Leo Gura

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Don't start with 5-MeO. Start with something easier like LSD or mushrooms. Your chronic fatigue isn't an issue. Her heart condition is an issue for 5-MeO. But it should be okay with LSD and mushrooms because they don't raise heart rate in my experience. Of course, take fully responsibility for your health and your choices. This is not medical advice.

@Marinus That's gonna be tough to unwire without some psychedelics. They are the perfect tool for the job. I'd go to a music festival and let loose with some LSD if I were you.

@Joseph Maynor For you, yes Don't worry, they will come back. Life goes on, even after enlightenment. Lots of enlightened folks are also deeply intellectual. You just gotta divide and conquer this thing first. Of course a lot of mental masturbation will fall away. But that should actually trim the fat off your intellectual pursuits and make it very potent. Why waste time studying bullshit? These days, a lot of books or papers I can't even be bothered to read, or some people I can't bother to listen to, because it's just such bullshit after you experience nonduality.

@herghly I like the idea of plugging N,N-DMT the most. It should be the best ROA from what I've researched. But I have yet to verify that myself. Plugging requires salt form. Don't be plugging freebase. I don't like idea of smoking DMT because the vaporization method is inconsistent and tricky. Although I'm sure once you master the method, will be fine. But then you've still got weird nasty smoke smells and I don't know how healthy it is for your lungs. I try to stick to the cleanest, simplest, healthiest, most accurate, and most painless ROAs. Why make something harder than it can be? Just because other people are doing it?

@SuperLuigi No mastery process is linear. Just the opposite. See my video called Mastery. Read the book Mastery by George Leonard.

Yes, you still have lots of control. But your desires, fears, concerns, and inhibitions will change. For example, you might decide to walk out the front door with your dick hanging out. Because you won't care, or think it's funny. Under mushrooms, you will no longer be yourself. You will be much more authentic, childlike, and animal-like. You will start to move like a monkey. You will feel a pleasant but somewhat odd intoxication. It's a remarkable experience. At higher doses, you will get so totally mindfucked you will forget that reality ever existed. Mushrooms work in waves and they will temporary suck you into very deep hypnotic-like trances. They will fuck with you sense of time and memory.

Yes, at high doses you'll go fully nondual. But mushrooms are twisted. So your mind will struggle to fully understand what is happening. 5-MeO is more clear and direct, and much deeper, much faster.

That's what the LSD is for

Martin Ball has done lots of both. He describes them both in his autobiography. The 5-MeO is more intense from what I understand. Much of the intensity of ayahausca has to do with the vomiting and nausea, and the whole ordeal of doing it in a ceremonial setting. 5-MeO is a more pure mind-fuck. It's so intense because it's so direct. You go from 0 to infinity in 10 minutes with no bullshit in between.

I haven't done it. It's a nasty brew to drink. Why go through all that when I can take 99% N,N-DMT and avoid all the vomiting? Ayahuasca doesn't make sense to me. It makes sense for natives in the Amazon to take it because they don't have access to pure chemicals. I'm sure the Ayahuasca ceremony is cool and all, but I prefer to trip solo. I don't need a bunch of chimps vomiting on me and losing their shit. Ayahuasca is good for people who don't have access to anything else, or if you're interested in studying shamanism.

@VadsterLobster That is the nature of the beast. This work requires enormous self-discipline and focus. You can slowly build up momentum over time. For this reason, it really helps to do week-long full-time meditation retreats. It's hard to have any breakthroughs with stop-and-go inquiry. You really need 100 hours straight sometimes. But even so, a daily practice is essential. Aim to do at least 30-60 mins every day. AND then a few retreats per year.

@herghly I doubt there is much 5-meo in ayahausca. 5-MeO is very difficult -- almost impossible to extract from plants without sophisticated lab equipment. It's a very heat-sensitive molecule. Most plants which contain DMT also have 5-MeO, but the 5-MeO gets lost in the extraction/cooking process. I think what's being meant is Yopo seeds, which contain some 5-MeO and have been crushed into snuffs for thousands of years in South America. Still the unextracted Yopo seeds are a poor method of administration because you'd need to snort up to 1 gram of powder, which is a very nasty ordeal. Yopo seeds are also mostly Bufotinine. There are no pure, concentrated forms of 5-MeO that we've found in nature so far. The toad is the closest thing we got, but even that is largely bufotinine, especially if it's not smoked. There is also Vilca resin, which contains 5-MeO and is traditional chewed. 99% pure 5-MeO the most awesome thing ever. If there's one thing in life worth doing, this is it, by a long shot. Pure God.

@SFRL The child is closer to non-symbolic, non-conceptual modes of consciousness, yes, but not enlightened. If you think back to when you were a kid, you were more conscious back then in many ways than you are right now. Your ability to BE was pretty significant back then. Not so now, because your mind has been filled with ideas, theories, teachings, goals, culture, science, opinions, desires, fears, expectations, logic, language, reason, etc.

@Marinus Sounds like you need to go to a party, get drunk, and get laid Don't get so spiritual you forget that spirituality is found everywhere, including at drunk parties. Of course festivals as a lifestyle isn't helpful to consciousness work. But they can be helpful in taking the stick out of one's ass

@egoless Don't worry too much about it. Just start with a tiny dose in a comfortable setting on an empty stomach.

Personally, I consume all kinds of teachings simultaneously, dual and nondual alike. The scope of life is so enormous that no one teaching, not even one category of teaching, can cover it. But if you're really focused on enlightenment, it might be a good idea to only focus on nondual teachings for a while to build your momentum and reduce distractions.

@spicy_pickles There can be no relationship without: A) Open lines of communication B) Boundaries He can be as neurotic as he wants, but you must be able to establish open, honest, safe channels of communication with him and have him understand your boundaries if there is to be any hope between you to. If he is unable to communicate or unwilling to respect basic boundaries, treating you with respect, then the relationship is already dead and there is no saving it. Sit down with him and bring up this meta-issue. If he cannot grasp it and agree that these two elements are critical to your relationship, then it's time to end it. This is not an issue about him changing or growing, it's an issue about whether there can exist a relationship at all. As for your own development, you need to sit down and get very clear and precise with yourself about what your boundaries are. What are you willing to compromise on? What is non-negotiable? Yes, the reason guys abuse you is because you aren't strong enough in enforcing boundaries, and they smell it. It's very easy to smell. Once he's smelled it, he will not respect you, treating you like a doormat for his ego.

@PetarKa Awesome! I'll cover Kurt Godel and Alfred Tarkski's discoveries in some future episode.

@Pristinemn That's what happens when you take on truth as belief. The fact is, in your direct experience you feel and act like you have free will. The only reason you say you don't have free will is because you're parroting some words you heard someone else say. So you didn't actually have any true insight into the matter, you're just pretending like you have. And of course, by pretending, you've now shot yourself in the foot. A pretend insight != a real insight You assume that power and free will are necessary "to do what I want to do, to be disciplined, to change, to achieve anything, to increase my baseline of happiness, etc." -- but this is a false assumption. EVERYTHING that's ever happened to you was done without free will. So there's no problem. You can climb Mt Everest will no free will. You can win an Olympic medal with no free will. You can decide to shoot yourself in the head with no free will. Rather than adopting new beliefs which clearly are not true in your experience, be honest about whatever you most feel is true in your direct experience. Which means, go back to thinking you have free will, because that's what's actually true for you. You act like you have it, so stop lying to yourself about that. Self-honesty is the first step to eventually reaching Truth. Stop bullshitting yourself. You believe you're a self! You believe you were born and you will die. Start by accepting that! For you, "no-self" is just a fantasy idea. Something you read in a book. If you read a book that told you you were a kangaroo, you'd be here lamenting, "Oh no!!!!! Woe is me! I'm a kangaroo. How am I supposed to live with myself now? Please help, I'm having an existential kangaroo crisis. How am I supposed to hold on to a job if I'm a kangaroo???" Bottom line, stop trying to act enlightened if you ain't actually enlightened. The path to enlightenment is quicker when you admit to yourself that you're an egotistical bastard and you're damn proud of it, and you know nothing else.

Yes, of course. Which is why masterful sages sit in silence and don't say anything at all. The only reason they talk is because you cannot understand silence. All words you utter are false. All opinions you hold are nonsense. Reality just is. The ultimate aim is no-mind. Sadhguru once said that some scientists once hooked him up to a brainwave machine to measure his meditation brainwaves. The machine showed nothing. He is clinically brain dead. When he sits, it's literally no-mind. If you could stop your mind, your journey would be over. You would have arrived in paradise.

A) Because it's ingrained in our language. All language is inherently dualistic, so it can't really be avoided without talking like a robot. B) Because you still think of yourself as a you. It does little good speaking to person stuck in duality from a nondual perspective. Whenever I speak, I like to speak as though I'm speaking directly to you, from your perspective. C) Because you do exist, as The One True Self. Existence vs non-existence is yet another duality. So anything we say on this subject is always wrong. If you say you exist, you're wrong. If you say you don't exist, you're wrong. If you say you both exist and don't exist, you're wrong. If you say you neither exist nor don't exist, you're wrong. And of course, you're also right

@momo Why play a video game? You know before you start playing it that you're gonna eventually stop playing it. Why have sex? You know before you start that you will stop. Why go on a vacation? You know before you start that you will come back home at the end. Everything you've ever done in your life has been pointless. You just weren't conscious of it. Pointlessness doesn't stop you from living. It just robs you of a certain kind of fantasy about life. It makes you aware of your mortality and the fleeting nature of reality.

@SFRL You are always zero steps off from enlightenment. It's right here, right now! That's the problem. It is so close, it's too close and obvious for the mind to grasp. The mind is always 1 step removed, but enlightenment demands 0 steps removed, so you're stuck not able to see it, even though it's right here in this very word. Enlightenment is NOT a state. Every step you make towards enlightenment is already 1 step too much, which is why you're not finding it. Enlightenment is that which is true under all conditions, all states, all situations, all times. Enlightenment was present before you were born, it's present right now, and it will be present after the entire universe ends. It's the one thing that doesn't change: Nothing. You cannot reach Nothing through any thing, technique, state, or process. Nothing is always here. You either grasp it, or you don't.

@username A big part of this path is teaching yourself new ways to relate to ordinary life again. To struggle through the reconciliation of that is half the work. Not caring about things may be a genuine purification, or a trap. You'll have to fumble around with that until it becomes clear to you which is which. Now maybe you can start to understand why people have been turning and living as monks and ascetics for thousands of years. First you become conscious, then you ask, "Okay, what do I really want out of life?" Until you're deeply conscious, asking what you want out of life is sketchy business. Your wants are corrupted through and through by ego and culture. You're not deeply conscious yet, you're just starting to taste it, so of course the transition will be rocky, and your answer to that question will not yet be rock solid. You gotta learn how to chew gum and walk at the same time. You gotta learn how to pursue enlightenment but still function effectively within everyday life. It's not easy. It feels schizophrenic at times. Or you choose to become a full-time monk.