Rilles

thanks for all the replies... seems this question is veeery deep and might take alot of time to grasp

Can you elaborate? To clarify, I can experience my thoughts but not others thoughts so it seems theyre separate from me or in some other dimension.. idk

thats awesome! know that there might be alot of resitance and fear, also alot of clinging from your parents, unless they support you

so you have to work your ass off to get out of there, im 25 in the same situation (although in a more affluent country) you can do it! i believe in you

I locked my Facebook acccount about 6 months ago. Havent missed it at all.

Learn Astral Projection. Youll be the ghost you crave.

your parents were meant to bring you up, teach you basics, now youve outgrown them since 10 years back, you can leave now!!

One day youll (hopefully) start taking responsibility for your own weaknesses. Then you wont need MGTOW anymore.

suffering makes me wanna seek pleasure and escapism too

Sometimes you kinda sliiide slowly back into low consciousness and forget all about the meditation and the yoga how to get up on that horse again

modafinil is enough for me... doesnt make jittery , it just takes away resistance and lets me focus for like 3 hours straight without break

i think that youre doing great, youre putting yourself out there, youre realizing that you have strong emotions and want love, i dont see much of an issue, just keep moving

Dont get rid of the belief. OWN IT. “Im a bad person. Yes. Thats okay. Heres a few reasons why you think Im bad... and why thats okay“ You do realize that once you own a trait it has no power over you anymore. If someone told me “Youre blonde!” I wouldnt care because Im not denying it. If someone told me I was blonde and I hated being blonde I would dye my hair, deny my blondeness and do anything to cover up my little strands. Thats what youre doing, its making you miserable.

Only woo-woo looney leftists do psychedelics! Its just brain stuff! Airy fairy! Quackery!

Not much different from right now then.

Or maybe Im bringing it closer by seeing myself lie... instead of pretending I dont?

I dont lie on the side... I lie up front.

Do you know how you ”got there”?

Okay so Its experiental, i feel you, ill try breathing into my nutsack in the future and see how it feels! cheers!

uuuh i dont know... moo? ?

Well... what is reality but perspectives... ? Its a 6 if youre standing up straight. Its a 9 if youre upside down. So who is right?

”Im god, theres no god better than me, im quite an awesome god” ? -d. trump

Hulse is Stage Orange with some Green influence.

Then be a good boy and buy it. Isnt it worth it to change your entire life for 10$?