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@EnlightenmentBlog yep

Hmm. It could be underlying anxiety. But it comes from a fundamental sense of ego, this need to defend, protect and survive at all costs. When you think that you and others are same, you become less defensive and your peaceful attitude attracts the peace in other people. This is less likely to create conflict. Accept that people are like this. That way it's easier to deal with them. If someone is too argumentative then just stop interacting with that person because there are always limits to patience If someone hurts you or is condescending, then they are being biased, and it's not your fault, it's them being bad and you can have the satisfaction that you are in the right.

@Inliytened1 thank you

I need to get a bit stricter on my Implementation Days. Also I had a mini insight on the theory of distraction. Like for example my friend just called me a few moments ago.her name Hopkins. I was able to talk to her and in the middle of the conversation (she told W to text after call), I was trying to help her out with a health problem and trying to give her advice.. And I completely forgot what I had to say. Because I got distracted But I'm so passionate about helping her that I almost felt terrible guilt over being distracted. That's when I realized that distraction is so unhealthy.. Think about the amounts of time that you wasted getting or being distracted and the wasted or lost opportunities. In the same time you could have done so much good, you could helped someone in need. You could have achieved something for yourself. You could have done something good for yourself in that much time Distraction is the greatest art of the demon.. Don't get distracted. Keep sharp focus

I am not sure and I've no medical expertise so my advice is that of a layman, and as such it should be taken with a grain of salt. I think the symptoms indicate to me that there is some sort of inflammation in the body or a type of inflammatory condition. I'd say try different supplements. A deficiency can also be responsible for joint pain. Do you drink enough water through the day? Dryness can cause skin irritation and itching. Sometimes even lack of sunshine if you are always in a room with little ventilation. Maybe the breathing issue is not related to the joint pain and irritation. Sometimes health problems can manifest as a cluster of unrelated symptoms arising from two different causes at the same time. Vitamin D deficiency. You will need a blood test for this.. To Rule it out. I'll try to keep a watch on these specific symptoms and see if I can get more info. If I get I will let you know.

I once transferred my whole bank account into a financial investment. Couldn't sleep for 3 days. Because of s some technical error both my bank account (because of zero balance) and my investment account were locked. I had some cash with me to survive for a week. I kept calling my bank and my investment company constantly throughout the week out of sheer panic and they weren't able to fix it. I thought I had lost all my savings. But eventually they were able to sort out the issue and transfer 50% of it into my bank account but the rest was lost in trades. That's the greatest financial risk I have taken so far for my investment business. The other risks I took are Religious or social risk. I took the risk of telling my family 10 years ago when I was 17 that I wanted to be a Christian. They were not approving of it. I converted to Christianity against their will But they were about to out me completely at some point. Also my social circle at that time wasn't happy with my decision. So I risked losing everyone for my quest for Christianity. I did it anyway. I lost some friends but I remained firm. The other risk was getting over my phobia of the dark. And I have finally succeeded. This took many years. Job risk I was working in an investment company a few years ago and the schedule was brutal. Working for more than 10 hours a day and low pay. It started to impact my health pretty bad. I decided to confront my boss about the pay and cruel working hours. I stood up to my boss who threatened me that I would lose my job. Guess what. I lost that job. I left that job and got another one. Second job. In this job I was facing discrimination from a female boss. It was an all male project team and I was the only female. She was my boss but she was sabotaging my work probably some jealous issues because I was doing better than most guys there. Some of the guys then started harassing me at work and stealing my work, hacking into my emails. These guys would butter up the female boss to win her favor. I didn't believe in buttering up a boss but in honest hard work and excellence.. I confronted my female boss with all the harassment the males were subjecting me to, but instead of being supportive she dismissed me with the threat I'd get fired. She then transferred to me an unrelated department where the work was bad, pay was less and I had no experience in that department. I quit because of all the office politics and took up another job in an event management company that i work with now. And I'm very happy I took the risk of quitting a mentally and physically unhealthy job. Relationship Risk I'm currently in a relationship with an American white man. This is an interracial relationship. My family is not very supportive of it. But I take the risk nevertheless. I live my life on my own terms. Family risk Confronting my Bipolar mother I confronted my bipolar mother early this year to get therapy and medication. I knew that it would lead to a violent confrontation between her and me. And I'm terribly scared of her. Yet I decided to tell her the truth anyway.. Since then she has been reflecting on it and I have managed to convince her and take her to a few appointments before the Corona. So those are all the risks I have taken and I continue to take some of them. Tip to overcome fear. Only one tip from me Believe in Yourself.

@JessiChell The more conscious you become, the less you will be likely to get into abusive relationships. I looked through this thread. It was a mess. ( off topic - I saw your t-shirt that says Vegan. I'm not a vegan. I eat meat. .i hope that doesn't trigger anyone..)

@Stratos Well it seems like she is good at understanding your emotions and her responses are very thoughtful and considerate. So best wishes to both of you and trust is the main component of your relationship. So I hope everything turns out good in the end.

@legendary I'm glad you created the thread.

I hope and pray for his family and hope he gets through this hard time. Love the way he describes Infinity. Also love how he talks about Rigveda texts in Hinduism and Atmaan and Brahman in hinduism. He mentions the soma psychedelic plant during the Rigveda times.

Nostalgia Leo's interview with Martin 3 years ago. Leo asking him right away about 5-Meo for enlightenment. So cute. Enjoy video and donate to Martin Ball.

So sad. I remember Leo's interview with Martin. Both were having a great time. That guy is great. I just donated to his website through PayPal. http://www.martinball.net/ This is the link to find the donation button.

@andyjohnsonman That's awesome. Thanks for sharing.

Next reporting should be on day 105..that is on May 31st.

Today is May 26 A maximum gap of 5 days before reporting. (not to Mr Doge) May 16, 2020. Saturday. Day 90 of Implementation Days. Day 104 of the No social contact challenge. ---- May 26. 2020 Day 100 of Implementation Days. Day 114 of the No social contact challenge. I have reported after 10 days. Not 5 days. Bad bad. Next reporting should be on day 105..that is on May 31st.

Now I can divide Hinduism into 3 major parts Hindu Mythology Hindu Religion Hindu Spirituality and Philosophy (modern day Hindu thinkers) Since Buddhism is an extension of Hinduism fragmented from it, I will include some philosophies of Buddhism as well.

At least I understood some basic aspects of Hinduism which is a good start.

I hope Andrew didn't blurt out "earth is flat" during his job interview. Because he works with geological stuff.

5-Meo has nothing to do with it.

I need to talk to Hopkins today. Waiting for the coucal.

So trying to collect myself together. Things are back to me feeling good But i Still have a long way to go. Waiting for the coucal.

I think @Meta-Man can answer this really well. The mind creates an illusion of division for survival. It has to be this way. There is a you and there is a I. However when you reach higher levels of consciousness, you see the boundaries dissolving, see the enlightenment video of Leo, you begin to realize that we are always living in Maya or illusion and this prevents us from realizing how the our own actions and the actions of others are impacting the same consciousness that we all share. Think of it as a long stream of all objects, people, events, and imagine all these elements interacting with each other within the stream. These elements although part of the same consciousness, have out of their egos separated themselves from each other and thus living in an illusion and impacting each other meanwhile all their collective actions are actually impacting this collective consciousness.. So it's not totally meaningless when you are giving advice to the other. You're giving advice to someone who is also a part of you. You are giving it to yourself who is found in another.. That person's mistakes are your mistakes. Your advice is helping you to overcome your mistakes in the other self. These are parts of you, versions of you, you see them differentiated, just like many streams arise out of the same river. So even if one stream is different from another, they all meet in the same sea.. All these parts of yourself that look unique to you will come together to unite and form you again. And the whole will be formed again.

You (courtesy Meta-Man.. )

Last night was a terrible dream again I was about to be eaten by a Crocodile.. So I don't remember much but I remember waking up with chest pounding. This nightmare was ughh. The worst. Just too much. I could see my feet getting dragged by the crocodile, the worst kind of fear consuming me. Never felt this frightened. The crocodile was slowly swallowing my body and I was just watching. Until something happened and snap, I held onto something like a branch and dragged myself out of its mouth. This struggle. Finally I'm out. But wait. I start running and running and the crocodile chases but can't for long. Then I reach a place where I can see all trinkets and leaves and objects and I'm climbing on it. I sit on it. Then I see a small crocodile about the size of a thumb. Like half of a thumb. And I'm freaking out. It runs faster than I can think. I keep searching for something and it grabs my finger. And I keep struggling to separate it from my finger and throw it out but it's grip is too strong. Finally I'm able to get it off my finger and it's painful.. I immediately take a netted colander and just place over it like a trap and now I can see it trapped inside. It's trying to bit my finger through the net as I'm pressing the net with my fingers. So I take a heavy book and place it on the top of the colander trap. Now. Aaaah.. I breathe a sigh of relief. Finally I caught it. The only fear is if the mother crocodile finds out that the young one is trapped.. I'm hearing the sounds of the croc, it must be nearby. End of the dream. (Wakes up in fear, this was the worst, seriously I'm not so scared of crocodiles in real life, but the croc scared the shit out of me..ughh) Damn you, I'm not scared of you. Pffft.

I am going to use this journal as a way of recording my dreams and Nightmares. A detailed record of the dreams is a good way of analyzing my thoughts when I'm not aware of those thoughts.