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This image is brilliant. Shows me both a sequence and a loop Newton's Cradle

This journal will be dedicated to the different facets of the mind, psychology, history and the mysterious aspects of life.

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I never said that they don't have freedom of expressing their view points. But nobody has a right to demonize me for my choices. I don't call someone wrong or right for what they want. So they shouldn't call me wrong or right for what I want. Calling someone low conscious, superficial, and shallow is a way of judging someone's character. I don't need to be judged. I don't judge others. I give people their freedom to have their choice, Giving freedom to others is the greatest form of love.

@Amit You're automatically assuming that a hot guy is dumb???????????? I never said that the world revolves around my choices. I said I have full freedom to follow what i like without being made to feel upset or bad for it.. I said everyone has their own preferences. Its your shadow speaking that wants to label ugly with understanding and dumb with hot. I did not make such associations. A hot guy can also be intelligent and smart and wonderful. So do you want to indirectly imply that all beautiful girls are dumb??? Check all your confusions. I'm an adult. I know what to choose. I don't want any random hot guy. I look for everything in a man. Combined with looks. And nothing wrong with being honest with what you want in a partner If a man said that he wants a beautiful woman, would he be wrong? No... It's his preference and choice. Maybe in your heart you want a hot guy to be dumb so you can feel better about yourself. People don't come in boxes. So be careful with your assumptions. A man or woman can be good looking and also be insanely understanding kind and intelligent at the same time. And just because someone is unattractive, does not mean that they are understanding and pure hearted. Take the example of Leo himself. He is handsome, hot and good looking. Is he dumb? He is much more intelligent and loving and also hot guy looks going for him You are making your own arguments to serve your own ego. Beauty is an outward appearance. Inner beauty is beauty of the heart. I need both. Nothing wrong with wanting someone who is appealing Stop demonizing people who want good looking partners. Stop framing people for their dating choices. Stop judging a person's character for their dating preferences. Nobody is right or wrong. Nothing wrong with a man wanting a beautiful woman. Nothing wrong with a woman wanting a handsome man. It's only a skewed society that demonizes people for their natural instincts.

To each his own I don't want to be demonized on my choices of men. Nothing wrong with whatever a woman wants.. Her brain, her vagina, her choice, her freedom. Every woman is different in her body and mind. Although we all share some similarities. My instincts are mine and I embrace them with my womanhood. I don't want to know what's right what's wrong as long as I'm open with myself. Nothing is inappropriate with whatever you want in dating. It's just a matter of preferences. I have my own preferences just like other women have their own.

I would take Leo's point as well which I forgot to mention. Yes the dominance aspect. Being nice to a woman is great in the bedroom but don't leave your masculinity out. Dominance in the bedroom is a great attraction skill.. Women like to be dominated even if they deny it. I got passionate sex from my ex because it was a combination of his Alpha dominance in the bedroom and his intimacy feminine skills in wooing me. So it's a bit of both.

Women do get attracted to a man's looks. This is a fact. However you wanna put it. And women who don't agree, they are just trying to play around with denial as they usually do. Women are not goddesses, they are humans, just another gender, just like men, they are prone to the same misgivings as men are. Yes of course I don't mean to say that women only go for looks, they do count other things like personality and connection as well. But let's not be so blind to say that women don't like looks or don't care about it. Now they don't care about it as much as men care about female appearance, that I agree.. But look around if you want to, how many females swoon over not so attractive males. Do a dating experiment if you like, both online and offline. The guy with good looks is sure to get higher chances of women saying yes to him Do a social experiment and see for yourselves. Send two men, one a hot guy and the other a not so attractive short overweight man of the same age into a room of women.. Most women would instantly try to flirt or desire to be wanted and flirted by the hot guy. They will all hover around him, even if not directly, because that's a no no to the Female Ego, but in their minds they cannot resist trying to get the attention of the hot guy. This is female nature. If one woman likes something, then other women follow suit, they also want the most popular thing. That's why all male pop singers, boy bands have all these cute handsome looking guys, you may or may not find them attractive, but of course they aren't short, pudgy, bald and overweight, they are all date-able guys. All the Hollywood hunks. When a man is surrounded by a crowd of women swooning over him, it's usually an attractive man. Women like to parade them around like trophies. Does this mean that women are shallow???? I didn't mean to imply that. Because women can want much more than looks but looks aren't off the list. If women never cared about looks as they would truly want the whole world to believe, they themselves wouldn't invest so much into looks themselves, the makeup and surgery industry wouldn't have been a billion dollar industry. Let's face it. If women didn't want looks, or didn't care, it's the unattractive men who would get the ladies first, whereas the attractive hot men would be sitting around lonely. Unattractive men would have no self esteem issues in approaching women then. Duh. Have you seen a bunch of teenage girls and even older women hug the classmate looking nerdy with glasses or have you seen them fainting over the hot guy with a nice face and body and a few tricks up his sleeve charming the women An attractive man's picture will get the highest hits on an online dating service. Of course, this doesn't mean that women can't let it go, or can't compromise with looks, they can and many do, there are a lot of women who don't care about looks, the degree to how much they care about looks varies from woman to woman, however in general, statistically speaking, looks of men are valued across a female population. Women like to deny a lot of things because they want their self to look presentable. It's their Diva Ego fighting back.. Women tend to be less honest then men. They would rather have a denial than face the truth. Women are less likely to acknowledge what men say about them and less likely to accept that they were wrong if they did wrong. Women come up with all sorts of defenses to protect their female ego, to the level that they don't even accept biology. They want it their way. Again this is female nature. A woman in a relationship wants the relationship to be her way or no way. She can keep denying it, just like women deny that they are jealous of other women, these are hardcore facts that you will see in recurrent patterns when you conduct social experiments. How many men end up with broken friendships And how many women have friendships that go sour because of competitiveness created by women themselves. Yet they blame men. Yes men objectify women.. But women are not innocent angels. They themselves objectify themselves to get attention or favoritism Most female denials are just denials to serve the female ego, because inside themselves, they want to control the status quo so desperately that they obfuscate the truth.

I broke up with Joseph on March 13 and started this journal on March 27 to start my journey to healing. At the same time I always had Andrew by my side supporting me throughout and we fell in love with each other. It was a tumultuous situation for me because everything was happening so fast, I had no idea. Andrew had to leave for work to another city and that's when the whole coronavirus situation went down. Andrew left for the other city on March 22 and the lockdown was announced on March 25. It took a toll on me. I was grasping for the straws. But Andrew never left me alone. Throughout the month of April we remained close and he protected me and gave me an emotional cover He was instrumental in my breakup recovery. We knew we had feelings for each other and we couldn't hide it anymore. This is my fourth relationship after 3 failed relationships in the past. My first relationship was when I was just 19 in college and it lasted only 6 months. My second relationship was for a year after that. My third relationship was with Joseph for last 3 years, it began in 2017, and ended in March 2020. It was very passionate but also abusive. I have extensively written about it. It was my most long lasting relationship till date and the most spontaneous, tumultuous and a total roller-coaster. It took a massive toll on my health. I suffered a huge amount of narcissistic abuse throughout the relationship with Joseph. Although I considered Joseph to be my true soulmate, he was not meant to be. And this is my fourth. With Andrew. And I finally feel like I found The One. Andrew is very different from Joseph. Sweet and caring. I'm hoping this relationship would last forever. I didn't give up hope despite 3 failed relationships. I'm surprised that I still have the capacity to fall in love for the fourth time. My fuel hasn't completely exhausted yet. All I can do is pray that this relationship doesn't end like the others because I'm too tired keeping up my loving energy. Andrew is not an asshole. He is a good guy. Not like the past ones.

This call recording I saved of Andrew when he called me last night and he said a lot of sweet things and I was really excited so I recorded his voice on my phone. Dizzy Just little things he says and does that make me so happy and excited. Excited to meet him when he comes home after all this coronavirus. andrew call recording.mp3

For some odd reason, Sharon Grimberg has become my latest inspiration for life I'm always looking for a woman who can inspire me.

You got that right.

Lol (this was hilarious, not sure what to say) Aproach them with masks though and 4 feet distance

Detachment based spirituality... Freedom from samsara Awakening Psychedelics Enlightenment Freedom from ego Freedom from attachment The Beyond Raw form of the spirit Sacrificial form of spirituality. Ego gives me Attachment Safety and security Survival Grounding based spirituality Connecting to the Earth Connecting to Nature Power of prayer Conscience Biofeedback based Body control yoga Energy healing, Reiki, gemstones Grounding exercises Meditation Love Morality Following the right path Health based spirituality Abundance and prosperity Positivity Removing Negative energy Characteristics of the spirit nature or spiritual nature.. Protection and Security and Survival based. Healing and restoration and Grounding based spirituality. Chasing something that's never meant to be is just a waste of time and resources and health and energy, motivation.

@DreamScape @Deepak sadhwani That was a cute video.

@Deepak sadhwani Yes.

A prior preparation Gemstones of choice in a bowl Incense sticks Aroma oil Don't put on the lights. Use bedside lamp light for a diffused dim light. Perfume Cold water in a glass Now let the energy of the gemstones spread into the room.

Without knowing a woman, you really can't reach anywhere. You will always want and strive to have your needs satisfied without thinking of her needs. It will be a toxic cycle of relationship and breakup. In the end, you'll be alone and have a life where you have temporary glimpses of short term interactions with women, you might get sex, but no lasting fulfillment, the woman will also be left without a partner because most men wouldn't fulfill her but just come to her for what they want out of her, over time this behavior from men will make her more vulnerable and guarded around men and she would be progressively reluctant to date men, even advising her daughters and granddaughters to be careful around men and not fall for the bait and lose themselves emotionally. This will create a rift between the genders and both will end up living lonely lives, the woman constantly being on her guard, the man constantly searching to fulfill the needs of companionship. It never ends well. A man can get sex any which way he wants. But his goal is to have a long lasting relationship and that won't be possible if he is reckless in his understanding of female needs. Most relationships are broken by women out of frustration of not having a man who understands them enough or simply doesn't care about their needs. Men get blinded by their needs so much that they forget that there's a woman who also has her own needs with him.

The fear of uncertainty is very strong in me.. The fear of the unknown and the fear of uncertainty. I try not to think too much but sometimes I'm gripped by a sinking feeling in my stomach. I wish... Life was easy.

See how friendly this guy looks. He would show off his family pics. Great family guy right!! He murdered his wife and kids Christopher Coleman . Guy also went to church and was known to be a great guy. It's all a facade.

@electroBeam Just because someone does acts of kindness on social media, it means nothing about their true nature. I have seen guys acting wonderful and charitable on Facebook and social media and yet in real life they are cult leaders and enable abuse of vulnerable people. A man's real self is always behind closed doors. Social media is a fake shit show to show off. Don't base your opinions on people on their social media profiles.

@Keyhole But how would I know if he is doing it to show me love and intimacy or if he is doing it just to satisfy his drive?