WaveInTheOcean

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Indeed. Very very very ugly. The more ugly/hellish it is/was, the more profound the mindfuck when it hits you your depression/'going-through-hell' was Infinite Love/your own doing/a deliberate choice (to learn and grow).

Let's say you are playing chess versus your girlfriend. In actuality, whether you win or lose makes no difference, except for the honor you either consciously or unconsciously project 'onto winning'. So, why play if it's all meaningless? Same goes with life. Why play? Why not just commit suicide if it's all ultimately pointless and meaningless?

Beautiful. Realizing that even the experience of hell is infinite love is one of the profoundest most beautiful mindfucks.

Oneness is such a beautiful experience (and insight).?

Thoughts is self-talk. Now, how did you learn to talk?

The OA (series on netflix) Devs (series on HBO)

If the insights feel intuitively self-empowering, trust them.

- Cold shower before sleep helps my sleep. - I deliberately designed and chose this life. - A mistake is ultimately not a mistake

???❤️❤️❤️???

Something that threatens the illusory ego. A story, though.

Like this ? (absolutely speaking) Relatively speaking, none knows, but my guess is the world would be pretty boring. We would probably need a new Big Bang for some excitement. Of course, the goal for Us is 'the Singularity', and naturally, one way or the other, We will get there. After that, We will probably bathe in this Eternal Oneness for some infinite amount of time, before getting bored of it, and then create a new universe, i.e. a new dream, a new physical reality with apparant dualities embbeded into it - like the one We are experiencing now?

The body is whatever you want it to be. Can be a disease, sure. Can also be a temple. Or a vessle for light/love. Depends on how you interpret/view it and most importantly on how you treat it. Of course in the greater schemes of things the body, including everything else, is a divine magical miracle manifested in the mind of God.

I think it's quite simple why you can't be awake 24/7. There is no you, that's why. As long as you insist on there being 'a you' that can be x or y, well you will remain feeling like a separate self.

Beautiful, thank YOU❤️??

Oneness is such a complex "thing" for the human mind to understand. It isn't even a thing or a concept. It's what reality IS. It is ONE. Always. Whether you're aware of it or not. Of course awareness of "it" matters in the way you feel on the inside. If you're aware of the nature of reality -- that all is one, that everything is your own creation, self-designed by you as Oneness/God/Love/Infinite Consciousness -- then you can't help but feel good. That's at least my experience. However, this truth is also hard to swallow for the untranscended ego-person. Cos the truth unveils its illusory nature: There is no separate self, except for the mind-like-idea of there being one. So to see it requires surrendering, letting go. And it ain't easy to let go. To let go, to surrender to each present moment, is an artform that requires practice, and daily consciousness-work I'd say. "My enlightenment" on 2cb half a year ago in a sneaky way made me feel superior, perfect, untouchable, like God/Jesus walking around in human form. I neglected my shadow, I didn't acknowledge it. I didn't even had it as a possibility that I could ever be depressed again, haha. So fucking arrogant, a bit of spiritual ego, so much unconsciousness of the greater themes playing out, yet feeling like I knew it all! I didn't meditate on a daily basis (in fact I didn't meditate much even) and of course hubris hit me in the sense that my ego got to slowly take back control in unconscious ways. My lower self got back to work, so to speak, and this included feelings and thoughts of being a separate self that needed x,y and z go to be happy, that could truly never be fulfilled, but only be hurt and damaged. So I got into the lowest stages of emotional development of enneagram type 5, which included self-isolation, bad sleep, no meditation, suicidal thoughts, crying a lot, feeling like everything is pointless, and myself feeling completely worthless. In short, my knowledge of Oneness/Love/God was hidden far away in my mind. Sure, I still knew it, but I didn't feel whole and at peace. And feelings/emotions is what truly matters, not knowledge. Anyway, I'm feeling pretty good lately. Been on a regular meditation practice for some weeks now, 30min 1-2 times daily. Had a few deeply healing 2cb trips as of late, as well as my changa trip yesterday, which in a sense felt just as deep, if not deeper, than my 2cb enlightenment trip half a year ago. Self-design on a very deep level was realized, which I sort of had realized before, but just on a deeper level this time. Such a relief. Pure healing for the soul to see that it was a conscious choice to "get into life" and that everything is going exactly as it should be (God makes no mistakes). Divine perfection. The answer and purpose always being Infinite Love. I was at the peak infused with Cosmic (Self-) Love through my mouth into my body by some very intelligent extra dimensional beings, which I of course also knew were me/my imagination, but I nevertheless deeply thanked them. I then for a long time was in this dimension/level of consciousness beyond ordinary life, where all the blueprints, engineering of life/physical reality is going on. It felt like pure bliss to see the perfection and intelligence behind it all. Such a relief. Such healing for the soul. I could change anything I wanted, yet I also realized nothing dramatically really needed to change. I agreed with the beings in this dimension that I'd like less OCD and more confidence in regards to my personality, and it sort of seem to have worked (early days still hehe). It's interesting to wonder about how much one's brain's neuroplasticity is increased during such a DMT breakthrough, or any psychedelic break through for that matter. Must be a fucking lot. An other characteristic of this "headspace"/dimension/level of consciousness, was how it felt like coming home. This is a state We are all so familiar with; I even suppose this is what deep sleep is, just without any remembering of it when you wake up. I intuitively knew I had been here many many times before, designing physical reality, life, personality, destinies. I even realized I had been here before on DMT before, also ayahuasca, also 2CB, but this was the "first time" I was "allowed" to retain deep knowledge lf it. This break through changa trip lasted almost an hour for me, which is 4-5 times longer than pure DMT. Pretty remarkable. In the early stages of my depression half a year ago I had s traumatizing changa trip where I felt my soul/mind was burned, raped by the universe. Surely kickstarted the deeper depths of my depression. Made me doubt everything. Actually, what it was, was that it was Infinite Love, but I at that time just weren't able to surrender to it/let go. Everything is Infinite Love, but it can feel like hell if you don't trust "it"/cant let go/are unable to surrender to it. This time I struggled in the first few minutes, but eventually managed to let go. Dno how. Mystery. Probably relates to how conscious you are before going in, and how healthy and prepareded your body-mind is on s bothe physical and spiritual level. Of course even not being able to let go is infinite love. Anyway, all this depression has been extremely humbling for me. I will take better care of "myself" moving forward. I will prioritize sleep, meditation, exercise, social relations, healthy eating. These things are extremely important if you want to be a vessel for Love. Just my few cents:D Enlightenment is infinite. I dno if I consider myself enlightened, I surely did back then. Now, it seems a bit more silly to say:D I now see the depression as Love, but I surely didn't in the midst of it; except somewhere deep in me I probably knew, just like everyone does all the time;) I don't think I per se got attached to pleasure or pain. Or in some ways I probably did. In the beginning of my depression I'd eat lots of candy/cake to dull my depression (attached to pleasure) and in the peak of my depression with daily crying and daily suicidal thoughts I surely was attached to pain/suffering in some way.

I feel there are two aspects of enlightenment. The "knowing" aspect of it: i.e. you know about the nature of reality (that all is one) AND you ground this knowing in one of your direct experiences of you becoming it (oneness/consciousness/nothingnesss/God/Love). If you can't ground it any direct experience, it's just a a belief and not enlightenment. The 'feeling' aspect of it. This is a state. You can go in and out of this state. I was in it for 4 months, May-August 2020, then I slowly got out of it during the fall, which eventually lead to a full-blown suicidal deep dark depression which lasted from October-February. Now I smoked 50 mg of changa 3 hours ago and I'm back in the "good" feeling state. All is well;) love ya all <3

Probably mdma therapy. MDMA shuts down fear in the brain, allowing you to access trauma/intense memories without fear, allowing you to process them properly

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Bumping this thread cos this little poem by ivankiss is so good. Gotta say I got burned hard myself this winter:> I thought I got it all figured out, but I was unconsciously and ignorantly denying and judging my shadow, and as such I got swallowed whole by it. Deepest depression yet (think I got some sort of mild genetic bipolar). But humbling experience for sure. The universe (God/Love) is always ready to teach you a lesson. When all seems dark, light will begin to shrine through at the end lf the tunnel. It seems the opposite is also kind of true. When all seems like perfection, when light is shining everywhere; slowly, but surely, the dark shadow(s) will begin to emerge. How to love/accept both light *and* shadow? Or how to not let the shadow completely cover all the shining light? How to be at peace 24/7 365 days a year?? Gotta read ivankiss' scripture again ?

You should listen to some Alan Watts on youtube. These two short ones are incredible, then maybe progress to his full talks. Stay strong, I wish you the best ❤️

That's depression, dont sugar coat it. Talk to someone. Exercise, meditate, do the hard thing, practice self love Also on a more spiritual note, it's interesting to see that you don't know who you are, and yet you are absolutely sure life -- with all its ups and downs -- isn't something you wished for. You ain't happy about life, yet you don't know who you are. Consider that it is actually possible to really find out who "I am" (who you are) and that this "revelation" will also reveal to you that life was actually something the real , *actual* , you wanted. That's why you are experiencing what you're experiencing.

Beta-glucans (a type of fiber) found in oats seem to have a positive impact on intestinal health: https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.ernaehrungs-umschau.de/fileadmin/Ernaehrungs-Umschau/pdfs/pdf_2020/03_20/EU03_2020_PR_Glei_engl_Ansicht.pdf&ved=2ahUKEwimvPut_MbvAhWoxIsKHWBoAIsQFjAAegQIARAC&usg=AOvVaw2tRYtA9p5jdglrY84mmk91&cshid=1616521645846 "Conclusion β-glucans have a variety of effects that are relevant to health. The potential of this group of substances to reduce both choles- terol and postprandial glucose concentrations has been proven in a large number of studies and has been confirmed by the EFSA with health claims in the context of authorizations. However, the current data is less clear-cut in terms of effects on intestinal health markers. Nevertheless, there is increasing scientific evi- dence that β-glucans have positive effects on intestinal parame- ters. For example, studies show that regular consumption of foods that contain β-glucan is associated with increased formation of health-promoting short-chain fatty acids, with a favorable effect on the intestinal microbiome, with activation of the intestinal im- mune system and with a strengthened intestinal barrier, as well as with a reduction of inflammatory processes in the intestine. Therefore, consumption of at least 3 g of β-glucans per day ap- pears to be advisable for intestinal health." And: https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.mdpi.com/2072-6643/13/2/321/pdf&ved=2ahUKEwjVv5Gm_cbvAhVFl4sKHWJJD4sQFjAMegQIDRAC&usg=AOvVaw06JlfJ-mZ-FGD-9UyFjTYS "Conclusions: Dietary intake of βGl and βGh significantly reduced colitis by time-dependent modification of autophagy and apoptosis, with βGI exhibiting a stronger effect on apoptosis and βGh on autophagy. The mechanism of this action may be based on the activation of TLRs and Dectin-1 receptor and depends on the period of exacerbation or remission of CD." Also some research that points to benefits for diabetic patients: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4728652/ Eat oatmeal everyday, I do?

If machines can't get free will, we humans aren't free either, since we're also electric machines. Artificial / natural is a distinction made by humans. A duality. If your consciousness is elevated enough it will collapse (like all other dualities for that matter, including free will vs pre-determined/random will. If you build a machine with complex enough neural networks build on complex enough algorithms run on sophisticated enough hardware, then sure, apparant free will as a phenomenon will emerge, just like it did in biological life (humans). It'll take some years still, but no doubt it will happen. But what's REALLY going on is that everything is actually intelligently designed -- the whole of 'IT' is God/Love/Consciousness which is infinite in every way, including 'will' - it's will is so infinitely eternally powerful, that it can make up stuff with seemingly 'no free will', e.g. stones, clouds, bacteria, trees, fishes, birds, dogs, apes, humans (opps, we do have free will all of a sudden?). It's magic. The stones and trees and mosquitos can also be said to have free will in the sense that they -- like everything else -- are God manifested in form, i.e it's you and it's all your doing/imagination and the answer is always LOVE ❤️❤️❤️