Leo Gura

That is not going to address depression, friends will only mask it. There is nothing wrong with friends, but they will not solve any existential problems for you.

Stuff has been delayed as I focus on my own development so that I can better serve in the long run.

The wisest people use Bitcoin to acquire the Holy Grail

That's good. But that's peanuts compared to what I'm talking about. Quantity of meditation alone is not enough. You must do more than meditate, you must deconstruct and become conscious of how ego runs your entire life from sunrise to sunset. You must infuse consciousness into your thinking process and your emoting. Make sure you watch my The 10 Ox Herding Pictures video. It's very important for people like you.

No, this is false. Look carefully at the present moment. It has no suffering in it. Suffering is ALL mind. Stop fucking around, stop playing mind games, and observe how your mind is creating suffering. You ARE doing it! Notice this. Your mind is subtly interpreting and projecting negative meaning onto the present moment. You must look carefully to spot yourself doing this. From now on, every time you feel bad, you ask yourself "How am I creating this feeling? What must I believe to feel this way? What must I think to feel this way?" I can tell you exactly what happened to you. You got lucky and caught a solid glimpse of the Ox because my video blindsided your ego. It hit you out of blue, thus bypassing many egoic defense mechanisms. But your mind did not have a solid enough foundation to permanently hold this insight. The ego figured out a way to reassert itself and now it has doubled its defense mechanisms. It will not allow another easy, lucky break. Now you're gonna have to work for it. My guess is you are depressed because you want that enlightenment back and yet you don't know how go get it back. You thought catching a glimpse of the Ox was gonna solve all your problems and make life peachy without any serious spiritual work. And now you are starting to see that was just a fantasy. This is why you're depressed. But the truth is, you just got lucky. It was never really gonna hold because you have not done almost any work decontructing that big fat ego. You cannot be enlightened and maintain all of your habitual daily egoic manipulations, beliefs, attitudes, etc. All of that needs to be broken down piece by piece. You need to undo yourself and your life. The way you carry yourself every minute of every day IS ego! All of your emtional reactions and thought patterns must be purified through patient observation and contemplation. Stop thinking of enlightenment as a magic pill. You must also become deeply conscious of your daily actions, thoughts, and emotions. Enlightnement is only likely to stick if your entire mind is deconstructed. So cheer up and begin that procees. Cheer up because you were even so lucky as to get a 10 day glimpse. That takes most people YEARS of work. You got it for free. Yes, finding God and then losing God is very frustrating. But also totally normal and common in this work. Awaking up is not like flipping a light switch, it's more like a kid playing with a light switch, flickering it on and off many many times.

What people fail to get is that consciousness isn't a thing, it is nothing. If you think of consciousness as a thing, as a substance, as experiential phenomena, as form, or as a state, then it will seem that there is something prior to consciousness. But really there is not. If you hold that there is 1) consciousness, and 2) something prior to it, that's two things! Which is duality. Regardless of which labels you wish to use, in the end your ultimate understanding of reality better contain only 1 thing! Otherwise it's still a subtle duality. The most important thing is to realize ONENESS, and why it cannot be anything but ONE. Whatever you choose to call that ONE is then a matter of style. "Consciousness" and "awareness" are very tricky words. Be careful what you assume about these words. Consciousness and awareness are not what you assume they are. You will only appreciate that at the moment of enlightenment. Psychedelics help suss out what consciousness really is and how it behaves.

You would want to use a salt form, not freebase. Most N,N-DMT is freebase. But I have seen salt versions of it. If your N,N-DMT is unspecified, it's freebase. You have to go out of your way to find salt. The dose would also be significantly larger than 5-MeO-DMT. It will defintely be less comfortable sticking 100mg+ of chemical in your ass.

WTF is this title? Change it. No clickbait here.

Watch my What Is Love? video. There is a lot there. Really contemplate each point.

It's not the size that counts but how you use it Then again, maybe whales are swimming around contemplating the nature of reality.

@Dingo Lol, I said right above that BitCoin's stage depends on the person using it. Last year's BitCoin bubble was a stage Orange phenomenon. But of course there is more to BitCoin than speculation.

@Charlotte Fuck indeed. And don't forget the most important thing you know and love: yourself! Nothing you know about yourself is real. It's all a costume. Even the idea that you were born, is a story. You were never physically born. You arose as the story of you. One day the thought appeared: "I was born" and because this thought was never questioned, it became the basis of your entire reality. Then to that core fiction you slowly added all the rest of that you think of as yourself and your persona. In childhood, in school you built up the story of yourself and the world. Yes, fear, vulnerability, hurt, sadness... all of those are tools of the ego-mind to prevent self-reflection. It's okay to feel whatever feelings arise. But do notice, they are yet more manipulations. Manipulations on top of manipulations. Consider, if all your manipulations stopped, you would cease to exist. Which would be enlightenment. All this is a lot to stomach. Stay with it. It will be worth it in the end.

I have said exactly the same thing in my Becoming A Zen Devil video and The 10 Ox Herding Pictures video. Most people half-ass spirituality due to piss-poor theoretical foundation. This is common with shallow Neo-Advaita style teachings. When it comes to theory, you're damned if you do and damned if you don't. But I would rather have too much than too little. Technically, a Zen Devil is one who practices Zen with no theory.

@OrpheusNovum Then go follow a teacher whose direction you agree with. You are not here with an open mind, so there is no helping you. These games you're playing are just a waste of time.

@OrpheusNovum You sir are a devil, and your BS is as transparent as the cloudless sky.

It's clear this thread is gonna devolve into devilry. @Enlightened Be here to learn. I have my eye on you.

To be clear, this is nothing against you, or particular to you. This is the entire dynamic of life: using stories, concepts, and emotions to manipulate yourself into staying alive. This is what survival is all about. So whether you have dreams or don't, you're doing it. Whether your thoughts and emotions are positive or negative, you're doing it. Even when you feel happy or excited, it's a subtle egoic manipulation. The ego has co-opted the entire experience of life and turned it into a means towards self-perpetuation. Unraveling the inner workings of the ego-mind is a complex and tricky affair. A good place to start is to notice how every thought, every emotion, and every reaction you have, all day long, is somehow a subtle manipulation of yourself to act the way the devilish ego-mind wants. It takes a lot of patient observation of your thoughts, emotions, and reactions to start to see the full scope of what ego is doing. So start observing. You can contemplate questions like: Why do I have emotions at all? What is the point of them? Why do I have thoughts at all? What is their purpose? Why do I hold somethings as positive and others as negative? What is the point of positive and negative? Why am I motivated to do the things I do? What is the point of motivation and why does it exist? Why do I hold some things as meaningful while others not? What is the point of meaning? Why do I create it? Of course the ego-mind will vehemently resist and deflect all such questioning. Your survival agenda does not want to be questioned. Start looking at EVERYTHING that transpires in your experience of life as a deliberate egoic self-manipulation. Everything in your experience at all times is the ego trying to survive. This survival is not merely about physical life and death, it's extremely sophisticated. What's being survived in not a physical being, but a conceptual construct: the story of YOU. You -- the ego -- is like a giant living story which is writing itself every minute of its life. Any interference with this writing is perceived as threatening and therefore demonized and rejected.

What is it you want? Are you here to learn or are you here to school me? It is the mark of a devil to walk into a classroom and proceed to school the teacher. Drop the ego games.

An intimate honest relationship, lol. Consider what it would be like to be in an intimate relationship with a woman with no sex involved. Remove sex from the equation for just a minute.

@kieranperez Daygame works in big cities. You can approach girls on the sidewalk, cafes, malls, grocery stores, etc.

I see pickup as Red/Orange. There's also a variety of different kinds of guys doing pickup. The worst ones are Redish, the best ones are Orange but starting to transition into Green.

@Jamesc Haven't you wondered, if Being could be modeled as you are trying to do, wouldn't it have been done by now and everyone agreed to the model? Why might Being be unmodelable?

That's usually how it goes. That's a glimpse of the Ox's tail. An important milestone but far from the end. The ego-mind is not prepared to handle the magnitude of what it discovers. That takes much more work. The ego-mind has to be slowly deconstructed piece by piece so that it's capable of staying in the light of nondual consciousness. You cannot stabilize in nondual consciousness and maintain all of your old devilish egoic modes of thinking, reacting, judging, interpreting, etc. It really helps to pull out a journal and start deconstructing your deepest beliefs about life, yourself, and reality.

Infinity and the present moment are real we might say, since they are Absolutes. But you are not conscious of Infinity nor even the present moment right now. So as far as you're concerned, nothing you know is real. Accessing the real takes a lot of mindfulness practice. Right now you are lost in the conceptual fantasies and projections of your own mind. Try becoming conscious of what the present moment is, minus all of your mental projections, meanings, beliefs, assumptions, interpretations, stories, judgments, emotions, etc. Try to "feel" what that is. Try to notice that NOW is an Absolute. It is not inside of time (time is a concept). NOW is prior to time. Time occurs inside of NOW. But what is NOW? Take a close long look. After all, it's always NOW! And Infinity is precisely identical to what is happening right NOW.

Don't swarm Joe. That's actually going to be counter-productive. If he wants me, he knows how to invite me.