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What Leo is doing with 5meo is super extreme. I wouldn't compare your journey to his. You will still awaken to some degrees with these other methods. Also, Leo is talking about a specific flavor to awakening and I wager there are other flavors (for example, shamans who use psychedelics etc).

Wow. Alright. Leo's not messing around anymore. *best behavior activated*

Have you talked to anyone else about this? Like seeing a therapist? They would probably be able to give you some coping skills. Talking to friends and family would help too. Do you still talk to this person? If so, stop, because that can prevent healing as well. Unfollow her on social media etc too.

Yess Leo deserves so much support for all the hard work he's done

I would say yes because otherwise why would you do it. Maybe your reason (for now) is because you don't want to waste anymore time.

I would explore each of these in small chunks. Take up an acting class once a week. Practice music on your computer for 10-20 minutes each day. You can explore all the creative outlets you desire, just do it in little steps.

I joined an improv group to be in community

Could be you have an anxious attachment style

This would a big no for me, too! I would really express to him your deepest feelings about this. Be very expressive and don't hold back. "Baby when you hang out with other girls it just breaks my heart, I feel unimportant and it really hurts my feelings" Use "I" statements. Continue to speak from your heart, don't be afraid to cry. Try to focus on how the whole thing makes you feel and let him know. Set a boundary. If he doesn't care about your feelings, if he continues to hurt you in this way then you need to determine if it is worth the pain of staying with him.

One of the things that has really helped me is making sure that I am consistently building my life purpose.

The amount of hours that it takes to become a skilled artist is one of the things that is awe inspiring to me. Attention to detail and unique and new ideas are also things that moves me.

Nothing is for everyone.

Making sure you are solid in your values, who you are, what you want.

@Karmadhi Well hello!

Your soul is pure

I think this is ok. You can meditate and then at other times you can contemplate this. It’s ok to do both.

Yes, trauma affects the ways we treat others

I would use a diluted essential oil as your scent over a perfumed body spray especially if you’re getting a headache.

I’ve experienced that before. Sometimes it really is best not to say anything. Other times it can help your motivation. Feel it out.

I dated people who weren’t into spirituality for yearssss. And it honestly kinda broke my spirit. Being with someone who is spiritual makes the relationship so much more enjoyable for me. It’s a non-negotiable for me now.

You can make money off of anything. Don’t limit yourself like this.

Because they can show you things about your life and life as a whole that you may not be ready to see and integrate. They can cause you to awaken before you are ready to wake up which can cause all kinds of emotional problems. Especially if you don’t already have a solid materialistic base to back you up. They can cause you to “live in the clouds” and to poo poo material reality, like the importance of making money. They can also cause you to live in delusion, thinking that because the psychedelics have shown you so much that you are now wise, however without integration of psychedelic visions and teachings one only becomes full of themselves. Watch the actualized.org video titled The Top Dangers of Using Psychedelics

This is a tad bit silly my friend

Don’t force yourself to feel. Just be with your numbness.

Your second choice doesn’t have to be so dull. I wouldn’t join the forces because then you are even more of a slave but that’s just me. I’m also in the US so could be different elsewhere.