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@Colin knew what @Prabhaker said and this is why he disagreed. Isn't that the funniest thing in the world?

@astrokeen I wrote about them here: If you have any questions - ask them there.

Cynicism in the modern sense is a self-referential expression of the absurd. You point out the absurd in others and by doing so you notice the absurdity in yourself. Absurd is rejected by the modern rationalists. This is why cynicism is usually bitter, or perceived by bitter by others. The absurd is a necessary occurrence in the rational world so that humans can keep being human. The absurd has to be cherished alongside rationalism. This is the path that changes irony into sincirety in cynicism. No definition of humans will ever be complete. Even the definition that states that humans are undefinable.

Spirituality is a human game like any other. You can have a perfectly meaningful life as a grocery store clerk, or a lawyer. It is our curious assumption that society is broken that leads us into spititual life because it is somehow pure. Spirituality is pure because it is empty. It has no substance to be corrupted. You live by not-living. You sit and call it meditation. Meditation is just a name that is being marketed as a practice. So is the whole of spirituality. If you cannot see through it, you may use it as a means to strengthen the sense of superiority that had led you to it in the first place. Emptiness of spirituality has advantages, like any other lifestyle. You can stand beside society and see through it. There is no value in that as long as you do not give your insights back to it. You are a part of it by parting from it. You are a singularity. A society within itself. You cannot comment constructively unless you stop being ironic. Inrony is insencire. It has no redeeming quality that gives back to society. This is how alienation is born and perpetuated. In order to see through others, you first need to see through yourelf.

Life is not about you. Did anybody ask you whether you would like to live? No. You were born into this place without any say in the matter. Don't expect life to give you directions on your limitations.

Please stop doing this to yourself. You have to trust him. Trust is given, not earned. Please stop going through his phone. Never stay with someone because he said he will change. You have to change yourself to stay with him. Become whatever you need to be in order to stay. Even if that means to become a monster. Strength is scary. We sometimes prefer to take punishment so that we don't admit that we're strong. It takes enormous strength to keep calling yourself weak every day. To endure your own name-calling and humiliation. You are not stupid and weak. You're afraid. Fear announces danger. You fear rightly. Fear is a plea for strength. Stay and become strong. It is sometimes easier to stay than to leave. You can be strong by leaving as well. It's up to you. You are free. You are free to stay and you are free to leave. If you need to talk, we're here for you, friend.

You are what you see if you don't see what you are. If the world always seem broken, be sure to check your glasses for cracks.

Wherever you go, you go with you. There is no disappearing from yourself.

@astrokeen Let me repeat myself, as this is crucial from my perspective: After you've experienced truth - there is no running away from it. You may not be ready for it and play hide and seek, but it will find you eventually. Any meaning you construct will not last. The more meaning you accumulate, the more painful it will get. All further awakenings will be easier. They were for me. Deal with the truth.

The awfulness and despair of the experience you have is your interpretation of it. It is a shadow that will hunt you unless you face it. The despair is a call for mourning. Mourn, so it will turn to appreciation. You will eventually reinterpret it in a different way. This is the miracle of the inherent meaninglessness.

You're welcome, friend.

Noticed how your life was probably constructed around trying to impress people? Funny, huh? Think of it like this: you have died. You have no life. Whatever you had is gone and you laugh at yourself for being silly. If a doctor told you a month ago that you have one month to live - you would give everything for another day of whatever this is. Now you have that one more day to live. Nobody promises you tomorrow. Everything you do is meaningless. Wanting to do anything is meaningless. Your desires are meaningless. Your fears are meaningless. Your ambitions are meaningless. What do you do? Nothing. You never did anything. You were being ignorant of whatever you thought you were doing. Now you know and there is nothing to be done with this knowledge. This is total, complete, stillness. Resisting day-to-day life is meaningless. So is living it. Just sit and observe this miracle while it lasts. It is perfect. Other people are not in despair. You are mourning over your lost life, that's all. You do not mourn to re-live what had been lost. You do it to realize that what's left is also open for being lost. Mourning is the shadow of appreciation. Mourn! Appreciate! When you were being ignorant of your meaninglessness, you did not despair. Their ignorance is bliss. They chase their meaning. We sit in meaninglessness. We're not that different in our ignorance.

Your description of reality seems pretty accurate to me, even though I haven't done any psychedelics (yet). It is a positive experience to me. There is solace to be found in meaninglessness. True meaninglessness is total freedom. I've been through two experiences similar to dark night of the soul. The first confrontation with meaninglessness sprang me right back into building meaning for myself. The second came into being when the self-built meaning showed itself to be meaningless after all. I came to stillness when meaninglessness itself became meaningless. You are a boat that floats on the river of meaning. Dark night of the soul is when you enter the ocean. There is nowhere to go, but you don't have to. Everywhere is the same. Even storms are still. There is no meaning in having meaning.

Calling yourself crazy over it is a classic reaction. Fear of insanity is a powerful tool of homeostasis. I've been there. Going crazy is so much fun. It is to see how crazy it is that everybody pretends to be normal. Congratulations! Keep it going!

Reality has this miraculous capacity to reference itself. Any theory is real and any theory describes reality. All current theories are true. All past theories are false. Any theory contains the entirety of truth by openness to transcendence. To try to capture the self-reference is to produce an anchor for reference. Reality is fed by theories. Are you the food that you eat?

No amount of text and videos can change your life. You may be able to change your life right now. Are you? You may be able to change your life after you've watched the videos and read the texts.

@Prabhaker So, this explanation of story is a commentary?

@Principium Nexus The integral part of any language is a possibility to introduce new words. A mapping of words is not a map of language. Language is not based on words. A mapping of words is at best a temporal snapshot of a written subset of a given language. There are no semantic units such as 'words' in language in general. You can convey meaning depending on the intonation and punctuation while you speak. The same goes for written language. There is a meaning conveyed in the way I format these posts with line breaks. There is meaning in the context of my avatar and post history. Not to mention other forms of language such as non-lyrical songs, or paintings. They convey meaning without syntactical units ('words'). We can't even agree on whether the frame is a part of a painting! Word-embeddings that you posted in the context of machine learning are extremely limited. They require one-hot encoding of a subset of words and are fundamentally closed. Language is expansive and a definition of its boundaries is a context for its expansion. Any expression contains the entirety of language within it. You cannot capture language by boundaries, as boundaries are language in itself.

There is nothing to be grasped. By trying to grasp - you make it something. Don't.

Hahaha Why would a Buddha explain this story?!

@MarkusSweden ?

There are no rooms without doors, or windows. A window is not a frame or glass. A window is a lack of a wall.

To see everything as a conditioned response is to miss that this very seeing must in fact be conditioned. What is the difference between perfect illusion and reality?

Language is an expression of human expression. To express the structure of language is to use language. To have a complete model of language is to create something that contains itself. The shape of language is fractal. The problem with fractals is that they are expressed as a self-referential rule that is applied ad-infinitum. The language-fractal would have to be expressed as a rule and this rule would have to be contained within it. Even if you had the bootstrapping rule - you would not have the structure of language. You would never obtain the structure of language, as fractals are infinitely detailed. You can never see a Mandelbrot set in its full glory. You can only have an approximation, just like you have now without defining it. Language is the self-awareness of expression. To try to express language is to be fundamentally lost.

That is because you mistake realization for a 'new paradigm'. Realization is a brief moment of clarity in which you are able to reinterpret your paradigm in a new, unconstrained way. To keep hold of the new interpretation as a new paradigm to apply is a mistake. The goal is to keep the possibility of unconstrained, applicable reinterpretation. The new paradigm should be treated as a food for a new realization. Not as a result. Ego is the constraint.