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The route does matter. Even if you're some super enlightened person you still have a body and have to interact in the world. Unless you live in a cave. You're gonna want to have a healthy sense of self that you can access when around others.

I think that there is a sort of "completion" that happens when one is in a conscious relationship. Not that we are incomplete people, but only that we can become even more whole when we are in the right relationship. It would absolutely add to my person to have a beautiful, conscious relationship. There's nothing wrong with that. I WANT that, and there are many others who appreciate relationships for that reason as well.

Thank you for recognizing my honesty. I can understand on a mind-level that there are no separate people. I have had non-dual experiences but of course, I am still lost in illusion and have a lot of growth to do in that area. While I do that, I think it is healthy to acknowledge I live in a dualistic world where people have the appearance of individual bodies and minds. I notice myself ultimately becoming lost when I try to just abandon physical reality because it is just an illusion. Both can exist. Both DO exist.

Yes and that was one of the things I gleaned from this vision. It isn't so much "Leo Gura" per se... But ayahuasca used his image as a way to show me the type of man that I want to be with, and that it is possible for me to be in that type of relationship. It's almost as if ayahuasca knew that if she just gave me a vision of some random, self actualizing man, I wouldn't have such an emotional response and not gain as much from the vision. I want to have a beautiful relationship with a man, but that wasn't something I could fathom that until ayahuasca gave me this vision as an example of what is possible.

It was more telling me that having a man as a partner is a possibility. For awhile I was thinking that I was just too gay for that. In terms of it being the right time, in that way, sure. But okay where's my man, universe?? Just kidding.

Trying to get rid of the ego before developing a healthy one seems like putting the horse before the carriage to me... maybe you can do both at the same time but idk. You want to be able to access "yourself" without being overcome by the dream of it.

@Zigzag Idiot I love this!

No. It's actually important to develop a healthy ego.

Kind of. I'll remember a few different things the teacher said and it will stick with me for a long time. And then sometimes I'll even have a hard time not looking at life that way even if I know its time to move forward. My own shortcomings.

Such a good episode

Very much so. I've made this mistake plenty.

Actually yea, at first it really bothered me that he spent more time talking about fools and then I was grateful for it haha

There's no guilt its more painful to realize all the ways I've been a fool

A meditation teacher I had told me not to make too much of a story out of things I experience during meditation. So your heart is beating fast. Notice it for as long as you do. Meditation is a practice that is developed over time. Keep consistent.

I think its probably better to just assume you're a fool instead of fooling yourself you're on a different part of the gradient.

Every time I take mushrooms the trip gives me a new lesson. I always expect it to be a certain type of way and then it's like nope we're doing this today instead.

Hmm I'm not sure about that. At least for me. I've worked with mushrooms a lot, particularly micro dose but I've had a few high dose trips. I feel the complete opposite of this statement. In fact I've always said, what I like so much about mushrooms is that the lessons really stick with me. It's like they get into my body. Some of my most integrated trips come from mushrooms, so I find it interesting you have that assessment.

What do you mean by that? The insights and experiences I've had on mushrooms felt very clear to me.

it's hard to know someone even when they post lots of videos. don't concern yourself too much with his life and focus instead on yours.

Most people who aren't born into religion don't "casually" come to god. But I like the saying anyway lol.

Yes. But the brain is resilient and depending on severety of usage, a person may likely be ok when they stop (if they do) if there isn't consistent usage over years.

I work at a drugstore and the covid vaccine was made available to me about a month ago at this point. I've been traveling recently and just made a move to a different state. I originally was against getting vaccinated, but when I was offered the vaccine, I decided to be open minded and took it at my next opportunity. So I did have a couple days to think about it. But I just came back from an Ayahuasca retreat and while I was there it just became pretty apparant that a lot of the things that are happening in the world are in fact of a darkness versus from being of the light. Maybe I am just being "paranoid" or a "conspiracy theorist" but some of the thoughts I've been having following that realization are as follows. Safety being number one. The vaccine is obviously in its testing stages right now so we still don't officially know how safe it is but it is generally presumed to be safe. Yet out of the people I know about 1/3rd have had a negative reaction. Someone in my extended family became quite ill for several days. Widespread vaccines seem to be the way of the future in regards to keeping society healthy. A move away from a more "hippy", holistic approach. Is this really the way things need to be? I still have my doubts that whether a vaccination required to function in society is for our highest good. I have yet to get my second shot while thinking about these things.

Something about hard drugs is that they can really make a person struggle. So while it's not ideal, a hard drug user who manages to come out of it, may have a head start at personal development because they have struggled a lot. I was never addicted to hard drugs but I've used quite a bit when I was in a difficult and immature place in life. Those times broadened my perspective on the world, made me more empathetic and understanding to hard drug addicts and made me more resilient.

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@Value I would encourage you to focus in on what the most important things are for you to be a 10/10 on those things. Of course there may be endless things for you to do, so pick the most relevant and most pertinent right now.