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When I stop systemizing my self-care, I feel like I'm not doing my 100%. I stopped scheduling, so my reading efforts are unfocused. I also stopped stretching so much because I strained the shoulder blade region of my spine. I need to be gentler with myself, but it's difficult when the effects feel so good. I'm still cooking for myself and sticking to my buying routine though. I am too critical of myself and of other people. I need to learn to relax, joke and have fun in other ways than satisfying my curiosity.

Within the individual mind, interpretation (thinking, feeling) of perception (senses, intuition) is subject to will. The way the objective world is, apart from what we judge it to be, is called LOGOS, the Word. LOGOS is the expression of will of THE ALL and objective world is happening in accordance with it.

The source of will is freedom itself. There are not many freedoms. Freedom that is the basis for individual mind is not imagined by THE ALL. Freedom is unitary and absolute. It is THE ALL. It is so free that it is free from itself, from being one. That is how individual minds of the world are separate.

The division of the human mind is four-fold: Sensing Feeling Intuition Thinking It has two perceiving (1 and 3) and two judging (2 and 4) functions. The perceiving functions are how objective, external, information is gathered. The judging functions are how subjective, internal state is created. The [subjective=internal]/[objective=external] dichotomy exists only in relation to will, or creation, of the human mind. Whatever we perceive exists outside of the influence of will of human mind and has to be acknowledged, accepted. (Yin) Whatever we judge exists inside of the influence of will of human mind and can be interpreted however one desires. (Yang) The human will is capable of creating subjective reality that is, or isn't, in accordance with the objective one. Since the objective reality along with human mind is created in the mind of THE ALL, the Hermetic principles can be studied both by studying subjective and/or objective reality. This is why self-knowledge derived from spiritual practices is useful and is the source of happiness - it is, at the same, the highest knowledge about the operation of reality. That is only possible because the human mind is created in the image of the mind of THE ALL and is equipped with the will to create: The mind of THE ALL is not impersonal because it creates.

THE ALL is not everything that is, the universe. The universe exists in, or through THE ALL. THE ALL is the mind that imagines the universe and everything that exists. THE ALL does not exist, as existence is grounded in its operation. It is nothing. THE ALL is an unknowable mystery.

First, there are the seven Hermetic principles: The Hermetic principles describe the rules of reality and I find them to be correct. The first two ones are of greatest importance here:

You really do. It's an awesome movie.

To share knowledge, answer questions and give directions. To find good learning resources, books and videos. To journal about how I put my knowledge to practice. To burn free time at work.

Please elaborate on what your definition of love is. What does it mean that she loves you and what does it mean that you don't love her? What does it mean that you loved your ex and that she did not love you back? Love is not something that just happens to people. It's also a choice that is made and maintained.

During the weekend I was unable to uphold my social media/youtube detox. A lot of emotional turmoil was happening, also between me and my wife and I felt drained. I did cook for myself, but I did not do any stretching and scheduling. I do not feel guilty because of this. What I do feel guilty for is that I did not read as much Bible as I would want to. I'm still 350 pages in. After finding out the importance in Christ in Holy Trinity, I gave in and decided to read the Book of Jon. The fact that I feel like I "gave in" speaks a lot about how critical of myself I am. I'm holding to my promises too tightly, but they are one of the few things that I find dependable.

I don't mind. With this kind of logic, I would have to restrict my options to people I know absolutely no personal details of. Not in my experience. Have a good day.

Hey @Buba. I'm under the impression that you think that this homosexual part of you is somehow going to derail your life, that you will partake in daily orgies or something. This belief is false. If this transition is too rapid for you, rest assured that you are still under full control of your faculties and will do exactly what you want to. You are not doing anything other than that - learning what you want to do. It does not mean that you have to do it. Imagine thinking that mint chocolate is disgusting and awful. Would you react so strongly if you learned that it is actually pretty tasty? Does the fact that mint chocolate is tasty somehow imply that you will stuff your face uncontrollably with it? Does it even mean that you have to eat it if you don't want to? No!

I don't know about you specifically @Patrick Lynam, but I noticed that I have bigger urges to masturbate when I'm lonely. This hole in your chest and calling for mommy sound like an unfulfilled need for love. Porn is often a prosthesis for that just like TV is often a prosthesis for human companionship. I recently remembered that I learned to masturbate as a kid when I was waiting after school for my parents to get back home. I'd investigate loneliness if I were you.

Did you know that the term "projection" was invented by Freud, the father of psychoanalysis? This mother/father stuff is the focus of psychology because child development is additive - new layers/functions are built on top of the old ones. If child's needs aren't addressed by the parents, it will learn to satisfy them unconsciously by adopting coping mechanisms that will last a lifetime unless addressed. That is where the sex part comes in - these unconscious behaviors usually come bunched up with sex because it is an "adult" form of love. If you are interested, you could look up Erik Erikson's model of psychosocial development. It looks similar to spiral dynamics.

Hey @Angelite, sorry for not getting back to you sooner. Karma is usually associated with religions of the far East - Buddhism and Hinduism - and is related to the idea that an individual soul traverses various bodies until it attains wisdom/liberation. Each life is a lesson for this soul and is a consequence of how it shaped itself in (or responded to) the lives it went through. The original "seeds" of karma are created along with the universe. In various religions, this karmic process is interpreted on different levels. Some religions view it in a materialistic, objective, way. Some, on the other hand prefer more esoteric views (such as Zen Buddhism) that this is the process by which thoughts arise in consciousness. In Yoga Sutras, it is said that by mediating (satori) upon the "I", the karmic seeds are dissolved and it is possible to attain knowledge of past lives (as siddhi). My personal beliefs about reincarnation hinge upon my understanding of the relationship between intelligence and ego. Ego literally feeds off intelligence and uses it for the purpose of survival. Upon the death of the body, the soul is freed from its biological constraints and perceives the world with unparalleled clarity. The soul then chooses, selflessly, the best possible action and it may result in an incarnation in a body. Lives it lives through, apart from being a chance to act in accordance with love, are a lesson that the soul learns in each cycle. Ultimately, they result in the union with God.

@d0ornokey I can relate to your pain. Seeing other people hurt themselves because they are hurt is just soul-crushing. It's difficult to not give advice when you see it. I've come to understand that offering solutions does not work because coming up with them is actually not all that difficult. People know what they should do in order to be happy, but they don't take their pain and suffering seriously enough to act on it. Helping them get in touch with it, actually live it with them is much better in my experience. Take care.

For the past two days I went totally off the rails. No scheduling, no promises but I kept to my routines. My back started to hurt because I was trying to keep it straight ?. I found a comfortable spot where my muscles aren't strained, but I can walk upright like a proper human ?.

@Rebecca Kalamata Loneliness is the price for breaking every social taboo... to get to what, TRUTH? Hmm? The ego is deceitful precisely because it is fragile and powerless. By not honoring it, you are disposing of your humanity. Maybe that's why you don't fit in, Mrs nympho?

I can't sleep. I went to bed at 7 p.m. and woke up at 2 p.m. Lots of thoughts about reality, God, Christianity, Islam, reincarnation, Hermeticism and my threefold division of experience. I may have to start an insight journal soon to offload them. The social media/music detox is a success in the sense that I'm munching on Wikipedia instead .

I'm not just new to Qran, but also to religion in the common sense in general. I was born and raised atheist. From my limited knowledge, what Christians call "the day of Resurrection" refers to Jesus' second coming during the Apocalypse (but I may be wrong in this matter). Does Qran address the Apocalypse? Who is the person that is resurrected during Qran's day of Resurrection? Does Jesus hold any special place in Islam's analogue of the Holy Trinity? Is there any analogue of it? Is Christ "Word made flesh": an incarnation of Logos that is sent by God to teach humans His ways? Alright, that's clear. How does this relate to reincarnation? Do people get reincarnated as lower forms because they have inflicted hurt on others and have not been forgiven/dealt with? That makes retribution an act of mercy because unless you give your hurt back, you are condemning your enemy to be reincarnated. When does reincarnation of an individual soul stop in Islam? Is it when the soul achieves certain purity through forgiveness ("Higher ranks")? How does forgiveness and purity relate to Jesus? Is he a special person (or God?) in this regard? This picks my interest, tell me more about it. I can see that may relate to the passage that you mentioned ("So We caused among them animosity and hatred until the Day of Resurrection"). What are these two groups? Which among Christians want to kill Jesus?

This is so awesome: To think that these squiggly lines convey meaning is just mind-blowing. ______________________________________________ Here's a link to an article that explains something that bothered me for a long time. Here's more stuff, even more interesting. An excerpt: So, according to Christian doctrine - Christ is both God and man. He is a man born from a mother, but he is also God. He is "not by conversion of the Godhead into flesh; but by assumption of the Manhood into God.". His function, purpose makes him God - a pathway to God, salvation. for other humans. Nope??? There seems to be a difference between Christ and Jesus? I wonder what the "unity of Person" means. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ousia https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Godhead_in_Christianity

Was the "portion of that of which they were reminded" ever mentioned in Qran? Or is it that according to Qran, Christians are bound to wait until the Day of Resurrection to learn what they forgot? Is the Qran's Day of Resurrection the same as the one mentioned in the Bible? I'm having trouble understanding the underlined sentence. The prophets who submitted to Allah judged by it for the Jews, <~ that is clear as did the rabbis and scholars by that with which they were entrusted of the Scripture of Allah, and they were witnesses thereto. <~ ??? The above sentence is split in two as if prophets did something different from rabbis and scholars. The contents of the sentence however, seem as if they did the same thing - they judged for the Jews according to Torah, which is a part of the Scripture of Allah. So, the whole first paragraph seems as if Allah is saying that one should not fear the judges (prophets, rabbis and scholars), but Him. That is because the Torah is only a part of Scripture of Allah that is for the Jews, specifically? This is also not clear to me. If I am giving up my right for retribution, then is that: an expiation for me? or is it an expiation for the person that had hurt me? These two interpretations give a very different pictures of what a sin is. From the POV of the scripture - yes, the Christian Bible contains the Old testament. Jews, however, reject Christ as their prophet, so no - Christians are not Jews. Here's an article that I haven't read. That is very interesting. I have a difficult case of a hard heart .

I wouldn't mind your synchronicities. To be frank, I don't have much of an idea about how this journal is supposed to look, so feel free to share what you want.

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Today I promise to: Go to bed at 9 p.m. Prepare food for tomorrow. Read the Bible. Stick to my routines (body care and shopping). Start social media + youtube + music detox. I decided for the detox because: I bought noise cancelling headphones for silence and I'm blasting my ears off with music instead. I exhausted the enjoyment of my playlists and need some time off. I'll listen to forest sounds instead. I read an article about internet addiction and realized that I use social media as a distraction from my feelings. I'm following a few valuable feeds on facebook that deal with psychotherapy and post interesting/inspiring quotes, but that's about the value that I'm getting. I want to somehow squeeze more reading into my life instead, but I find it difficult. The problem lies in mobility because the books that I'm currently engaged with: require my full attention, or are written in Polish, so I can't use my kindle. Youtube is such a huge time sink for me. I think I'm through with educational material there, it's too shallow and unfocused for me for the time being. Instead of looking for it, I fall into a rabit-hole of cat videos, anime fights and dancing. The last part is getting me aroused and I'm squirming for porn/masturbation so it is feeding my addiction needlessly. I will start with a week-long detox and will keep re-evaluating my progress. I already hid youtube and uninstalled facebook on my phone a few days ago and it's been a success. I may sneak some cheat hours in when I can check things up because I'm an admin of 2 facebook groups. ________________________________________________ I really admire the way in which my wife is handling her cooking. She's so creative with it that she can stock up on raw materials for a few days and just use them as needed. When I'm going to the mall, I have a mental stock of recipes and I'm trying to match the contents of the shelves with what I can cook. Having a supply of materials handy would be such a time saver. Today I will buy some random vegetables and try that as well.