pro at detecting signs of emotional abuse Note to myself A person who constantly aggravates you is really not the best person...

Ok got it now. I was going to write about emotional abuse and the hurt cycle. I was also going to write about narcissism, psychopathy and empathy but that can be put off for later. One thing that I noticed in my previous relationship is that there was a certain pattern to it. I could put it like this - - - - harsh words spoken - - - - feeling hurt or traumatized - - - - apologizing without adequate acknowledgment, just an effort to win back, no rightful or mutually agreed upon resolution sought even after trying to convey the message "I need a resolution", no fucks given, and no guarantee that such a behavior will not happen again. - - - - a lame acceptance of his apology. And then talking to him once again. But at the back of the mind, the hurt remains. Unresolved. I'd call this the hurt cycle. I had known that this happened too many times, too times I had to forgive and let go until it reached a point where I could no longer forgive because it became a game of my emotions. One constant resonating theme of the relationship was my sentiment 'he just doesn't care at all'

I hate the feeling when I have to write something that was in my mind and when I am ready to put in words I completely forget what it was about. The mind becomes blank again.

Sometimes my mind races so fast that I get 3 ideas at once and I have to be too quick to jot down or they escape my mental matrix I've really gotten the writing addiction bug.

Learn to label things One thing that I must learn is to label things even emotions and behaviors at least in my mind because it helps in easy discernment and emotional processing. It's like I could jump to react if I haven't given a thought. This means that I am reacting even before knowing what's it's all about. The problem is that I'm a very intuitive person and so often I rely plainly on my intuition alone.

Yesterday I was thinking (by the way my nightmares have only gotten worse, it's like I'm holding onto a chord), so I was thinking about how we have so many desires that we suppress within ourselves. { I was also thinking about total independence, how would it feel to be totally emotionally independent} So I kinda of compartmentalized life into 3 distinct phases according to age and how our state of mind changes in correlation to the age bracket we are in. I don't want to be too restrictive about the age bracket I create for these phases because age is just a number and the emotion is more important than the age itself.. These phases are the creative, the compromise and the Acceptance. The creative phase - This phase is when you are young. The phase that I'm right now in. This is the phase when you fall in love, when you're into self realization, when you go through periods of uncertainty regarding your life purpose, when you have breakups with your partner, when you look for love again, this is the phase where you want to create your life and where satisfying a desire gives utmost pleasure and happiness and not getting what you want makes you feel rejected or disappointed. The compromise phase. This phase is characterized by reaching a zone of settlement, where you learn to compromise (not compromising what you couldn't have because that's hurtful and shouldn't be an ideal situation, that's a situation created out of repression and hence is not favorable) on the fact that the desire has served its purpose and its time to move on and look for mellow excursions, this is the phase to relish what was conquered and experienced and fulfilled in the creative phase. The acceptance phase This is the last phase of life and this involves acceptance of what's to come. Preparing the mind for it. Accepting that things are the way they are and that death is certain this is the phase of old age. This is also the phase where you remember your life in flashbacks and commemorate your memories with pictures and celebrations of your life and your aspirations and struggles. This is basically the end of the joy trip. It might feel sad that things have become difficult or come to an end but time is limitless and even in this phase there are ways to be creative and artistic and spend time in productive happy ways.

Tarot animals for each Empathetic Codependent Narcissistic Sociopath Counterintuitive Psychopath. Empathetic Codependent - Heron Narcissistic Sociopath - Ostrich Counterintuitive Psychopath. - Crocodile

Tomorrow I'm going to focus on 3 aspects Empathetic Codependent Narcissistic Sociopath Counterintuitive Psychopath.

Some important information on Covid-19 If the vaccine is implemented in your city now or in the near future please get vaccinated. The difference between a flu and Covid-19. Don't panic just because you got a flu.. Coronavirus also has neurological symptoms as stated in this article linked. Seizures etc. (sensitivity warning) https://www.nytimes.com/2020/04/01/health/coronavirus-stroke-seizures-confusion.html An article here that describes the symptoms and concerns and questions in detail https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2020/apr/01/covid19-coronavirus-have-i-already-had-it Below is the article that discusses what physicians and health department can do if a Covid-19 patient enters emergency ward. https://www.ama-assn.org/delivering-care/public-health/what-do-when-covid-19-enters-your-physician-practice Following is an important pdf text (no software virus, can be safely downloaded ) that shows how to get the workplace ready for the coronavirus. getting-workplace-ready-for-covid-19.pdf

You can't bring back a woman who found her way. She is gone forever. There's no point in Guilting me Joseph. I'm moving on forever. The damage was done long ago. Now face what you have When you break a woman's back, her back is broken, don't ask why now It's over. We are done for good, no matter how it much hurts me and no matter how much I wanted you, I tried my best to swallow your asshole behavior but I could take no more. A woman can only take so much. I won't stay single for you. I'm not stupid. I have my whole life in front of me and I'll make it beautiful.. If you make a woman leave you, it's your fault. Don't make her leave. Stop being an asshole before she leaves. If you can't love your girlfriend, it's not her fault, because she tried loving you, but you couldn't appreciate her love, then your fault, not hers. She can find a better man who will treat her with respect and give her the love she gives him

I'm trying to draw enough strength to get through this period of uncertainty. Things haven't been good I really need bullet focus.

It's time for me to rediscover myself. After the breakup, I haven't been feeling sexy at all. It's difficult now. I had an extremely strong sexual chemistry with Joe. It was something out of the planet. I would orgasm all night long. I would feel intense comfort in his arms and just having him touch me would make me feel come alive. Now that we broke up, it's difficult to feel the same way again with someone else. Even if I had sex, it would feel like cutting onions in the kitchen. I don't think I'll experience the same sexual outburst n When I was with Joe, he would be all over me, we would have marathons, it was sexy in a way I can't describe. He used to tell me that I made him feel like no other woman. I told him the same. Our chemistry was strong. And when we fought, we would make up with sex. Now that he is out of my life, I don't think I'll ever feel the same way with another man. One day Joe told me (I was kinda pissed off and ready to give up on the relationship) And he said "you'll never find someone like me, nobody will love you the way I did." In a way it's true. I don't like Andrew the same way I used to like Joe. Andrew is the nice one. But my feelings have eroded over time. It feels like it's not me anymore. I can have sex again but still not feel sexual. Still not feel the spark. The joy Not feel the romance. The romance ended with the last relationship. Its like " that man or no man" When I was with Joe, I was fiercely loyal. I never flirted with any guy. I never cheated. Even the thought never crossed my mind to look elsewhere. I wanted Joe only And now with the failure of the relationship, it hurts because I gave it my best only to know that he turned out to be that abusive typical lover. I never deserved that I ended the relationship. It hurts even the person who ends the relationship. Joe believes that only he is hurt. But that's not true.. I'm hurt as well. Very deeply. I would have really wanted things to work out between us. That's why I gave him the back door. I let him be friends for a while to see if things can work again between us. And they never did He was good for a couple of days after the breakup. But then he started acting strange once again. The same bullshit. The same assholism. So I was..... "hey, not anymore, I'm packing my bags, try some other woman with your games and shit" And here I am, all alone once again, feeling like a dead tree. Wanting the birth of new love in my heart. Wanting to dress sexy again. Feel sexy again. Put on those pumps. Wash that hair. Put that spray. Lather that lipstick. Wear that bag. Off you go... It's not that easy. I feel like a shell of myself. I'm not blaming Joe for this. We both were hurt. I just don't know how to collect the pieces together. And even if I did and decided to start dating again, it would feel like wearing my friend's dress at the prom dance. It won't feel original anymore. An ode to the Original Love.

Sexual attraction and sex are two different things. Romantic attraction has a beautiful essence to it. It's like magic. Like two magnets pulling each other. There's something about a person's face that attracts you to them. In the way they speak, the way they make you feel. Romantic attraction is like charisma, a spell that's difficult to resist. Every time you see that person you want them, you desire them, you wanna play games, tickle their fantasies, it's a thrill. Often times romantic attraction causes partners to be passive aggressive with each other, each teasing the other, playing silly games, intensifying the feelings of craving, the constant push pull, fighting and making up after, and surrendering to their temptations. Romantic attraction is a temptation hard to resist. It's very different from trying to resist the temptation to buy an expensive car or that thing you cannot afford, it's a different feeling. Resisting or compromising with it can cause feelings of intense melancholy and dissociation. Not having the lover you so desperately desire can lead to feelings of emptiness and even suicide. Love is like a fever. It grips you. It's a spell and when you are under this spell, your heart wants what it wants, and your joy is fulfilled in the arms of the lover.

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