Rilles

You guys are like Zen masters, you say alot but nothing at the same time, why dont you just beat me with a stick already!

Blue: Im polite, quiet, I obey the law, highly moral. Lack alot of disclipine. Orange: Agnostic, knowledge hoarder, party animal. Lack alot of dating experience and a solid career. Green: I think Im almost fully Green to be honest. Yellow: Cognitively very integrated. Im not beyond survival though, I need to integrate more Blue to become truly Yellow. Also need to purify myself of my anxieties and fears of other people.

Im listening to some Spira. He is always helpful.

Forget verbalizing questions. Just look inside yourself at what you are. Youre aware all the time. Use it to your advantage.

Popping ecstasy and then doing my laundry.

Nothing has changed, I just see more clearly.

https://imgur.com/gallery/YAGpXPd

Green/Yellow

Great! If you live in a country with universal health care you should check out anything you feel worried about, its basically free.

Go to the doctor right away, blood clots can kill you, dude.

I have personal experience that says otherwise. But also, I havent done heroin but thats one of those special drugs that basically hook everyone, its too good for this earth, you wont escape its grip unless you have Godlike willpower which very few people have.

Shadow is certainly a part of all of Tier 1. You cant be truly ideological without reacting against something. Thats why introspection is so damn important, real introspection, not lip service.

Stage Green seems to have two strains, the hippie libertarian/anti-government strain and the more intellectual socialist strain, the former being more prone to delusion. Im more on the side of the SJW intellectual types side nowadays, the hippes have gone batshit.

Edit: Here it is

Theres an old documentary on Youtube about a black british guy who tried heroin for journalistic purposes and ended up addicted for years, its very sad, I might post it on the forum.

Either trolling or really really gullible. Cant believe some people fall for this.

Sorry to hear that, it really fucks you up emotionally having these people as parents. Im glad hes turning out better, mine is not, he is getting more and more bitter and entrenched into his own little world, luckily he is too old to be physically violent anymore as he was in the 90s. Nowadays he mostly complains about the world.

NoFap has never been worth it for me. Self-esteem and confidence with women is way deeper issue than just not jerking off, in fact, I think NoFap is just an excuse for people to not go up and talk to girls, instead they sit at home for 2 weeks not touching their weiner thinking theyre making a difference to their life when theyre not.

Bloodclots are usually blue like bruises, can you see anything visually on your legs?

I would put him on the scale at 6 and maybe 8 when is he in a bad mood. Sorry, cant find a video of it, you will have to research what it is. Heres a few attributes of what narcissists are like. •Lack of empathy, emotionally distant but albeit superficially charming •My way or the high way •I know best •Discussion is not allowed •Its never my fault, its always someone elses fault •The world is an evil place and everyone will try to trick you and deceive you •People cannot be trusted •Quick to anger •Alot of Gaslighting "I never hurt you, youre just imaging that" "I have done everything for you and yet you complain, youre so ungrateful" •Hoovering: Tearing a person down emotionally causing emotional distance and then lovebombing them the day after, but never saying sorry, never any real true genuine connetion or compassion. •No respect for privacy, will gladly go through your phone, snoop through your room and closet, and anything thats yours when youre not aware, or even when you are aware.

I havent even tried yet, cold feet. Interesting take. Thank you! I want to forgive but Im very afraid too.

I guess I have more to gain by forgiving and more to lose by hating. Lol. My intution is on a see saw.

Up and coming Swedish Party whos only ideology is Direct Democracy instead of Representative democracy. (In Swedish but it has English Subtitles)