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Hahaha, more like children trying to explain how to listen.

The fact that 'the ego' ignores the attempts to convey the truth is, in itself, in accordance to that truth. By trying to convey it, you are making a fool out of yourself (just like I am right now).

This journal is a general space for tea parties, 80s music and random remarks about my life. Feel free to join, whoever you are. I gained a few kilograms after the holidays and I want to start a running routine. Yesterday was my first time after like a year and it was pretty miserable. At least I got to feel good about my body for a change. I like the stretching before the run and the day afterwards. I'm gonna start a routine for that too, now that I have to take care for my neck. Pain is the body's fire. I need more of it. The next run is tomorrow. Let's see how it'll go.

Absolute truth cannot be conveyed. Conveying the absolute truth would require something to be apart from it, thus proving the truth to be relative.

@mandyjw I prefer to stare at the Moon. That is how I get to see the Moon, the Sun and sometimes even the Earth.

If you were to become infinitely conscious, you would understand the perfection of reality and you would have no inclination to change anything.

You heard well.

Creativity is the practical application of madness.

Yesterday, my whole body was so relaxed and light. The feeling was something bordering between extreme bliss and pain. It felt as if I was looking straight at the sun, unable to look away from its blinding divinity.

It's called silence.

The ego 'has' a personality and tries to manipulate it to fulfill some goal. If you are able to perceive your personality, judge it, and influence it, then you are an ego.

Damn, that's wise. Did someone coach you in the meantime, or did you coach yourself with your depression?

@mandyjw Everything is true.

Richard Feynman

If they knew the purpose to begin with, then they wouldn't need to do the practice. All practices are lessons, so is self-inquiry. It may be the final lesson, but it is also the most difficult to learn, simply because of its simplicity. Following it, and then dropping, without 'understanding its purpose' is the practice!

Have you understood this?

Your path is about unconditional love. There is nothing wrong with that. You rightly observe that the mind is in your way, but your conclusions are wrong. It is not an enemy you have to conquer. If you play with your child with a ball, and accidentally hit its face with it, you do not blame the arms, do you? You need skill in order to express your love, so you need to work on your kinesthetics. The mind is no different. You cannot become athletic by fighting your body, just like you cannot be a sage by fighting your mind. "Deception" is a loaded word. The mind does not do that, it's the heart's responsibility. The mind is terrifying to the heart simply because there are no thoughts that are unthinkable and no actions that are undoable. The path is not about: heart>mind, or mind<heart, but hMeIaNrDt. You want the two so close together that you won't be able to see the difference.

@Preetom Great post, I think it should be featured or pinned. Self inquiry, as you are describing it, is a very advanced practice and may discourage many seekers that are just 'starting out'. Some people need the juice of mystical experiences to keep on with the journey, but they are nothing more than ways for the ego to sustain itself. The trouble with enlightenment is that ultimately, the ego needs to trick itself out of existence and no method can guarantee that. The best you can 'do' is to 'not-do', to simply wait until it happens. That surrender, in itself, is the end of seeking. Dressing it up in spiritual terms, pointing towards the wisdom of the great sages, is nothing more than marketing. That is what constitutes 'the tick', 'the bait' that hooks into the need to 'do'. That is how the snake eats itself.

@mandyjw?

What do you mean?

How would a true saint know her sainthood? She wouldn't believe it, even if God told her. She would blame it on the Devil, and she wouldn't be too far off.

Plenty. LSD trip lasts 12 hours and you have plenty of time to observe what is happening. If you understand what is being done there and are able to move your energy like that, then all hell breaks loose.

To become conscious of the true nature of ultimate reality requires the purity of the mind, heart and senses. That is not awakening, that is being Christ-like. It requires the full dissolution.

It's not about what you do, but about who you are. Insights are not to be remembered, but to be embodied.