WaveInTheOcean

It doesn't always happen with a God-relization. I had a nightmarish/very hellish Changa trip september last year. Probably also around 100 mg smoked. My ego couldn't handle the Infinite Love. I feel like DMT just opens up all your pores in your body-mind-soul-complex so that you can receive the Infinite Cosmic Love that is always present. Yet, if your ego isn't ready to accept (surrender) this Infinite amount of Love, well then that Infinite Love will feel like pure hell, like your soul is getting burned for eternity in the purgatory. That's at least how my changa trip felt in September. Very traumatizing. I was already down on the slope towards suicidal winter-depression (I probably have some mild genetic bipolar) but that trip speeded it up. Ultimately, it was just Love though, inlcuding my depression. Very humbling experience. Suffering = Healing

HAHA . Awesome. Who made it here from the forum?

Do most men know how to be a high value BF?:-)

Watched this interesting video yesterday What do people think of Teal's views? Especially interested in @Emerald s take.

It was only 40% DMT content btw. (40% DMT, 15% Syrian Rue Maoi extract, 45% leaves). I meditated 30-40 min daily every morning (typically after an 8 km run) for the 3-4 weeks leading up to the trip. No doubt it helped. (Note: have been meditating on/off for 5 years, but this month long streak - still going - is actually the longest hehe). My meditation technique is 10-15 minutes of whimhoff. Then 10-15 minutes of deep slow breathing through the nose, with the silent mantras: "I Love, I Love, I Love" on the inhale "What would Love do?" Slowly when holding the breath. "I let go, I let go, I let go" on the exhale. Then ~10 minutes do nothing just bathing in the blissful state. On this particular day my meditation was extra deep, I already felt like I was in touch with DMT beings sober (higher aspects of myself). I knew I was in for a deep ride. I contemplate daily. It's 2nd nature for me. I was kind of fasting while tripping (like u know the 5:2 IM fast. I had only eaten one ? smoothie the day before and two bananas in the hours prior to the trip.) I hadn't had ejaculation for 7 days leading up to. Just didn't feel like fapping. I think your inner vibrational state prior to inhaling the DMT molecules to a larger extent determines your exp and whether you'll break through or not. I was feeling amazing prior, in part due to two prior very healing changa trips beforehand (one was the same session, perhaps 80-90 mg, and one was 1 week earlier). Just to give some context ?

Does any part of life hold any value?:-) See, it's all just a dream, a game, so utterly meaningless (you won't believe it), that the only reason it's occuring is Love (God). It's so utterly meaningless that you are free to attach any value, any meaning, you want. This is freedom. Go with the flow, go with how you feel. Sex can be pretty mindblowing nice at times:-)

?? You're one of the wisest around on this forum, thank you for taking your time to share your knowledge and insights.

Lol, haha. Oh God. The endgame is right here, Now. Believing in any endgame -- especially a spiritual one -- just keeps you from IT.

Just cute stories/delusion/lack of consciousness

What would Love do? If you didn't have any fear (for instance your obvious fear about how your family/friends will see her..."shy", "wierdo" etc..., this fear is actually just your own insecurities coming to surface)... ???

Great post.

I think Teal should make a video: Containment, what men needs from women I think both the feminine and masculine wants to be contained, just in different ways. I like her analogy where the clam-shell is the masculine and the pearl the feminine. But turn it around and we could make another analogy: the masculine being 'a warrior' that needs to be contained by his Queen ??

Smoke 40 mg DMT

It feels like Infinite Love Ecstasy beyond anything you imagine ecstasy to be. If orgasm during sex is a drop in the ocean in regards to ecstasy, then a break through changa trip (or likewise awakening) feels like all the planets oceans in the whole universe

ah sorry didn't see the old thread, and Emerald even replied. haha lol

Great comment, thank you. Yes, I'm thinking the same. She seems to sort of take it for granted that every man on Earth *should* be fully masculine, while every women *should* be fully feminine. Of course, generally speaking, more men embody more masculine energy, and more women embody more feminine energy. But for many persons it's a mix. Especially in regards to self-development, I think we should strive to embody both types of energy, no matter our gender. Of course, one type of energy will always be "the core one", the dominant one, and as I'm a man and very heterosexual, I naturally feel that there is more masculine energy inside me than feminine, although I have cultivated the feminine aspect within me a lot the last few years.

I think we gotta appreciate our all our bodies are different. I'm eating pescitarian - mostly vegan, perhaps some real cheese/fish 1-2 times week max -- and I'm eating loads of carbs (oatmeal, berries, bananas, potatoes), like 60-80% of my energy intake probably comes from carbs. And I'm close to underweight hehe (bmi 18-19, 1.96 m high, 75-80 kg). I run 6-8 km 4-5 times a week (~130 km a month) and do light resistance workouts as well. I have never been able to get fat in my whole life. And it's not that i have a bad appetite. I remember when i was a teen, i'd eat loads of meat, and i'd 1-2 times a month have terrible stomach pain (not sure if related to meat, could also be all the candy:D)

That seems mostly like abuse/escapism.

Daniel Schmachtenberger's dad: https://civilizationemerging.com/what-i-learned-about-being-a-man-from-my-dad/

Of course, everything is imaginary, including you and me as persons/human beings, our brains, the psychedelic molecules. Yes, yes. But that doesn't change the fact that there are some mechanics in play inside this dream that determines whether the dreamed-up character will awaken or not. Yes, even those mechanics (physical laws, brain chemistry, genetics, molecules) are imaginary, but thet are still very very valid within the context of the dream (life).

Consider how DMT (and other pyshcedelics for that matter) "work" when you ingest them into your body... What happens? Well - the molecules attach to receptors THAT YOUR BRAIN HAS CREATED - those receptors getting activated then in turn activates certan neural pathways / network THAT YOUR BRAIN HAS CREATED - the activation of those networks/neural pathways ( firing of specific brain cells ) then results in "the psychedelic experience" So while psychedelics are immensly powerful tools -- hacks -- of course it should be obvious that it's possible to have profound experiences without pyschedelics, giving the right brain, right genetics, right chemistry, right upbringning, right practice (meditation and so on). Heck, science is about to unravel that the human brain is producing DMT. We just don't know in what amounts and for what function / the mechanics of it.

In regards to suffering. My man Daniel Schmachtenberger spitting some truth:

Thank you for reading <3

I'm delighted to hear you enjoyed the read. <3 Jon Hopkins is great and yeah Luminous Beings is actually composed with a DMT trip in mind, hehe (google it, you can find a interview with him). I'd say all suffering in the world, on an individual or collective level, is always either directly or indirectly transformed into healing eventually. It's hard to convey into words how. But let's take the Holocaust as an example. That's some serious suffering. Yet, ultimately -- even though I don't deny how horrible it was, and how much evil was involved in the holocaust -- we can today be relieved/glad/happy that the Holocaust happened, in the sense that it has been extremely instructive and teaching for us as a collective race. We have now global infrastructures in play that makes sure this is very unlikely to ever happen again. Holocaust teached us all how much evil can spawn if you stomp a nation of people (Germany was fucked after WW1). It teached us how much evil can happen if you blindly follow a charismatic man (the danger of propaganda) and if you blindly follow an ideology without some serious self-reflection. We should cheer for all those people (God) who went through that suffering during WWII. Just gigantic amounts of healing they made happen on a collective level through their suffering (God's suffering). On a more personal level, I had a suicidal depression this winter from october-february. Really hellish. I suffered a lot mentally. Like a fucking lot. Now, when I look back at it (I couldn't see it then of course) I see this period as actually -- on a higher level -- a very teaching, humbling, instructive and healing experience. It has learned me a lot to go through it. Last summer I was very Zen Devilish, believing I was invulnerable, denying I could ever suffer again, I had a lot of spiritual ego on the inside (and also on the outside to some extent). I was arrogant. I was naive. I was in for a rude awakening. I denied my shadow. So much consciousness (cos I was really in what I'd call close to God-consciousness for many weeks/months during the summer from May until September, had a deep deep trip on 2CB back in May), yet at the same time also so much unconsciousness, so much ego still to be transcended, still so much to learn, still more to integrate, especially my shadow. My depression thus taught me a lot. Today right now as I'm writing this, I'm very aware that yes, while I'm on the one hand feeling amazing and whole and at peace, I also acknowledge that I'm not invulnerable. I'm not calling myself enlightened like I did back then. I'm aware of my shadow and accepting it. I accept all the negative thoughts that might come up during the day. I accept my OCD-thoughts. I accept I might get depressed again. I accept that I have more to learn. I accept I need to integrate a lot of stuff still. I basically accept my humanity, even though I might feel like I'm more than that (God:D).

I think I will make a youtube video (or write a long post) soon answering your questions and more. Thank you for reading and commentating @somegirl @Gili TrawanganTrawanganTrawanganTrawangan (smartphone bug lol) If you have more questions feel free to ask them here. Bipolargrowth, @space , frenk, bogdan ?❤️??