WaveInTheOcean

I don't see any negative motivation. it's a matter of perspective. I see it as a positive motivation that you want to do shit you like instead of shit you don't like. seems very postive to me.

I didn't know you could do that? But since you just wrote it, I looked for such a function for my own thread here, and I found the "Moderation Actions" -> "Hide"-function . I didn't know that such a function existed. Well, then it seems like, that it was probably just the guy who deleted ("hide") his thread. I will then say to him, that I'm not a fan of that choice And I'm not a fan of the function either, lol.

I can strongly recommend Peter Russels online course "How to meditate without even trying". http://www.peterrussell.com/HMWET/index.php

beautiful trip report. thx.

what you don't seem to get is that the experience you're having right now in this moment is a hallucination. you're hallucinating being a 'self' inside a skull interacting with an -- to you -- outside external world. psychedelics merely have the ability to slightly distort that experience, making it apparant to you, that what you take for a fact -- that there exist a materialistic reality independent of you -- is not a fact, but merely an illusion =) Also your notion of how psychedelic trips are is totally wrong and comes from the cultural mass media, which naturally finds it amusing to portray an image of psychedelics making you see elephants and making you believe you can fly, which is not at all what you experience on psychedelics. What you experience on psychedelics can best be described as like viewing yourself from an outside perspective, which then shows you, that you, yourself, is just a story, and not real. "A wall exists, even if you don't see it you can't walk through it, even if your perception of it changes, you can never walk through that wall." There exists no such thing as a wall. "A wall" is a mental concept. It's a conceptual division of the unity of existence into parts: "me", "wall", "other human", "monkey", "star", "galaxy", "kitchen", "stone", "floor", "house". Psychedelics or meditation can show you that it's all YOU which is a very beautiful insight to have... it's all you my friend. If you actually start to contemplate your everyday experience, you'll find that it's actually all an unified experience without any 'things'/'nouns' in it. Dividing and thus labeling your experience as being constitued of 'parts' (me, wall, floor, things, food, lion, other humans) is what your brain is programmed to do, because it's necessary for interacting with the world in order to survive. But this 'dividing', 'splitting' and 'labeling' of reality is really just an ego-smaug that you unconsciously lay upon 'raw' reality. You say you can't walk through a wall. "Who" is it that cannot? Yes, the body surely can't, but that's just the basic laws of the dream. There has to be somewhat consistent "physical" laws within a dream in order for you to believe it's not a dream but instead "hardcore reality", hehe If everything was totally random then you would know it's a hoax, and you wouldn't be able to live the dream. The distinction between 'reality' and 'dream' or 'reality' and 'hallucination' is very arbitrary and is only made unconsciously from a survival-standpoint, or should we say, a kind of survival-programming. Psychedelics totally messes up with all that biological and cultural programming in your brain. Not just the happiness-centres of the brain (which are likely the only parts that drugs like cocaine or heroine alter). No, psychedelics messes it all up. All of it. And that's why they are so fucking powerful consciousness-tools. They show you that it's all a hoax, that everything is relative and grounded in absolute nothing.

why don't you just post that on the forum?

Did you ever want it? Did you want it bad? Oh, my It tears me apart Did you ever fight it? All of the pain, so much power Running through my veins Bleeding, I'm bleeding My cold little heart Oh I, I can't stand myself And I know In my heart, in this cold heart I can live or I can die I believe if I just try You believe in you and I In you and I In you and I In you and I Did you ever notice I've been ashamed All my life I've been playing games We can try to hide it It's all the same I've been losing you One day at a time Bleeding, I'm bleeding My cold little heart Oh I, I can't stand myself And I know In my heart, in this cold heart I can live or I can die I believe if I just try You believe in you and I In my heart, in this cold heart I can live or I can die I believe if I just try You believe in you and I In you and I In you and I In you and I In you and I In you and I In you and I In you and I Maybe this time I can be strong But since I know who I am I'm probably wrong Maybe this time I can go far But thinking about where I've been Ain't helping me start

To many people, being in a relationship means having sex regularly. Sex is a pretty awesome way of connecting very deeply and intimately. It's not just for pleasure. Sex can be very spiritual. Besides sex, what does the concept of a 'romantic relationship' mean to you in contrast to a very close friendship/platonic one? That you can rely on each other? That you do many things together? That you follow each other in life? Please write what ya think. The danger of romantic relationships is codependence. But the upsides are you grow and learn as a human being. The other person is like a mirrior in a close romantic relationship. You constanly see yourself in new ways and see how you're behaving in bad ways that you can improve on.

"The greater the scientist, the more he is impressed with his ignorance of reality, and the more he realizes that his laws and labels, descriptions and definitions, are the products of his own thought. They help him to use the world for purposes of his own devising rather than understand and explain it." Egoless, you have to leave this forum, and do some LSD/shrooms or just meditate for 10.000 hours. Then come back. You think you can think yourself into some truth. Let me be the first one to tell you. You can't.

lol Are you vegetarian/vegan or do you eat meat?

I have read it carefully. I don't eat nachos. The post was obv a joke:D Read my new, longer post carefully, my friend. It's more serious=D

@egoless Contemplate deeper my friend. (Or just listen to Alan Watts, he'll do the contemplation for you, I think he's better suited for it than both you and me.) The wall is only solid in relation to your soft hand. The wall for itself is not solid. There are many small neutrino particles flying through that wall every second. To them the wall is transparent. If your hand was made of gold instead of flesh (but still contained feeling-neurons), perhaps the wall would be rather soft to you? The wall for iself is literally nothing, it's not a wall for itself, it's nothing. You - as a human organism - evoke the appearance of a wall when the photons it reflects reaches your retina and then the visual cortex in the back of your skull. It's only a wall in relation to you. You can also evoke the appereance of a wall by touching it with your hands. So you evoke the external world as a human organism. But realize, that it goes both ways. The external world evokes you as a human organism. You only know yourself in relation to the outer world. So both you and the external world is nothing. But together it's something (a happening, a proces). It's a proces. You can't have one without the other. The external world only exist because you exist. And vice versa. Just like the south pole of a magnet only exists because the north pole exists. What you call your body ends up in the hospital. And your body gets fucked up. Even so, the body is not fucked up in itself. It's only fucked up in relation to a conceptual human ideal that says that a human head shouldn't bleed and have bumps on it. But that is you, dude. You are IT (God). Therefore YOU don't really get fucked up by bumping 'your head' into a 'wall'. Nothing happens to YOU! Except, just like when you're completely immersed in watching a good action movie and one of the character smashes his fist into another character's face, you surely believe that that character got his head smashed good. But after the movie is done, you're aware that it was just a movie, and that all the violence was just fake, acting and illusional theater tricks. The same principles governs the "ego", WaveInTheocean, and the "ego", egoless It's such a big misconception among human minds that it's possible to experience 'nothing'. Look, ACTUAL 'nothing' means 'no experience.' You cannot experience nothing, because nothing = 'not an experience' or 'no experience'. Many people are afraid to die primarily because they imagine it will be like their ego being locked up in dark box for eternity with no sensations except darkness and silence, i.e. what they mistake for 'nothing'. What happens to you when you die can only be the same experience you had when you were born. All there exist is indeed experience of something. There is nothing outside experience. Sitting in a chair as philosopher and building conceptual frameworks in your head - even that is an experience. First of all, you speak of God as an entity separate to you, outside to you. God is not that. God is you, whether you like it or not. But since we're having this discussion and pretending to be separate ego's, let's just for fun talk of our real selves (God) as God, as a 3rd party. You say the reason of his creation is life (let's ignore the love part for now). Do you realize that there would be no creation without life? In other words, life and creation is the same thing. This universe, which you find yourself to be in, which you feel alien to, which you don't feel like you belong to, that exact universe only exist because you exist (and vice versa). In other words, it's like saying 'God created life because of life'. And that's right. There is no meaning what so ever behind your existence as 'egoless', except you exist for kicks, for fun, for love, for entertainment, just as a child create a sandcastle for no reason, he just does it because he likes creating stuff. In the same way, God likes creating stuff, and he created this Universe which 'peoples', just like an appletree 'apples'. Realize that all this entertainment includes all your percieved sorrow and hatred in life. That's part of the drama of life. That's what makes it exciting. That we feel like separate ego's who's survival is important. But your survival is not important except for the importance you put in it. It's not important because you don't exist in the first place as an ego. There is no you, except the you as God, which is eternal. Your logic/metaphysics are so flawed even a average 7-year old could point out the holes in it to you. For example, you say that God created the world because of love and life. And then you say that 'killing' is the ultimate evil because it's opposite of life and love. But why did God include 'killing' and other sorts of evil in the world then? Look. Think about it. Death and life goes together like the back and front of a coin goes together. You can't have one without the other. You only exist as 'egoless' now because you once died as another person/being. When we are born we forget everything, and that's the beauty of it. Life would be fucking boring if we could live for eternity. Life is fascinating and exciting only because it's all so fresh and new to us. Look at kids, for them it's super fascinating because it's even fresher to them. So there is nothing wrong with death. Absolutely nothing. In the grand scale that is. For of course as a human being we're programmed to fear death. So therefore it's smart to create laws and morals/ethics which say 'killing is bad/evil', because that will make us all happier if we don't have to fear getting shot in the street. There is no ultimate good and evil. There is relative good and evil. Relative because it's invented by you, or maybe you unconsciously buy it from the cultural ego that is society. Again your metaphysics are retarded (sorry to say) because if God only created the world because of love and life, why in the heck would he also include people like Hitler in his world? God does all sort of things. God is you. He builds sandcastles for fun like a child does. Some turn out ugly, some turn out beautiful, but they're all made out of love. Real love. Not the egoic love you're talking about.

I have pretty much stopped asking myself this question yes. I'm the process of existence. so are you. so is everything. but now that I know it's all a dream/game, I can still ask myself the question "who do I want to be as a person, as WaveInTheOcean in this dream of being a human living in this world?", and I don't really know the answer to that question, I don't really know what I want in life. Maybe a deeper insight into this process of existence, cos I think it can always be deepened. I have only scratched the surface. And I find it fascinating to dive into the rabbit hole and discover what's there.

Egoless. You are completely wrong. And let me tell you why. And I mind you: I speak from direct experience: Yesterday, I smoked a lot of weed while I was eating the most delicious nacho chips, I've ever tasted in my life. Suddenly, God himself revealed himself to me. God was directly in front of me. I was speaking to him! My mind was blown. I decided to ask him this question: "What is the ultimate reason for your creation of reality, God?" . God quickly and promptly answered: "The ultimate reason I created reality is so that people like you can enjoy eating nacho chips. Nacho chips is the only reason for existence my friend." Then he disappeared. And again; I'm speaking from direct experience here. So I am right. You are wrong. Nacho chips is the reason for existence. And I'm eating them as I write this. It feels good man. I just bought 100 bags of them.

Because 'thought' is an object. Just like 'music' is an object. A red apple is an object. The emotion 'hatred' is an object. An object to who? To you of course. But who are you? No, really, who are you? A body? No, a body is an object. A person? No, a person is a complex, mental, conceptual object defined by history, beliefs etc. You are you. And we can call it God or 'Awareness' if we feel like. (But God constantly tricks himself into believing he's a person or a body. Because existence is more entertaining that way.) But not only are you the knower of all experience, you're also that 'space' in which all experience takes place (apple, music, emotion, thought, person, body). And actually, you're also the creator of all experience. But it's more 'entertaining' to forget that and instead pretend to be a poor little 'me'/'ego', who didn't choose to get born into this chaotic world.

wrong threadxD

soooooooooo chill

Dude. You think WAY too much. Stop thinking. It doesn't help you in this case, clearly. You're overcomplicating things and overthinking everything. Fear? Fuck the fear, it doesn't matter, it will go away by itself when you stop giving it so much attention. 27 year old virgin? Who the fuck cares, it doesn't matter. Commitment phobia? Don't think about it. Don't think about the future. Anything can happen. I can tell from reading your posts here that you do clearly have feelings for her. Focus on those feelings you have for her (love and lust) and that's it, don't focus on anything else man! "When I am with her I don't know what to do, what position, how to touch her, etc." DONT THINK ABOUT IT. Just let what happens happen. "I also have all this social pressure that I should fuck the shit out of her like an alpha male, and all that BS." Forget your thoughts about how it should be. Just follow your inner nature and heart. As I sad focus on your feelings toward her, and don't be afraid to show them. This also includes your sexual feelings toward her, don't hide them. She's a woman, she obviously have feelings for you and she obviously want you to do whatever you feel like with her body:) Don't think so much about it, you really can't do anything wrong.

ajasatya hit the nail on the head here. MDMA will help you open up in ways you can't even imagine opening up. But sure, you can also try to open up sober, but MDMA is a tool I feel will really help you.

Get some high quality MDMA and take 120 mg both of you while you spend an evening together. It will be mindblowing and good for you (and her too, sure).

Yet, my friend, why does an innocent little child like to build sandcastles then? "If life is so utterly meaningless, why are you depressed about it? That's meaning! Notice this point very deeply." Leo has a brilliant point here. Become mindful that you are actually alive as a human being. It is a mysterious miracle, when you think deeply about it. It's also fascinating that you can realize life is utterly meaningless while simultaneously becoming depressed about it.

have you ever had a girlfriend? "One of my biggest fears is wasting time" " personal development is more important to me than having a girlfriend," If you've never had an actual girlfriend, then I feel I should tell you that having one will develop you in ways you can't imagine. "“When you are in relationship with people, in a thousand and one ways you are provoked, challenged, seduced. Again and again you come to know your pitfalls, your limitations, your anger, your lust, your possessiveness, your jealousy, your sadness, your happiness all moods come and go, you are constantly in a turmoil. But this is the only way to know who you are" - Osho.

If you believe you exist as a separate self (inside your skull and/or as a body), you have no free will. If you realize you don't exist as a separate self but as God/The Self, you are free to the degree of how deep this realization is. I think this sums it up. Remember that God/The Self (the real you) seemingly often find it more amusing to be dreaming for a lifetime than to wake up. I have the uttermost respect for people who believe they actually really exist. The Self/God inside such a person is playing a so far out game that I can't help but to take my hat off, just like I can't help taking my hat off when I watch a sublime actor in a theatre play.