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Mandy, that's enough.

Is that how you rationalize revenge?

@now is forever Care to share one?

No, you're not. You're playing coy. Ugh, I misunderstood.

And now you're wondering why my wife won't give you my picture, huh? I bet she knows what you're gonna do with it. hahahaha

That sounds so indecent hahaha

And there she goes, back to her shell.

Do you take pride in not being smart? You're smarter than 90% of people in here.

Yes!

So is it really about that? That yin is the material for yang to mold? Remember that the game of creation always has three steps: Yang molds Yin yields EGO BACKLASH How is ego backlash different from yin showing its yang nature?

A pearl maybe? You really think of yourself as prey, don't you?

I thought that I already told you that I enjoy both.

@now is forever You're still angry and you're teasing me. Try explaining it to a man, once. Come out of your shell. http://skillsforawakening.com/teachings/the-pain-body/

The song is still very beautiful and I enjoy it even if I don't understand it Actually, It's my favorite song of Portishead. Probably my favorite song of all time. It wouldn't be as beautiful without the jabber. That's why women are an impenetrable mystery.

Maybe you do, but you definitely don't want to be understood. You're like the song that I posted. You speak lyrics, but they are mostly an incomprehensible jabber of beautiful words that relate to the music. If they are in harmony - it's good. If they aren't - it's bad. Of course it's good to feel bad from time to time too just to confuse us. The trigger of fights is always the same. She wants me to fulfill her unexpressed, or vaguely expressed, expectations. It's like I'm supposed to know better what's wrong than her, but act on this knowledge only if I'm allowed to hahaha. The truth is that emptiness that comes with lack of problems is unbearable for an unruly mind. She's still experiencing the tension between what the achiever culture sells and what I practice. This tension has to be discharged somewhere and our fights are the arena for that. I mean, I don't mind it all that much - I can twist any ideology back on itself to a standstill. I've been doing that my whole life. I just think it's wasteful to discharge that potential this way. If she harnessed it, it could fuel her art (fashion). The problem for now seems to be that she's not in touch with her power and relies on others for empowerment. I've shown her Abraham Hicks yesterday and she was mesmerized. I'll try to expose her more to LOA in the future.

Women are an impenetrable mystery. Ever since we had a fight yesterday, a little tension was filling the air. I knew that something's up, but she wouldn't tell. Today my energy was off. It was overwhelming, powerful currents ran through me and I felt tender. I noticed that instead of owning this feeling, I defended myself automatically. I wanted resolution by inquiring into her problems. When I noticed it, I stopped talking and just surrendered. She wanted to give me (!) a massage so that she could feel better. What the fuck? I let myself enjoy it without remorse, despite the fact that she has a cold. Why don't women come with an instruction manual? Is it because men never read them? I would read it!

@flowboy Ahahaha I love this! We're here with you, don't add fuel to fire.

Knowledge and ignorance are not mutually exclusive, as funny as it sounds.

I had a very positive, but challenging experience with LSD. I think that you should not follow anybody's advice on this and decide for yourself. It can both go very right or horribly wrong and you need to feel like you can handle both outcomes. Do you feel stable and secure enough to be able to disrupt your life freely?

So are we

@Salvijus Have you ever tried psychedelics, or are you simply sharing your rationalization? Nobody can make this decision for you. You can go wrong both ways - with psychotherapy and with LSD. If you decide to stick with psychotherapy, I'd definitely advise to follow your agreement with the therapist and not take any drugs unless she allows you to. LSD is a powerful substance and it will definitely bring repressed stuff which will be disorienting, or potentially disruptive to the therapy that is being consciously led by a human. If you want to do both at the same time - you need to find a therapist that will allow you to.

Ignorance is blindness. It is trying to reduce infinity to finitude with the intent to manipulate it for personal benefit. Ultimately, there are no others just as there is no self. Silence has nothing to lose and nothing to gain.