Isaac Ben

Anyone here has experience with the psychedelic DPT? I read that it is almost as intense as DMT but unique in its vibes. Although I like DMT's intense energy, its short duration and distracting visuals makes it not so useful for consciousness work. How useful/effective is DPT for consciousness work?

@Leo Gura I think I'm up for the challenge. Sometimes I like being overwhelmed and getting my reality fucked with lol. @Girzo Thanks that was very helpful. The afterglow sounds quite interesting. How does DPT it compare to 5-MeO-DMT? Was there any burning sensations when snorting it? Also what do you think about plugging it? For some reason, that got me even more interested. Since you're very experienced with it, how does it compare to 5-MeO-DMT in both intensity and insight? I find toad way too intense and short lived when smoked that all insights I get (although profound) are kinda lost and only a vague memory lasts. Then again maybe smoking it is not the best RoA. Speaking of which, what is your preferred RoA for DPT?

I've been having a devilish kind of insomnia where I would always wake up too early no matter what with a depressing headache and foggy mind, always waking up unrefreshed, feeling like shit and unable to go to sleep. I'm not normally depressed or anxious but I still feel like this might be a psychological problem at root. I've been struggling with this for a year, I tried everything, some temporarily barely fixed the issue but nothing really healed me back for good. So I decided to halt working with psychedelic to inquire about the Self and instead focus on fixing this irritating, ever frustrating issue by exploring it's root. For the record, I really tried everything. I eat healthy, take essential supplements, exercise, treat my body very well and so on, so I'm almost 100% certain that this is a psychological issue even though I don't feel depressed or anything. It might be something buried way deep that I managed to numb down over the years as my childhood was mostly filled with emotionally traumatizing, depressing, gloomy periods. What do you think are the best psychedelics for healing trauma and releasing emotional blockages? I think Salvia would be a great tool because from what I read, it's overwhelming and has this teaching and caring mother aspect to it.

@outlandish @Hsinav @FractalFlux That was really helpful, thank you kindly everyone.

Given that I love listening to those Alan Watts Chillstep Mixes especially before a trip, I made one myself.

Chill mixes:

How long have you been on the path? Was your path frustrating and confusing? How old were you when you became enlighted? How did it happen exactly? During self-inquiry? During a deep meditative state? Do you find yourself falling back into old habits of identifying with your old self? Or is that not possible anymore? Would you say authenticity was the most important factor for your awakening? If not, what was? Sorry if some questions are duplicates, and thank you kindly for doing this.

Would absolutely attend if you come to Toronto. I hope your first tour is a success.

@cle103 I say follow your heart/intuition no matter what people say.

Why do you trip this infrequently? Unless you don't enjoy tripping, I find 2 weeks plenty of time to integrate the experience.

I wouldn't say this was too radical of an experience, but it was surely a mystical one and worth sharing. It was so different from my previous trips . It was also so different from my last 480ug of LSD trip 2 months ago to the point where it felt like I took another substance altogether. I was planning to trip Saturday on mushrooms but I woke up with a mild headache so I decided to trip Sunday instead. Sunday, I woke up early in the morning with only 6 hrs of sleep so I had another mild headache. I decide again to not take mushrooms but because of the headache. I had nothing to do that day though and if I don’t trip Sunday, I won't be free to trip until at least next week which would be a shame because my last real trip was like 4 weeks ago. I wasn't sure whether or not LSD would be a good idea at that point, but because I was convinced I had a natural tolerance to LSD, I thought fuck it, might as well get rid of the remaining 3 tabs I had. 0-30min: I couldn't meditate well because of the headache so I just sat and listened to some Alan Watts. Nothing happened so far. 30-45min: This is the come-up, the headache became really poignant making me question the decision to trip, I felt so sleepy and nauseas, and I was forced to sit in the toilet from here. 45min-4.5hrs: This is where the magic happened: the peak lasted for about 4 hours. I clearly saw how much of joke life is. It was so fucking obvious I was laughing so hard, I don't know how the fuck I couldn't see this before. I kept laughing so loud for about 20 mins I couldn't even breath. All the worry and concern I had was out of the window as my ego slowly dissolved and it was crystal clear that the whole thing I called life was a sham. I got so connected to the present moment that I lost sense of time. It's hard to describe what was happening at the time but I suppose this is what is meant by just "Being". It was blissful. The headache was not an issue anymore. I can still feel it there when I remember it but it wasn't bothersome at all. I was directly aware that I had no control whatsoever over my body. It was moving by its own by the spontaneous forces of the universe. I literally lost all control over my body and it felt liberating beyond description. By the end of those 4 hours I started to think about my ego's problems in a totally objective way. I was thinking about them like they're not even mine, and I was having insights and solutions. For some reason, I thought that this heightened consciousness is going to be permanent because from my perspective while I was peaking, I thought how could it be any other way? I forgot how life is from an egoic perspective I thought there's no way I'm gonna be back seeing things any other way than this. I couldn't have been more wrong and I suffered for it the day after. 4.5hrs- :The rest of the trip was fun and smooth, I could feel my ego slowly getting back but I refused to pay any attention to it. I spent the rest of the trip chilling and thinking about some problems that were worrying me and by the end of the day, I was left with some wise insights and decisions to make. 16 hrs into the trip and I was still feeling the psychoanalytical effects of LSD bothering me. But I finally fell asleep and slept for a good 9-10hrs. The day after was the most depressing day I had in months. I was completely back in my ego self as though nothing happened yesterday. I felt a heavy sense of emptiness which converted into sadness. I didn't want to do anything that day including doing nothing which made me more frustrated because I had lots of shit to do that day (I'm aware that I should normally leave a day after a trip). Even when I tried playing video games or watch movies I couldn't. In the evening I cried out loud for a good 15 mins and that's when I finally started to overcome this temporary depression. By the next day the depression went away and I was back to normal. I know there's a lot more to experience and that I probably only scratched the surface but it took me by surprise because reading about this is one thing and directly experiencing it is a whole other thing. Insights: This experience showed me how beautiful this enlightenment thing is. I can't see anything more important and fulfilling than striving to raise the quality of one's own consciousness. My understanding of non-duality played a huge role in shaping my psychedelic experience. My previous trips on LSD were nothing like this. Never underestimate the power of psychedelics. LSD is a specifically great psychedelic for consciousness work. Our Lives are just piles of big and elaborate jokes; We should all stop taking them so seriously.

@Sparkist If you didn't watch Leo's video on the subject that you should start from there. Other than that, Psychedelics are harmless and not physically addictive. You can definitely do them solo but start with a low dose to see how your body reacts.

For Chillstep and Ambient music lovers. Alan Watts: Jim Carrey:

@Philip Wow that was really inspiring. Thanks for sharing.

The topic of boredom interest me too, because when it comes to other negative feelings, I learned to open up, feel them fully, and let them go. But boredom is another kind of negative feeling. It's kinda passive and sticky and I'm almost always not so sure how to deal with it. It's not like I get bored too often but I'd usually get myself distracted with a low consciousness activity to get rid of it.

Knowing that the ego doesn't exist, you should just let go of all control and let things just happen. You don't have to do anything but watch your mind and body do their own thing. Eat whatever food you want but be mindful while doing it. Do whatever the hell you want but just be mindful while doing it. That's what I'm trying to do at least when I realized that you just can't get rid of your ego relying on that same exact ego to do the ridding. let go, and watch things happen .

Man, Alan Watts and chillstep is just a delight to the ears. Yep, Gon clearly had no interest in playing the victim and had his only vision on achieving his goals regardless of circumstances. He's come a long way doing that. He's a source of motivation. I find the whole anime inspiring.

@blazed just re-watched the video from the beginning and I noticed something interesting. "So you want to see me that much. Well, I don't want to see you." "After all, I neglected you for selfish reasons. I'm no good." "Even if that means ignoring the feelings of others." Although this guys seems arrogant and extremely selfish on the surface, I couldn't help but get attracted to him. Telling the truth regardless of what others think is not only courageous but also definitely spiritual. This Ging guy is someone to look up to when it comes to authenticity. "I will always be the guy I am" -Ging Freecss

Dude my skin was literally tingling watching this . Ahhh the childhood memories and the feels. It's interesting how narratives along with music can evoke emotions in such a beautiful way. This is what art is.

@WildeChilde That's really interesting and it's true, I've never seen Goku as someone who's righteous and trying to save the world. He was just following his bliss and doing what he wants. It emphasizes on how important authenticity is. Ahhhh the feels . This was probably my best soundtrack in childhood.

Notice who's talking here? Who's trying to stay humble? Who's the one struggling for "social survival"? If you buy the idea that the thing you call "you" is just an illusion, then there's nothing to be afraid of.

In my point of view, this path shouldn't be like you described. Those symptoms (although I occasionally get them myself) are a sign of a struggling ego, An ego trying to get somewhere. Well guess what? It doesn't exist.

In my preceding 25mg 5-MeO trip, I laid on my stomach only for 5 mins before turning back and, for 20 mins, nothing happened except for hyper-salivation. I then laid back on my stomach again and after a while, the weird and wonky reality feeling kicked in but it was too mild at that point, most of the substance was wasted. I concluded that I needed to lie on my stomach for quite a while for the solution to get absorbed. Maybe it's different for you I don't know. Yes after doing some research, apparently some people can have a pre-existent tolerance to some or sometimes all psychedelics. It's just when watching Leo and other people and pages talking about psychedelics and the topic of natural tolerance was never specifically mentioned. I guess I need to be lurking in this forum more often. The information I'm finding here is really helpful.

So this one was on LSD. I was on LSD myself when I first watched this heh. I appreciate the authenticity and openness you demonstrated there btw. I wonder what causes this pre-existing tolerance though. Does this have something to do with one or more serotonin receptors not functioning properly? Does my body contain microorganisms that put up resistance to such drugs? If so, can some antibiotics prevent such resistance? And what are the implications of this? Does this affect my chances of having awakening experiences and full enlightenment? It's kind of a bummer though, I was pretty excited to start experimenting with all kinds of psychedelics out there and I love altered states of mind. I guess I'll have to be spending extra bucks for this endeavor .

Wow, I never thought it was that important since you didn't post a trip report video and Iyoudidn't specifically talk about it that much in your channel (or maybe I missed it). It's obviously not convenient for me to be building my way up to something like 700-800ug to have a decent trip so I don't think I'm gonna bother. But it'd be cool if I don't have natural tolerance to AL-LAD even though its chemical structure is too similar to LSD (LAD). Did you read about people having tolerance to one and not the other?