Preety_India

This is my new journal. I want to sharpen my focus everyday and get more into actualizing. Hopefully this will be a good start.

Early morning coffee is great Today's goals will be Some visualizations. ???? Some visualizations Cooking Reading Artwork Meditation Music

Leo's recent video really got me emotional and thinking more about consciousness in general. Trying to improve and expand my consciousness. Getting deeper into it. Also Leo talks about Mahasamaadhi. I want to look deeper into it. Thanks Leo for today's video. Made a lot of difference. Inspired.

These days have been just bad for me. I'm trying to cool off. I didn't do any visualizations today. Shit sucks

Ate this

The jewel is in the lotus

So true.

@LfcCharlie4 Haha, you are so into all of these things, I kinda envy you. Jokes aside, I'll try celery juice someday too

Biologically we are programmed to have some evil behaviors. You can also see this in animals. The other day I saw a video of a pack of lions attacking and killing a lion. Lions also kill the cubs of other lions. This is the nature of humanity. You have some good and some bad There are certain things in life which are so complicated that there will never really be a perfect answer to such questions. That's why people scramble and come up with a universally accepted answer or repeat what others say to not feel defeated. The best thing that we can do is grow love and compassion and reduce evil Sometimes evil is also used for good purposes. For example killing is considered evil. But you could kill someone to save your child as an act of self defense. Here evil is being used as a weapon and not an intention. Often times evil is simply lack of control and lack of a solid moral foundation. Such people take the bait of evil and surrender to it.. Strong people can resist evil because they have a mental stamina that doesn't allow them to easily become corrupt.

Another great guy just like Rupert Sheldrake having a different spin on the complex nature of reality Donald Hoffman.

Lol Just use a phone timer to set the alarm or time keep it on snooze if you want. But kinda counter productive. Or use a sand hourglass in front of you. Or put on a piece of Tibetan gong or Tibetan bowl music that hits the gong every 10 minutes. See the length of the video, anywhere between 20 minutes to 1 hour. At the end of the 20 min /hour, the video will end. So you know your meditation hour is complete.

This is what you do to us every day not using a hand though but with a whip of your tongue. That was such a cute picture meme though with the hand on the head.

@IJB063 It's also one of the reasons why they wouldn't agree to spend a night in a haunted house.

2 years ago my family wasn't serious about getting help for my mother because of strong social stigma associated with mental illness in my community here. So it was an extremely difficult situation.. However this year seems a good year for me. If they finally agree that she is mentally ill and decide that she needs help then things can work out. By now, 3 doctors have diagnosed her as a severe bipolar and prescribed medication which she took for 5 days and then stopped.. The doctors suggested that she will need a psych ward if she shows extreme resistance and zero improvement in symptoms.. This time however my family is ready for some professional help to be given to me in dealing with the situation. Currently I'm the only one funding her treatment which is getting difficult for me to continue because it's very expensive for me. If they all agree on this, we can come up with enough funding to deal with her mental illness and probably afford her better treatment. We can also be able to keep her in rehab for some time or some kind of mental illness treatment program which are quite expensive here..

I'll use this journal to chronicle my path towards healing from a terrible relationship and a breakup.. The relationship transformed my personality in both good and bad ways. Good because I learned how to find love in myself and to detach from negativity. Bad because it left so much damage and trauma both physical and mental. I had opened thread very recently in the dating section regarding my ex and his constant efforts to reel me back into the relationship I tried so hard to escape. That thread had wonderful suggestions and ideas and thoughts that I need to include in my journal of healing.. This is an important journal because it is the journal where I am going to be embarking on a new journey from today that is March 27. (2020) I need to be moving on and it will need a lot of healing and acceptance and self love. He left a hole in my heart which he filled with a ton of negativity that I will need to recover from.

I had a conversation with my boyfriend today regarding this. And he was understanding and sympathetic. My boyfriend gave me some tips today on dealing with the situation. His tips were really helpful.

I had a serious talk with my family today regarding the situation of abuse. And it seems they are ready to look into it and do something about it. It seems they are ready to cooperate me on this. They have said this many times before and actually never helped me out with my responsibilities with my mom.. Last time my mom hit me really hard on my shoulder that lead to a bruise. So I had a talk with my family members today regarding her behavior which they dismissed many times. Today the person agrees that she is mentally ill. Let's see

Didn't achieve much today..

May 19, 2020... Failure Didn't achieve much today..

Very eloquent here He talks about being banned here

Maybe this you looking for. Some videos in here

Luck is a real natural phenomenon and I do believe in bad luck. This could have spiritual implications stuff like past karma, people have suffered generational curses. I think certain events people or things can change your luck from good to bad or bad to good. I believe in good and evil spirits. So maybe the good spirits bring on that luck. Also I've noticed that celebrities do a ton of things to get good luck like numerology, going to certain temples, have a circle of therapists and advisors, buying things, doing rituals etc. Now there's a difference. In Eastern traditions we generally have temples and statues like you may have heard of the laughing Buddha or Feng Shui Cat, buying that is supposed to bring good luck. Some people in Asia maintain arowana fish for luck. These are considered positive practices where the person who does them is somehow in touch with a good spirit watching over him. These good spirits want him to be prosperous in life. Now there is a strange problem here. In most Asian countries including mine, prosperity itself is considered noble and good and associated with goodness and a mark of being a good person. This is kinda dubious because most people who get rich become rich by scrupulous ways and aren't the best people when it comes to morals. So it's not bit funny and ironic to assume that wealth and prosperity is a symbol of goodness or moral highness. So how can acquisition of wealth be considered a pursuit of morality? Now switch to the western side which is mostly influenced by the Abrahamic religions. In these cultures (I'm not sure about Jewish), the worship of wealth is considered bad since biblical times. Prosperity gospel has tried to change it a bit and now a lot of motivational speakers in the west talk about how you should attract wealth by having a pro wealth mentality. But traditionally in western culture, money is considered a source of evil. So there is a general contempt shown to anyone who is prosperous or hoarding a lot of wealth. This is has impacted how the west views their wealthy elite and celebrities. In Asian and Eastern cultures, we tend to respect and think of celebrities in high regard as the totems of leadership and values and success, so someone like Bill Gates or any of the capitalists enjoy a lot of popularity here, they get worshipped like Gods for their success, people buy their books and look up to them, however in the west, these highly successful capitalists get frowned on, get picked on on social media and get resented by the general public as exploiters and vultures of society. Capitalists can be ruthless in their ambition and actually damage society for their personal gain, think of all the capitalists who sell addictive products to make money. The western public exposes them for who they are. Yet here in the East we worship them. Now. This attitude in the western world has also influenced how they perceive the acquisition of wealth and success. Most people link it to a satanic practice. So if something supposedly brings good luck like a ritual or temple or visiting a place, it's not considered good, it's considered to be a mark of the beast, and phrases such as "sold the soul to the devil to get success" are often used and the term illuminati is used while referring to ultra rich celebrities, that they must have engaged in a pact with the devil in a satanic ritual and in return the devil decided to favor them with success and wealth. This is very different from how things are perceived in the East. In the East if something is considered positive, in the West it's considered creepy.. It's fascinating to observe how mystical views on wealth and success drift to extreme ends of the spectrum in the East and the West. This could also explain why in the West, they don't talk about luck very loosely because they don't want to look morally corrupt or suspicious in some way, using the term hard work looks more sublime and innocent and palatable to the western public and using the word luck could mean something sinister. Whereas in Asian countries, (it's funny), because if someone used the term luck, people would jump with joy and not have any skepticism towards it. These mystical or moral beliefs rooted in the moral tapestry of each society can have significant influence on how luck or hard work or wealth/success is viewed and talked about and cultural perceptions can hugely alter the tone of conversation. For example, a western man on a public stage will be less likely to talk about wealth since he is aware of how he will be perceived, this will make him reluctant since in every society we always try to align to social values because it makes us look good or acceptable and moral in the eyes of that society, so he will try his best to look good in the eyes of the audience and thus his tone of the discussion will be significantly different from an Asian giving a speech on wealth on the same stage. So yeah, cultural/moral /mystical perspectives do matter a lot when such things are discussed. It's like a fine line of sensibilities. Since I converted to Christianity from Hinduism, I constantly deal with the duality of perspective in the East and the West and the subtle cultural differences that create this matrix of diametrically opposite perspectives. From a personal perspective, I believe in both hard work and luck. But I don't consider wealth or a success as a sign of moral high ground or even spirituality. In fact whenever I think of wealth and success it seems like I'm walking away from spirituality. Since I converted to the western side of things, (not trying to be moralistic or condescending to the eastern side in any way), the western outlook on such matters looks more logical to me.

Daily horoscope 19 May 2020 HEALTH You may get to travel new and unexplored places. This trip can be for pleasure or business, but it will be a successful one. EMOTIONS Negative thinking may disturb your mind but keep patience, the results will be positive. PERSONAL LIFE Today you may be upset due to rude behavior of the partner. Have patience and try to avoid making issue of small matters. Some confusion may occur at your home. If you are in trouble due to some personal issues, do not take any action emotionally. PROFESSION Business persons are advised not to go for risky investments, as they might incur heavy losses. You may have disputes with the partner on money related issues. Today, you may have extra workload - a complex task can be assigned to you in the office. TRAVEL Rash driving and risk should not be taken while on the road. If you are making plans to travel long distance, then it will be better to postpone it for two to three days. LUCK You are particularly sensitive and intuitive today and shall react strongly to what people say.