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@Deepak sadhwani You should never use similar looking crystals together just because they have the same color. Crystals can have same color but vastly different mineral composition and different property. No crystal is similar to another in their energy properties If you have a crystal and you want to use another crystal with it, the option is a rose quartz, rose quartz is harmless with other crystals.. Rose quartz can be safely used in combination with any crystal.

@Deepak sadhwani Nice collection That looks like a citrine to me. Which website did you get all these from? Citrine brings Positivity and good luck, reduces fear and depression and attracts success. It's a good stone.

@Deepak sadhwani It always helps to have as many crystals as possible. I have some different kinds of quartz and Jasper, carnelian, amethyst, turquoise. All are helpful in different ways.. They work on different Chakra and each one has a different property. Don't mix them together into a chain or necklace. I had a navratna Mala of 9 gemstones but it brought me bad luck. So I stopped wearing it I would suggest that you use each gemstone separately and not mix them together. Keep them separated from each other. Every gemstone has a separate property and healing energy. So use them separately for maximum benefit You can use them in jewelry like chains and rings or use a block of crystal near your table or any cool place in your home.. Sometimes meditate holding the crystal in your hands. Or use as a Mala for jap

Great Info. I will try chicken liver next time.

Nothing could have been weirder on this morning's cup of coffee. ..................................

@Deepak sadhwani I had so much going on in my life that I didn't get enough time to pay attention to this journal. Over time I will when I get other things sorted out.. I'm glad to hear that you have all those crystals. They are very powerful.. I have a few crystals. They are small though. Green Averturine is very good for compassion, attract love, opening heart Chakra. Lapis Lazuli with its brilliant color is great for self expression, honesty and clarity. White sapphire is wonderful for creativity and confidence.

Learn to integrate both the key goals and the superficial junk of your life into your core plan and have clarity on what you want. This basically translates as perfect Resonance.

Look at it almost like you are healing your skin. You're literally rolling in toxins. And what's the point of healing your skin in other parts and leaving the wounds open. It's the places where you see the wounds that precisely need your healing balm. But first remove that big pile of dirt over your skin. Only then you can see those wounds. Idiot.

Certain things I need to focus on I've realized that it's important for me to have a sense of control.. Toxicity removal Replacement with good Now only having good is not enough because that's like filling a basket with all the chocolates and goodies. You also need a sense of direction once the healing is set in motion and the toxicity removed. Also you will need to remove the right stones and add the right fertilizer. You can't simply be very random about this spiritual cleansing process.. You can't do all this in a chaotic haphazard way. How to avoid getting stuck only doing something beneficial?.... Use a goal setter. Have a proper vision. Now align your mini goals and actions both of removal and addition to the main vision.. This way you know exactly what you are doing and why you are doing it. At any point of time, no matter how tiresome it is, putting this effort is worth it, you have to be a sureshot, you have to know at every point or step, the logical flow of things and how you are fitting things into a pattern, such that, in the greater scheme of things, it'll always make good sense, this means that you have to be very self assured about whatever you are doing, assured of what and why you are doing what you are doing. Consider it like a recipe. You can add whatever you want but then you aren't very sure about how the recipe is going to turn out. Yet when you know exactly what you need to put and you add that, then you know how your recipe is going to taste. This basically means that you have a sense of direction or you're creating a sense of direction. Of course you need a goal list. But first have a core plan. And also have key goals or core goals. Now, all of these key goals and other goals from the goal list need to be attuned to this core plan, and then have a general vision/understanding of how everything else in your life is going to fit into this core plan. Purification of the mind Reassurance Be open with yourself. Patience Focus.. Not losing focus Keeping a track Have consistency with yourself Reshaping the mind A goal list of course Readjustment to current paradigm and renewal of self growth Cleansing the mind

I think you're dealing with a turmoil period. Can be incredibly frustrating. You are showing existential crisis symptoms. You're possibly looking for a structure or framework or a launchpad in life. It will neither come easy nor will it come any sooner. You need to slowly build your base to grow from, your substratum. Take it easy. Don't be upset because of the frustration. This frustration is necessary for some time to learn certain skills and to learn acceptance of failures in life. People who bypass this stage think that life is always perfect and therefore they can never actually face life when things go wrong. This period of frustration and uncertainty is a necessary conditioning to be able accept life in its full form. So don't feel bad if you are going through this. One thing you really need to do is let go of perfection completely. There will be obsessive thoughts about perfection. Detach that thought. Don't wait for a perfect time or perfect day for things to be perfect. Accept the imperfection of a day.. Keep a dream board. Also keep strict focus all the time on things that are really essential for your growth. But allocate your time properly. Like for example don't use all your time to learn about life purpose or dating or spirituality. Dedicate certain amounts of time. Use your important time for job skills and health related stuff. Do not take everything at one time, as a perfectionist you might feel like time is too short, but take it easy, there's a ton of time. Focus on balance. Try to keep a proper balance between all aspects of your life. Don't exercise too much. Don't distract too much. Everything in balance. Also be very positive. Perfectionists might assume the future to be negative. Remove that negativity. Calm your mind with positive hope.. Think that everything is going to get fixed eventually. One of the problems that I can see in your post is that you are too attached to your life. If you are passionate person, this is expected. However being so attached can create a ton of frustration and can be a constant source of torment. So detach. Learn to let go. Learn to be free of everything. Have focus when you need it but during other times learn to be just be free of all thoughts. Otherwise they will consume you. So the key points are Focus Accept imperfections Dreamboard as a base or framework Allocate time properly Think using abundance. Think there is lot of time Keep Balance Be positive Learn to be free It's good to be ambitious. But I think you're taking a lot on your plate. I know it's difficult to draw a line. Let the obsession be in doses. So you are obsessed only when you need it to progress. It's like the saying "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy" Right now you're on mental steroids. You are super excited to achieve everything. But slow down. It can consume you. Tao is very good for balance. When you have to take a break, focus on the break, not on progress. Never think that you are missing out on something. You are never missing out on anything, it's only a mind trick. Learn to break your mental pattern. When you need the motivation, let the obsession come back. Keep a cycle. A cycle of progress and a cycle of slowing down. This way it becomes rhythmic and gets automatically balanced out. Waxing waning type.

Whats the point of losing virginity if you are too lazy to date anyway. Wouldn't it just be a one time experience? You don't need a prostitute for that anyway. You can try friends for benefits or casual sex relationships with anyone who is willing. There are many kinky websites for that stuff. With Prostitutes, there's risk of stds.

The anime story of Drury Lane. Multiple characters represent multiple things. This character set is going to be made up of infamous plants. Water Hemlock (Cicuta maculata) ... Deadly Nightshade (Atropa belladonna) ... White Snakeroot (Ageratina altissima) ... Castor Bean (Ricinus communis) ... Rosary Pea (Abrus precatorius) ... Oleander (Nerium oleander) ... Tobacco (Nicotiana tabacum)

My journal for my anime fantasy. An escape from reality.

One thing I really want to be able to do is ABC automatic body control through the use of meditation.

I need to make a goal list

Today May 7, 2020. Thursday. Implementation Days and No Social Contact Challenge.. May 7 Day 81 of the Implementation Days. Day 95 of the No social contact challenge.

I woke up with a nightmare. But forgot it completely. Today is Thursday May 7. Keeping a track on my nightmares. It's not as bad as it was on first day of the journal. Progress. Some progress but very slow.

Finally doing better...... Gahh I started this journal on March 27 Now after a month long struggle I'm beginning to get better. Whooooooooooooooooooooooosh... Feels like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders.

The Koyosta character set. The Koyosta forest Elves and nymphs Guardian Angel Queen Battleships Fortress Ponds and Rivers Festival Halls or Banquet Halls Witchy Manor Keyosha village Uranus is a pirate Empire that the battleships constantly have to deal with.

I have always held this belief since the age of 20, that society should have school called the School of Life, that teaches actualization, relationships to children and teens and teach them important life lessons about living and family and environment and ecosystem. A lot of parents are Incapable of teaching or they don't have time. It's important to teach children first about life and then Engineering and history or Chemistry.

I want to ask you a question. Are you concentrating a bit too hard during your meditation? Meditation is an immersive experience, so it has to be mostly effortless, like jumping into ocean waves, if you tried to force a meditation state or experience, it can become a boomerang and fly back at you. Instead of creating the normal feeling of calm and relaxation and immersion, it can create discomfort progressively over time, even inducing a panic attack causing the heart rate to skyrocket. If you force yourself to look at an object too hard and too long, your eye pupils will dilate, a condition that induces the autonomous nervous system to start accumulating adrenaline by jacking up the adrenal reflex and suddenly, without you realizing, your body is getting ready for flight or fight response. This used to happen to me in the beginning. I started doing Transcendental Meditation which is basically free flowing and relaxing and doesn't cause fear panic or anxiety during meditation. Meditation should always be a good experience. So if you are experiencing bad symptoms either it could be that you are forcing it too much, out of some obligation to do it or it could be that over time your brain has subconsciously attached the idea of meditation to fear and hence everytime you sit down, the fear clock starts ticking slowly and ultimately gives the heart attack feeling. Start with slow doses of meditation. Condition your mind by auto suggestion that there is nothing to fear. After that, slightly correct your practice. Your meditation should feel natural and harmonious. It should feel effortless and calming. Also don't worry about the time that you meditation. It's the quality of your meditation that matters. High quality 5 minutes meditation is better than 1 hour forced low quality distracted meditation. High quality meditation should immediately make you feel at peace with yourself, the way you would feel after a heavy cardio. Check your meditation method and switch it to your needs and also change your mental state before every session. It's called a warm up. Prepare your mind to think that it is good and peaceful. Then your fear will automatically resolve itself Remove the thought from your mind about genetic or hereditary heart disease. You are paralyzing yourself with fear. Even if you are getting a heart attack, you can't help yourself during it, someone else has to help you, you probably wouldn't even be conscious to actually feel it, so worrying about something you have no control over is plain stupidity and inviting more trouble. Remove such intrusive invasive thoughts immediately. The very goal of meditation is to remove and cleanse such intrusive thoughts from the mind You are doing the exact opposite. Cultivate the feminine in you, remove the controlling masculine force that is invading rather than calming, let the feminine side in you calm you down just before meditation and take it cool calm and easy during your meditation session.

In this journal I'm going to work towards my journey of self actualization. It's a work in progress.

@electroBeam I want to ask you a question. Are you concentrating a bit too hard during your meditation? Meditation is an immersive experience, so it has to be mostly effortless, like jumping into ocean waves, if you tried to force a meditation state or experience, it can become a boomerang and fly back at you. Instead of creating the normal feeling of calm and relaxation and immersion, it can create discomfort progressively over time, even inducing a panic attack causing the heart rate to skyrocket. If you force yourself to look at an object too hard and too long, your eye pupils will dilate, a condition that induces the autonomous nervous system to start accumulating adrenaline by jacking up the adrenal reflex and suddenly, without you realizing, your body is getting ready for flight or fight response. This used to happen to me in the beginning. I started doing Transcendental Meditation which is basically free flowing and relaxing and doesn't cause fear panic or anxiety during meditation. Meditation should always be a good experience. So if you are experiencing bad symptoms either it could be that you are forcing it too much, out of some obligation to do it or it could be that over time your brain has subconsciously attached the idea of meditation to fear and hence everytime you sit down, the fear clock starts ticking slowly and ultimately gives the heart attack feeling. Start with slow doses of meditation. Condition your mind by auto suggestion that there is nothing to fear. After that, slightly correct your practice. Your meditation should feel natural and harmonious. It should feel effortless and calming. Also don't worry about the time that you meditation. It's the quality of your meditation that matters. High quality 5 minutes meditation is better than 1 hour forced low quality distracted meditation. High quality meditation should immediately make you feel at peace with yourself, the way you would feel after a heavy cardio. Check your meditation method and switch it to your needs and also change your mental state before every session. It's called a warm up. Prepare your mind to think that it is good and peaceful. Then your fear will automatically resolve itself Remove the thought from your mind about genetic or hereditary heart disease. You are paralyzing yourself with fear. Even if you are getting a heart attack, you can't help yourself during it, someone else has to help you, you probably wouldn't even be conscious to actually feel it, so worrying about something you have no control over is plain stupidity and inviting more trouble. Remove such intrusive invasive thoughts immediately. The very goal of meditation is to remove and cleanse such intrusive thoughts from the mind You are doing the exact opposite. Cultivate the feminine in you, remove the controlling masculine force that is invading rather than calming, let the feminine side in you calm you down just before meditation and take it cool calm and easy during your meditation session.