Leo Gura

@Hardkill Your mistake it trying to make friends through online cold-calling. Friends are not made that way. Go out into the real world and put your balls on the line. You are basically spamming people to be your friend, which looks really weak, so of course they don't respond back. You should not be using online for building connection/attraction. The proper use of text messages and the like is to facilitate real-life meetings which you've already had in the past and want more of in the future. They are not to be used as a substitute for face-to-face.

1) How many ug's was each of your tabs? They can vary a lot. Purity can also vary. Some tabs can be weak. You should aim for about 125ug tabs. 2) LSD has at least 1 week of tolerance build-up, so tripping twice in one week will make your second trip much less. So doubling those tabs probably had the same effect of 1 tab. 3) You may have natural tolerance to it, requiring higher doses. 4) Clearly your mind is full of impurities, which is why you get into this bad trip territory. All of that psychological baggage needs to be worked through so you are free to tackle the serious existential questions like God, Truth, and Love.

Important Note: I'm not claiming any of the following is true. It might all be false. The following material requires extreme openmindedness and nuanced discernment, which many people reading this may not have. So don't blame me for bringing you something "crazy". That said, if you really want to strain your brain, read the following book (available here for free as PDF). This gives you a little taste of the periphery of spiritually and how much stuff you still need to explain in your worldview aside from nonduality. Again, my purpose here is to encourage radical openmindedness, big-picture thinking, and research. Not to convince you of any particular point of view. Nor do I claim that I believe all of it. Think of this more as an exercise in radically new ways of seeing the world. The reason I post this, is because I see people getting cocky about how much they think they understand reality. And I want you to be open to the possibility that there's a lot you don't understand. I of course include myself in this. And I want you to see the lengths I go to to keep my mind open, yet still rational and common-sensical. To me, openmindedness is no mere platitude, but an active, alive, everyday way of life. I recommend you start reading from page 69. And challenge yourself to finish at least all of Book I. Enjoy! And don't get lost down the rabbit hole

"Within me", "out there", and "another person" are thoughts. You cannot use thought to grasp thought any more than you can use a knife to cut itself. Sit in silence and observe thoughts arising.

Universal Mind knows all. It's just a question of how good are you at accessing it? Some people are born extra talented in this department. My guess is, they have special brain types which process things a bit differently.

Not at all. Heavy metals are present all over the place: food, water, drinks, cosmetics, shampoo, toothpaste, spices, etc. It all adds up over your lifetime. Especially if you eat fish. There is no safe limit for heavy metals. Even a little bit hurts.

That are dozens of possible causes. Reseach it. A big one is heavy metal toxicity. Heavy metals seriously impair mental function.

That challenge makes a mockery of the paranormal. It's not real science, it's garbage meant to validate materialism. Here's my challenge to Randi: smoke 30mg of 5-MeO-DMT.

You are free to use words however you want, of course, but don't be surprized when confusion results and people disagree with you.

You make a mockery of the things I say. What I said and what you think I said are two different things. And your understanding of what this girl was telling you is also weak.

Don't confuse oral doses vs plugged doses. DPT is much weaker orally.

@Porphyry Fedotov Sounds like you just have a high tolerance. That's okay. Good for ramping up.

I have had a psychic accurately predict my future in specific ways. Clearly they have some paranormal ability.

Be careful with such high dosages. Dial it back. Anything over 100mg is a lot! All psychedelics can show you that, if you only dare look. ONENESS means there cannot be anything but the Self, and therefore nothing but the Self could have created itself. All is Self-Creation. That is the strange loop. God is that which created itself.

Sometimes I will trip with a girlfriend, but that's not for serious, deep work. That's mostly for fun. The deep work is done solo. Although psychedelics present some interesting opportunities for deepening intimate relationships and sexuality. But that's its own thing, it's not the core of our work here. And you're not gonna do that in a group setting anyway. That's basically a solo trip for two lovers.

Notice how this issue involves a struggle to draw a boundary/duality between: alive vs not-alive, conscious vs not-conscious, autonomous vs not-autonomous, part of the mother vs not part of the mother, fully human vs biomass, human vs fly, right vs wrong, moral vs immoral, etc. The mind wants to ground reality in such boundaries, but all such boundaries are untenable because reality is ONE. Which is why you struggle and struggle to draw those boundaries but will always fail. And why people disagree so much about where the boundaries lie. There is no point at which a baby is conscious or alive or autonomous or human. There is no point at which a baby is separate from a pine tree. Getting that takes you meta. Learning this lesson is one of the most important things Actualized.org has to teach you. Stop falling into the trap of objectifying dualistic distinctions. If you manage to do that, your mind will be set radically free and peace can come to the world. Or, continue fighting over imagined dualities.

Funny, last night after reading this thread I took 5-MeO-DMT in my dreams and I tripped harder than in "real life." Unbelievable.

It was totally expected if you understand LSD dosages. 20ug is almost nothing. You got exactly what you were supposed to get with a micro-dose. A solid trip requires 100ug+

I always trip solo. That is the best. But that is my bias, you may have other perferences.

Surrounding observers are part of your imagination. If you put on sunglasses the world doesn't tint for everyone else. Consciousness compartmentalizes itself, otherwise things would become a shitshow. How silly would it be if my putting on sunglasses tinted your world? That would spoil the illusion of objective reality. We could code a video game to work that way, but why? You have to carefully think through the consequences of your imagined scenarios. Life has a very intelligent design. It is not some willy-nilly stuff that some idiot threw together. It is a design of utmost genius that allows for rich experiences like that of humans. This requires some serious design constraints. The flaw in your thinking is not taking into account that your are currently putting enormous energy into imagining exactly your current reality. To enter a new reality you'd have to stop imaging this one. If you fully imagined a new reality nothing would be left of the current one. That would basically be a totally new life. And then you would still ask, "But why can't I be in some 3rd reality?" You can! But then you lose the 2nd one. You can't be in two realities at once. You have to pick one, which means excluding all others.

He who smelt it dealt it.

You got your causality backwards. That's what low consciousness egos do. Narcissist != psychopath Stage Red is not psychopathy. It just appears that way to higher stage people who lack the nuanced understanding of these complex issues. It's all too easy to call dictators and strong-men psychopaths or "crazy" because the mind is looking for a way to dismiss them as so "other" as to be incomprehensible. But that's not the case. Stage Red explains Trump's actions quite well. Study Stage Red more.

@Jahmaine You are a short flight from Netherlands. Why not just go there?

Sounds about right

When we inquire into the existential nature of a thing -- like in this case the notion of reproduction -- we do not limit ourselves by survival concerns. Rather, we go for what is true. What is reproduction? That is the question. Do not corrupt this question with egoic fears. If it is true that reproduction is an illusion, then that is what's true! Even if it means the whole human race will die out as a result of knowing it. And of course it doesn't have to mean that at all. Good luck getting 7 billion people to stop fucking. Even the intelligent ones. Even the enlightened ones still manage to fuck like rabbits.