Rilles

Thats a fair point. I agree. I guess I meant more like how you viewed the world, everything was magical or scary and very simplistic. You didnt know or care about the larger issues of society because you couldnt conceptualize them, its like you lived in a different reality. Theres a reason alot of people look back at early childhood as magical, it literally was!

Beige doesnt have a sense of self, its pre-conceptual. Like a baby. Purple is really the first time you start to exist. Think back to when you were around 4 years old, thats Purple.

For you that are more awake... do you feel like people stare right through you when you walk down the street or do you still have the sense of someone looking "at you?" I think this is a good qualifier for if you still have an ego or not. Thoughts? How do you get rid of the sense that others are looking at you? Is this puppy looking at "you"?

Probably something that has impacted your life alot and really resonates with you. I want to tattoo some quote or a small stag beetle maybe, but I dont want to stain this beautiful body either...

Lmao, "integrate" your experience.

Something tells me youre speaking from experience

Haha right amount of acid and I bet everything would be looking at you, and doing a little dance at the same time.

This is a great exercise! Will definitely implement this.

Haha no the wall is not looking at me, thank god for that.

Kind of hard to imagine without bullshitting myself that I could deal with it. I would need a slow progression to build up to that, maybe over 1-2 years, so I dont lose my marbles.

Why would I go insane? Curious...

Thats interesting. I can sort sense Im a faceless void in my direct experience when I look at the puppy... so there must be some deeper ego function Im not aware of that still creates the illusion of the puppy looking at me.

Haha I do to an extent but this is not about social anxiety, read the post again.

Just a bit of recontextualisation I guess, like the puppy is still there but hes not looking at me... he is just looking... Of course this is all fantasy until I actually wake up.

Im trying??? I will get it soon. "I" feel close, last two days have been an extraordinary amount of self-inquiry progress.

?? Truly a wise master right here.

Dont have to be a sage to see the humor in all these duality wars. Everyday its the same thing. Like watching cars on highway passing by. Making alot of noise going nowhere. Or like raindrops crashing down on your window. Thread after thread... round and round.

Not much has changed in that regard.

This shit has been stuck in my head for the past 10 minutes now.

Somewhere out there is a planet where aliens walk around smoking 5-Meo cigarettes every 30 minutes and everyone is at a higher state than Leo will ever reach in a 1000 lifetimes. These non-duality my dad could beat up your dad wars are so boring.

Were you the quiet type in school? Wallflower?

Lmao! Keep em coming. ?

The ego when awareness discovers itself.