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There's never enough love ???

I'm going to listen to some of his material Right now my biggest personal insight is that authenticy is equal to self-love. And self love seems to manifest positive events that reinforce this emotional state. Self hate is a form of falsehood, and the more you accept yourself, the more you can sense authenticty inside

The weird part is that I've always had block against crying, and in these recent months of "identity shifting" I've cried a lot. And it felt so liberating and so refreshing. The last time I have cried I've felt so pure and so reborn, that I was feeling like a clean and peaceful child. Right now I've made peace with a lot of my past, but there's still some work to be done. Identity shifting is really amazing, it enables you to make peace with your shadow and let it go once and for all, to embrace the more authentic you. I have experience with Esther Hicks (Abraham) as a channeled teaching material. She has helped me a lot about not identifying with my negativity and following my best emotions and vibrations. She also talks about people changing in front of you once you become more loving and more self-accepting. Bashar is one of those channeled materials that I still have to try out. Is he legit? I was doubtful to listen to him because it sounded like a crazy esoteric/UFO/random unicorns material. Is it authentic or woo woo?

Yes, that's exactly the perception/semi-insight I am having in these days, but I wasn't sure I was becoming insane or more sane. I've started to reprogram my subconscious mind in these recent months, and I've also shed a lot of tears in this process, because I've cleansed a lot of my negative past and negative beliefs. Now, my self love has decently gone up, and my physical reality is starting to shift a lot! I've also read Frederick Dodson's books, which are focused a lot on "identity shifting" and letting go of your subconscious victim mentality. He explains that we live in a multidimensional reality, where all possible universes are intersecting and constantly changing. At the beginning I thought he was just a sci-fi fanboy, but right now I'm realizing that he might be actually SERIOUS with these claims! My older version of me, the self hating version of me, might actually be still alive and leading the depressed and unconscious life he was living, while THIS version of myself is now becoming the one my consciousness is observing and following. This stuff is so freaky

I appreciate the other replies, but this one is exacty on the spot, regarding my question. I am having the "spiritual" impression that my reality is just my personal reality, which means that I'm not sharing a physical life on a physical planet with other humans, but that every single human has a "planet" of their own where they live creating their own reality according to their own level of consciousness. This concept is particularly discussed in manifestation communities and self-love communities, because once you start loving yourself more (a process I'm working on), reality starts to change in a weird way to accomodate your new sense of self. And my psychedelic experience has shown me that when I was deeply connected to Source, reality was accomodating me even more! So, that's why I'm starting to question "physical" and "objective" reality. Because seems like my own level of consciousness is impacting outside reality to conform it to me. If I were correct... this means that every single human has a personal reality completely separate from others. Yes, I was also asking if I was the god of my own reality, by the way!

Thanks! This experience definitely taught me to better value myself anf my present moment

I want to start by THANKING YOU, especially @Leo Gura, for the amazing Love and Wisdom shared in this community. Also, @Nahm . A personal thank you, compassionate soul. May the flow of infinite energy always bless you. As a second note, I want to say that I LOVE YOU. I passionately love you, I energetically and powerfully love you. Yes, I mean every single one of you, I literally love you all. We are all brothers and sisters in the Source of all there is. Let’s start – Remember that the Source is always flowing and that your ego is chocking the endless and majestic power of Source from exploding in you – This is ABSOLUTELY my biggest insight! Source is ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS CALLING YOU!!!! YOU ARE THE ONE NOT LISTENING!! I LOVE YOU ALL and so I am confident that you will listen, in the end. Like I did today, when I finally SURRENDERED to the Infinite Origin. BASICS of my own path I have meditated for more than a year, done shadow work for more than a year, and studied metaphysics and spirituality for the same amount of time. I have always had HUGE EMOTIONAL BLOCKAGES I have always chased Love, but rejected myself in the meantime. Reality replied by giving me rejections from girls, and more pain. My whole theme in life (I’m 31) has been only Love in the negative. Self loathing, self hate, self ignorance. And chasing others as a seeking of Love. Of course all of it failed miserably, and the girls who already appreciated me, I lost them too. My most active and energetic chakra is the second, the passionate and creative one, and it has communicated to me all the time that I must wake up. I’ve always been the nerdy shy guy, with no self love, a lot of empathy for others, but at the same time very stifled and incapable of relating with the world. Ouf of fear. I’ve always been generous and kind, but in the past it’s been really really choked by ego. 1ST psychedelic trip – 1P-LSD In my first trip I’ve had a huge shedding of tears and laughter. The biggest epiphany was the release of several limiting beliefs about myself and others. And the everlasting “channeled” phrase: “I Am Art”. In fact I have declared a lot of times I Am Art in this first trip. Then my ego kicked back in, but no huge shifts. I’ve felt a bit more natural and positive after this one. The big shift in this one was the need to better my meditation habit and make it more “liberating” and peaceful for the soul. 2nd psychedelic trip – 1P-LSD No important shifts here. I have experienced a moment of brief and weak connection with infinite Eternity and Silence. After a month, I had done some much seeking of spiritual material and set SOOOO many intentions to find my FREEDOM from my jail of self-hate, that I have decided to do it again. 3rd psychedelic trip – 1P-LSD I AM LOVE!!! I am the answer that what I’ve been seeking all my life. Love. I was seeking Love, and Love was denied to me. That’s because I had to learn to LISTEN! You. Have. To. Listen. I was the answer I was seeking ALL THE TIME!!!! I AM LOVE!!! I AM PASSION! I AM EMPATHY. But, most of all, I AM LOVE. I love myself, I love you all. And now the scary part that I was denying myself all these years. I FORGIVE THEM!!!! Those who did me wrong, I forgive them!!! I CAN’T AVOID FORGIVING THEM!! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!! They are just unconscious like I’ve been all my life!!! Every single human and animal is my brother and sister in blood. We are bonded by the infinite and eternal BLOOD of Source. During the first phase of the trip I was still “myself” and I shed some tears here and there, and then I got mesmerized by my cat. He’s young and innocent, but in his innocence and curiosity, I’ve lost myself looking in his eyes for several minutes. And at some point, he immediately had those huge eyes of Eternal Wisdom. He was suddenly a mystery of the universe, hinting to me that he had the unlimited wisdom of Eternity. His eyes were huge and TIMELESS. He officially has 9 months, and he also has a huge bond with me, but he immediately shifted to TIMELESS EYES. A cat of Eternal Knowing, like God was looking at the through this magical animal. And I erupted in shock “oh my god!!! Do you…. Do you…. (have human consciousness)? “ My cat was looking at me like he knew from forever and everywhere. He looked at me like he was the deepest depth of the Eternal Lifestream. The moment when I felt that DEEP STARE of wisdom onto me I literally gasped and asked him if he was aware like me, or even more. (of course now the cat is just a kitty with no wisdom at all xD) After that became aware of the tribal drum music I put on on purpose before starting the trip. At that moment my blood started to pulsate and my heart started to crack open. I watched at my hand, where I have written for several weeks in a row “I am love” and “I am infinite”, with a huge amount of handdrawn hearts on the palms and wrist. I have done this for some weeks because I was seeking to find what self love was. And I’ve felt a lot of these drawings were giving me release. I was looking at these writing on my wrist, and then my hands start to become and more orange and pink, orange, pink, rosey red, yellow…. Pulsating. Then I was looking at my hand and it became so BEAUTIFUL!!! The skin was moving like in tribal art, and the veins were colorful and deep red, and the writings were moving across my skin and they started to pulsate on my flesh. “OH MY GOD, I AM SO BEAUTIFUL! I AM SO MUCH WORTHY OF LOVE!” My skin and my flesh was ABUNDANT with passion, and art and creativity. Abundant with Love. Those writing I have been doing on my body as a “random act of self love” now were singing at me that I AM LOVE, I AM FREE EXPRESSION. I AM PASSION. Then I immediately contacted a close friend of mine, who’s also hugely responsible for this massive shift in growth, and told him that I am feeling all the suffering of the Earth. At this point, I was literally crying a bed of tears, and I shifted to a dimension where there was NO EGO. There was no restricted Simon, there was only a pure hearted brother of you all here on earth. I started crying “We are Love! Please, stop these wars!!! Stop hurting, I am hurting, I am hurting so much, please stop hurting each other, PLEASE MAKE IT STOP, I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! Now that I’m writing this I am weeping, and I feel so strongly for everybody. THERE IS NO ENEMY!!! STOP, PLEASE STOP!!!! “My Love, My Love is enough for everybody. I am Infinite Love. I am here to heal this earth. Nobody is evil, there is NO EVIL. I am Love and you are Love. I am here to tell you that you have to STOP NOW!!!” And then I felt it, this HUGE ocean of Consciousness, I was somehow feeling it, but I’m still not aware of it, I just remotely sensed it. And emerging from this sensing, my sense of identitiy COMPLETELY DISSOLVED for a few minutes. I and the ONLY thing I was feeling was INFINITE ABUNDANCE. I AM HERE TO LOVE YOU ALL. I HAVE SUFFERED AND HATED MYSELF FOR SO LONG, and now I AM LOVE. NOW I HAVE ENOUGH LOVE FOR EVERYBODY. I WANT TO GIVE MY LOVE TO EARTH, and heal all the damaged and lost, but ESPECIALLY I want to heal the “evil ones”. Because they are not evil. They are our brothers and sisters. They LOVE US!!!! And we. Love. Them. There is no enemy, It’s all an illusion!!! Stop fighting!! You are killing your own blood!!! THEY ARE YOUR SIBLINGS!!! …. … After a long period of crying and mouring, I returned to my feeling of abundance and love for life. Life is safe. We are here to ensure life on earth. We are waking up, because we are all siblings and we cannot forget our blood bonding. Earth is safe. Because my Love for it is eternal. We all love Earth. We will save earth. And dance. And sing. And make love. And smile. And… war will be over. It’s our calling. We are here to save us all from our IGNORANCE!!! INNOCENCE IS POWER. ARROGANCE IS IGNORANCE. I AM PURE, for an abundant child needs NO war. Only through the LIE of separation and DIFFERENCE we are fighting each other. We are Love. We promise you, that Earth is safe. There is no evil power on the universe capable of stopping US. Cause WE are children of Source. I am sooooo… soooo happy now. I’ve never been so happy in my ENTIRE LIFE!!!! We are safe, because we are Love and Wisdom. That’s all, for the little and humble and ignorant soul I am. I appreciate your attention and Love. By the way, attention is Love, that’s why negative thoughts manifest negative realities in your life ******** BEST RESOURCES I RECOMMEND (a part from Leo, of course <3 ********* Eckhart Tolle (on Wisdom) Esther Hicks (on Wisdom and the nature of emotions/vibrations) Rumi’s poems – Huge mix of wisdom and deep love I was an atheist, but I would totally say >>>> Jesus Balance the exaggerated Love from Jesus with some Wisdom from Eckhart or Esther, or Leo (who’s more inclined towards wisdom, while I seem to be more geared towards love). Read methaphysics. A lot. Understand reality and how the physical realm is just a projection, a MANIFESTATION of your own state of internal evolution. Neville Goddard – Yes, I deeply love him. He was a pure soul enamored with God and with giving you the right to be YOU!!!! Read Neville!!!! He loves you so much!!!!! He has spent his whole life seeking metaphysics and God through manifestation and through service to others. ------ I Love You All. So Much. We Are all the same Blood. This Blood is of the colors of the whole rainbow! We are linked by this beautiful blood!!! Stop shedding it. We All Love Us. “What you seek is seeking you” - Rumi

I've seen it just now. It's absolutely beautiful.

Thank you so much ??? This is just the first of a thousand dives into Source, I guess To me it's soooo MASSIVE, Leo! ?

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I've read two books by Esther and Jerry, and here's my personal take on their "spiritist" experience. I think that Esther just had a quick awakening, a simple form of enlightenment, which she described as "talking to Abraham". Reading her books she speaks a lot about enlightened truths, and she is aware of the united Consciousness which explains the law of attraction (everything is consciousness). I believe that there was no "spirits" talking to her, just a spiritual awakening she could not explain. What's your opinion?

Yeah, even though I still believe that Abraham is just Consciousness personified, I've had an instant click with her style, because emotions and the mind are my weak spots and strong spots at the same time. So, learning about a philosophy of well-being and emotional growth has fascinated me and made me realize that it's not the goals that matter, but you own happiness and fullness of living. She made me realize that it's not the object that matters but the emotional treasure that we seek in happiness. Of course I still crave the results, and I won't ditch them, but I am realizing how the "results" are just a physical picture of what you are on the inside. Very shocking.

Hey thanks for asking. In fact I believe that you appeared because I feel more positive in these days I've read Esther Hicks in this past month and she resonates a lot with me. Because she's not achievement oriented but rather happiness oriented. I've started practicing one week and a half ago, and for now the only results are that I feel happier, and I start to see how many good things I have in my life. I think it's early for results, but.. I don't know. I am more in tune with my feelings and I am starting to feel worthiness for what I want to achieve/change in life. No physical results, but strangely I feel like "i am there" in different moments of my day. It's REALLY weird. I am used to feel happy only after the results. Sometimes not even after them P. S. I'm also continuing my shadow work, and more and more negative ghosts are arising and slowly disappearing. But sometimes I feel a heavy heavy weight on my throat and after some days it disappears.

@Leo Gura Interesting I don't have any knowledge about spiritism and channeling. But do you think she's at least partially enlightened too?

Yeah, I just mean that I'm not experienced with conscious, deliberate creation the actual techniques of LoA.

Thanks Well, my vision papers are already written down. I've spent days writing what I want out of my job opportunities, the satisfaction, the atmosphere etc... But I need to implement the visualizations, or the "vision pages" won't do much, aside from getting the picture of what I want clear. Visualization makes the emotions and the positive vibes engraved in the subconscious, thus shifting your reality. I was asking because a "random" visualization, in my opinion, is very scattered and messy, while a more "scripted" scene, that is truthful to the written description, is the best to move into your new reality. I don't have much experience with LoA and the subconscious, sorry.

@Nahm P.S. I've used in the past a visualization to become better at my job's phone calls, and it worked. But in this instance I've used always the same "scripted" scene.

@Nahm something I never understood about visualization and LoA. Let's say I want a nicer job. Should I keep on visualizing the SAME scene? For example: me arriving at the office, happy and in harmony with my work and colleagues, and starting my monday fullfilled. Or should I always freestyle a new visualization on the theme, with different scenes each time I sit to visualize? That's what I don't get about LoA and visualizations. Should they be "scripted" or always freestyled on inspiration?

Watch this video I'm really confused about this topic, because in my life I've seen both examples of girls liking nice guys and girls wanting only the bad boys. But A LOT of surveys and interview (like this one) bring a HUGE amount of points to the bad guys. Why are women so attracted to bad boys, to the point that they consciously decide to chase them? I think this goes very deep in the problem of reconciling the sexes, because if women truly want these guys we can't get along as men and women. Because the relationships that girls seem to want are based on conflict, ignoring, emotional starving, and power play. What's your opinion?

@Nahm beautiful and powerful explanation. Thanks!

But is the LoA able to manifest things out of your physical control? For example meeting by chance your perfect girl or finding your perfect job opportunity? Those things that common people call "luck". Or is it just a "self help" law, which dictates that thinking positive makes you more productive? That's what I don't understand. Is it spiritual or just behavioral in nature?

Thanks for the replies. So what are the best techniques to make it work in your favour? The book I read just talks about the law in general, not the specific best techniques.

I follow some dating and pickup coaches, and they keep saying that in the recent years relationships are dying and people just want to have casual sex and remain single and selfish. Especially in the pickup scene they keep saying that women don't want relationships anymore, because they're a burden and a nuisance for their fun single life. Is this a result of society transitioning to SD stage green? Why are we moving towards isolation and superficial sex if society is supposed to increase love and a sense of acceptance/community? Why are women becoming like the asshole stereotype who just wants sex? Share your insights. Especially girls

Well, of course stage orange is shallow on sex, but from what I can see stage green ideologies tend to push women onto casual sex and open relationships, not intimate ones. Nothing against that, if a woman wants to do it. I'm just saying that it's killing the possibilities of connecting deeper with a partner.