RendHeaven

I don't know if I'm willing to take this as a universal, but I can nonetheless attest to viewing this phenomenon in action.

This is a much easier problem, and slightly derailing the topic at hand. The moment women stop confusing their sexual market value with their relationship market value is the moment when this "struggling" greatly reduces. The problem here is that women are delusional about their relationship market value, confusing it with their sexual market value which is much higher, hence disappointment and suffering. And if you had any empathy towards these struggling women, perhaps you wouldn't peddle pick-up advice so willy-nilly, since all the ideologies behind it promote more casual sex - which of course lowers the relationship market value of women. And men to some extent also. I'm not saying it cannot be used for relationship purposes - but be honest. The more casual sex a woman has had, the vast majority of men will see them as having lower relationship value. An easy girl seems to have the same relationship value as a wimp guy has sexual value. Because the easy girl is a threat to his reproductive and survival purposes, just as the wimp guy is a threat to the girls reproductive and survival purposes. Hoooooooly crap you are dense lol yeah because the post is framed in such a twisted way, it doesn't deserve serious intellectual scrutiny. pretty much

*and a man who does not get laid(?)

"Most often attention is confused with a kind of muscular effort. If one says to one's pupils: 'Now you must pay attention,' one sees them contracting their brows, holding their breath, stiffening their muscles. If after two minutes they are asked what they have been paying attention to, they cannot reply. They have been concentrating on nothing. They have not been paying attention. They have been contracting their muscles. We often expend this kind of muscular effort on our studies. As it ends by making us tired, we have the impression that we have been working. That is an illusion. Tiredness has nothing to do with work. Work itself is the useful effort, whether it is tiring or not. This kind of muscular effort in work is entirely barren, even if it is made with the best of intentions. Good intentions in such cases are among those that pave the way to hell. Studies conducted in such a way can sometimes succeed academically from the point of view of gaining marks and passing examinations, but that is in spite of the effort and thanks to natural gifts; moreover, such studies are never of any use. Will power, the kind that, if need be, makes us set our teeth and endure suffering, is the principal weapon of the apprentice engaged in manual work. But contrary to the usual belief, it has practically no place in study. The intelligence can only be led by desire. For there to be desire, there must be pleasure and joy in the work. The intelligence only grows and bears fruit in joy. The joy of learning is as indispensable in study as breathing is in running. Where it is lacking there are no real students, but only poor caricatures of apprentices who, at the end of their apprenticeship, will not even have a trade. It is the part played by joy in our studies that makes of them a preparation for spiritual life, for desire directed toward God is the only power capable of raising the soul. Or rather, it is God alone who comes down and possesses the soul, but desire alone draws God down. He only comes to those who ask him to come; and he cannot refuse to come to those who implore him long, often, and ardently. Attention is an effort, the greatest of all efforts perhaps, but it is a negative effort. Of itself, it does not involve tiredness. When we become tired, attention is scarcely possible anymore, unless we have already had a good deal of practice. It is better to stop working altogether, to seek some relaxation, and then a little later to return to the task; we have to press on and loosen up alternately, just as we breathe in and out. Twenty minutes of concentrated, untired attention is infinitely better than three hours of the kind of frowning application that leads us to say with a sense of duty done: 'I have worked well!' But, in spite of all appearances, it is also far more difficult. Something in our soul has a far more violent repugnance for true attention than the flesh has for bodily fatigue. This something is much more closely connected with evil than is the flesh. That is why every time that we really concentrate our attention, we destroy the evil in ourselves. If we concentrate with this intention, a quarter of an hour of attention is better than a great many good works. Attention consists of suspending our thought, leaving it detached, empty, and ready to be penetrated by the object; it means holding in our minds, within reach of this thought, but on a lower level and not in contact with it, the diverse knowledge we have acquired which we are forced to make use of. Our thought should be in relation to all particular and already formulated thoughts, as a man on a mountain who, as he looks forward, sees also below him, without actually looking at them, a great many forests and plains. Above all our thought should be empty, waiting, not seeking anything, but ready to receive in its naked truth the object that is ready to penetrate it. All wrong translations, all absurdities in geometry problems, all clumsiness of style, and all faulty connection of ideas in compositions and essays, all such things are due to the fact that thought has seized upon some idea too hastily and being thus prematurely blocked, is not open to the truth. The cause is always that we have wanted to be too active; we have wanted to carry out a search. This can be proved every time, for every fault, if we trace it to its root. There is no better exercise than such a tracing down of our faults, for this truth is one to be believed only when we have experienced it hundreds and thousands of times. This is the way with all essential truths. We do not obtain the most precious gifts by going in search of them but by waiting for them. We cannot discover them by our own powers, and if we set out to seek for them we will find in their place counterfeits of which we will be unable to discern the falsity. The solution of a geometry problem does not in itself constitute a precious gift, but the same law applies to it because it is the image of something precious. Being a little fragment of particular truth, it is a pure image of the unique, eternal, and living Truth, the very Truth that once in a human voice declared: 'I am the Truth.'" - Simone Weil, a Christian Mystic. Passage taken from her book, Love in the Void: Where God Finds Us

Beautiful soul-searching ^.^ I can relate to each struggle and emotion you've painted here.

Beautiful progress

I mean if you read my journal I basically wrote that I've suffered my whole life because that is exactly what I deeply desired - to bask in the beautiful richness of my own suffering. Now that's crazy! But not "crazy" in any bad way. It's all perspective. Each perspective ought to be honored and validated for the sheer fact that it is existing - Let's gently pet that dismissive voice that gaslights us into invalidating our own experiences - as though it were a rebellious, grumpy little kitten or puppy - until it is re-contextualized into its natural state of playful joy. Crazy & proud ^.^

This is conjecture

Remember to lick with Self-Love

"I" am at the point in my journey where "I" phase in-and-out of identification with separate self. Counterintuitively, absolutely nothing is lost when you stop identifying with separate self. You don't suddenly become a crazy person, nor do you become incapable of doing societal or human functions. Be careful, this is not a mere "philosophy." It's not a new identity to take on - Rather, this is simply what remains in the absence of philosophic belief or thought. Oneness cannot be dysfunctional because it is Truth.

The Ultimate "step" is of course to Let Go. But that only comes after/along with Acceptance. So don't waste your time with affirmations that don't bring about genuine Acceptance. But as long as your affirmations do bring about genuine Acceptance, then you're all good! What matters more is the place it's coming from, rather than the activity itself

@Proserpina That sounds like a serious gift. I'm sorry nobody else is honoring it Everyone else is busy focusing on themselves - can you bring yourself to forgive them for that?

Are you willing to share more?

Yes - he said all of the "right things" to manipulate you. That is the nature of good manipulation lol. If there was authentic love between you two, he wouldn't have to bribe you with "sacrifice."

The fact that you have a manipulating snake slithering in front of you and yet you need the forum to tell you to run away - as though that were not obvious - is kinda cute.

look where leo started LOL.

This whole journal is so beautiful. And oh my God those wordless photos!

LOL

Of all the "fake" meat brands, I like Gardein the best. Specifically their "meatless crumbles." Minimal ingredients, still tastes good. Totally destroys something like beyond burgers lol. That beings said, it's still relatively unhealthier than unprocessed foods. Just eat well-cooked seasoned tofu lol

@Absolute Haha what makes you say that?

I know with unwavering intuitive certainty that Leo's most recent 2 hour video was ALL about damage control. Leo knows, as do I, that all beings are imagined, Likewise with "physical death." So if anyone is to have compassion for Sunny's in-the-moment jumping experience, it ought to be Leo! Sunny's actions (from the stories we heard) were done out of Love. He literally killed himself for Love. This is, in a certain sense, in-line with Leo's teachings - and I think Leo knows this. Except Leo simply cannot ever admit any of this for the social survival of Actualized.org. He has his entire life's work to protect. And so, protect he will. In his recent video, Leo furiously draws the line between "ego death" and "physical death" - advocating for the former and not the latter - despite, according to him, the two ultimately being the same - and then proceeds to label anyone going for the latter as a "misinterpreting fool." To be clear - I'm not advocating for physical suicide myself, for social reasons. What I am advocating for though, is a recognition of Sunny's Love - and we must un-label him as a "misinterpreting fool" if we are to do this. --- P.S. if it sounds like I am glorifying death here, in a certain sense I am. What Sunny did was beautiful. To call it ugly or wrong is itself the misinterpretation! But I can only say this personally because I understand the ineffable perfection of the cycle of life and death. I dare not say this straight-faced to someone living from survival-bias (out of compassion!) I write as I do here, because of the context I heard - that Sunny died willingly and happily. Please, let's honor this. Regarding the family members - this one is tricky. My heart extends out to them, for their suffering is undeniable. And who am I to tell them that "Sunny's death was not only illusory, but also beautiful"? - even if this is The Truth? Rather, I bite my lip - and share condolences, for that is what my heart says is the necessary public expression for this occasion. What a weird position to be in! I believe Leo understands this. The only difference being, Leo additionally has a collective ego to uphold. So that's where his focus is.

bahaha

You're begging the question. You take "separate conscious experiences" so utterly for granted that you fall hook line and sinker for the illusion. "Separate conscious experiences" are an assumption. Necessarily. It must be. You have zero way to verify them, because you are unable to "step outside" of "your own" conscious experience and into "some else's." YOU are actually the one speculating. If you really Knew that I Am [The Reality], you would be unable to assert the text I've highlighted in bold. You would simply stop at "I Am. Infinite Imagination." There would be no more "from my point of view," no more "I am 'the reality'," no more "you appear to be my [imagination]," no more "but I would know that you are not right," and no more "solipsism"

You will rise up one day, I know you will.