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@Aquarius don't know much about all this I'm just glad that I didn't get pregnant the last time lol. I would want pregnancy only if I'm married and fully settled. I don't want to be pregnant till then.. So no choice other than birth pills.

Birth pills That's what I do.. Some men don't enjoy condoms.. My boyfriend doesn't like condoms. So I have to use the pill (even with pills there is a risk of pregnancy, one can't be 100% sure. Even with condoms. None is really very safe. I don't know any other method.)

@IJB063 even if he had a felony record, does he deserve to be executed on the ground in public on the street? Shouldn't he like others deserve a fair trial? That's where I see an innocent death. A person not even allowed a proper arrest and dead on the spot.. It was inhuman in every form because of he was begging for his life. And second point. How does grieving over his death automatically become mutually exclusive. How does it imply that I won't grieve other things. I never said that others aren't deserving of my tears. They are too. If you showed all those thousand videos I would feel equally hurt and sad but my feed page on YouTube or Facebook showed me this first. If I was shown those videos I would have felt equally depressed.. The question or the focus is not so much why I'm grieving the death of this man alone, I never mentioned in my question that I am feeling more distressed over this out of a bunch of other videos. But this video is the latest in the string of incidents of different kinds of injustices. I usually heal over time but in this case I wanted help in processing grief, of course over time I will forget it as usual but my real question of the thread, if you cared to read carefully was the last line "How is a person supposed to accept and reconcile pain and injustice and suffering in the world while living life?"... This is about all injustices in the world, I have used the occasion of George Floyd's death to highlight his tragedy as well as other tragedies that don't get spoken about. I really needed help in processing pain and accepting or reconciling injustice and suffering in the world, wasn't looking for being judged for grieving the death of a black man in America. Don't understand why that was such a focus. The focus is more on the injustices, Floyd just happens to be the latest symbol of it.

Actually yes. Some of the male colleagues I work with started using ecigs as a middle step to give up smoking. They felt better since it contains reduced nicotine and is less addictive and gradually helps in tapering off the addiction thus spacing the withdrawal symptoms. Some of them successfully gave up smoking. So I will say it helps in gradually getting rid of the addiction.

@Shmurda it's because somehow in his death, I see all the injustices of the world, the nature of his death reflects the deaths of many innocent people around the world. He seems to symbolize the death of innocence.

@Lyubov that was helpful. Thank you.

There are much better flirts out in the malls there. One of them is Arcangelo. He has great supermarket experience.

That's really bad. I feel sorry for your situation. I'm trying to use counter-intuitive universe approach to deal with such toxic situations. I imagine that the universe holds the answer. And instead of being negative and depressed about the situation, because being depressed only makes it worse, I try to focus on what positive I can create. I have just started exploring this approach so I can't have a lot of feedback. I don't even know the practical way to go about it But I believe that the answer lies in positivity.

@Serotoninluv such a beautiful and exact explanation. That's what I meant but I couldn't explain it like you did. Thank you so much.

Very true.

@Rilles I am glad that you had that experience. It's a true blessing to experience something like that. I would love a Reiki session because I believe so much but I can't afford it so won't think about it for the moment. But I will try learning Reiki in the meantime.

@AtheisticNonduality every stage has true or healthy and unhealthy manifestations. A green wanting violence is no true green or is an unhealthy manifestation of green. So I don't see the no true Scotsman fallacy.

I would say that you will need to somehow move out. It's not healthy of her. Get a job and have some money and move out of the place. It's difficult but it can happen.

Those are not real green or at least not following real green. They are simply being emotional idiots.. A true green will never support violence. They protest peacefully and want changes in the constitution through protest and voting process. I'm a true green and I would always want either protest, activism or voting to create change but never violence. Protest can be done via non violence methods like hunger strike.

Oops, sorry, there was a slight misunderstanding there. I misread that line . There is this cognitive conflict avoiding you from receiving love because there's a hurdle in your mind that maybe you might end up hurting them. This is like a subconscious tick. But that's ok, as you work on yourself this will go away, I presume it's anxiety.. But the more you free yourself in the company of a woman, eventually this fear will vanish.

No need to leave home out of pressure. Do tons and tons of shadow work. Work on self.

You need time for recovery.. You can collect the pension during this time. Go somewhere on weekends with your boyfriend to relieve the stress. Be easy on yourself. Have patience. You will emerge strong out of all this but it will need time..

@Epikur yep. Politicizing the issue for their personal agenda as always.

We all like you bud

@Roy you're awesome Roy

Good for you. But you could relate to people even without deprecating yourself.. You can be humble without self deprecation. You don't need to appear sacrificial to gain validation. Be proud of you. (wasn't trying to be preachy, just friendly feedback)

@Roy do you have some kind of a masochism about you. Because it always seems like you are beating yourself down and then bringing yourself up and then beating yourself down again. Just said it out of curiosity. Don't mind me if I said some rubbish.

You don't have to be perfect for getting married.. This is an ingrained thinking coming from your family I suspect. That's bad.. They are sort of gaslighting you for being single. But reading your posts makes me feel like you are not opening up fully and that's understandable but it's hinting me that you have stuff to work on.. Like self love. Are you sabotaging yourself because of your age.. 40 is nothing these days. People start dating at 40..Maybe you are searching for casual relationships because you inherently believe that you are not good enough for a wonderful marriage. Notice how this is coming from your family. It is creating sabotage. Now dig deeper and ask yourself very frankly what you really really want. And I think you're craving deep down for intimacy and love under that veneer of casual relationships. Then I would want you to explore this further. If this is what you really want, then this is exactly what you should do. Follow your heart. Find a loving person and live the life of your dream with that person.. Don't care what family thinks or says. Don't guilt trip yourself or simply assume you're not worth it. If you focus on the universe, you'll attract the universe. If you focus on love then you will attract love. Focus on the needs of your heart. And automatically your destiny will open up new opportunities for dating to you. I sense that you are not feeling very confident at 40 because I'm good at sensing people.. You're all good and nothing is wrong with your age Go out and date, find romance, sex and deep love, intimacy and connection. You deserve it just as much as anyone else. Love and attract love Have a good day. You will do good.

@Dutch guy That's awesome. Very progressive.

Nay. They have Dutch sisters coffee there.