Leo Gura

And this is the key: your Love must be so strong and meta that you fully embrace everyone's unwillingness to unite and desire to slit each other's throats out of selfishness and fear. Once you grasp that, you're seeing it properly, from the eyes of God. If Love cannot love hate, then it isn't Love.

Direct consciousness is NOT knowledge, belief, concept, or interpretation. Notice that you are conscious of existence. Existence itself is NOT knowledge, belief, concept, or interpretation. HERE IT IS! EXISTENCE! Stop thinking about it and LOOK at it. You are unwittingly giving thought priority over direct experience. Stop doing that, silly.

If I didn't I'd be dead already. Makes no difference

Infinite Intelligence, Infinite Love.

You will be once you realize what God is.

DMT is so powerful on me it is terrifying.

God is unlimited and ONE! That means it has the power to create itself prior to it having existed! It's a mindfuck. You created yourself even though it is impossible.

You are God. It doesn't get any more personal. You created yourself.

@Someone here Nothing you think is even close to what reality is. Drop your logic. You will not awaken that way. Everything you're doing here is still all at the level of concept, which is a million miles away from the real deal.

@innerchild Your issues are not spiritual but basic material. You just need to work on finding a job and moving out from your parents. You're still like a bird in the nest. Leave the nest and fly. Once you move out you will feel a lot of freedom and a sense of autonomy. How you move out is up to you. I would look for a job that can pay you some money and gain you some of the experience you'll need in the future. Or a job that gives you free time to work on your own stuff. Some jobs are less demanding than others. You'll have to get creative and see what opportunities are around. Once you have a job to pay basic bills you can work at night on developing new skills and upgrading your career. Work 40 hrs at your job and then another 20 hours at night on your skills.

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Beauty is the only reason for this work. Beauty comes in infinite forms. Don't confuse it for a feminine quality.

Yes, I've tried a lot of stuff.

I experiment a lot with various things so I don't tend to stick to any one thing for long. Lots of exploration is part of my path.

No. A pure designer. Not programming. Not art. Although of course I learned a lot about programming and 3D art. No one gives a fuck if you have a college degree, they only care about your ability to create results.

Firstly, I wasn't paying for it, so that helped things a great deal. Secondly, I really loved philosophy and was thinking of becoming a professor. Thirdly, I was a really good student, so it fit me. Fourthly, I was also planning and training myself to be a game designer, so I wasn't really bought into the illusion that having a college degree would get me where I wanted to be. Fifthly, I was clueless about how the real world worked and the possibility of starting my own business.

Things are getting stupid now.

No

You don't get the depth of the problem. God is not trying to hide itself from you, as if playing some sick game. God wants nothing more than to reveal itself to you as quickly and directly as possible. But you are too AFRAID to look at God. FEAR is the only obstacle. So God must patiently wait for you to muster the courage to look at yourself. God gave mankind psychedelics, and mankind spat in God's face by rejecting them and demonizing them out of FEAR. So God went: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The entire human race could have awoken long ago had psychedelics not been outlawed and demonized for thousands of years by egos out of greed, selfishness, fear, power, and sex. Mankind is doing all this to itself. Out of fear and selfishness. God can only give mankind a gift it is willing to receive.

Do nothing/concentration on nothing. And DMT.

It isn't uncommon, when fighting monsters, to become oneself a monster. It's a similar dynamic to how atheists get so passionate about denouncing the idiocy of religious fundamentalists that themselves become fundamentalist about atheism and materialism. You can't just do the opposite of those you hate, you must go meta to truly resolve it. Are there some violent stage Green people who fall into this trap? Of course! But they are not respresentative of Green. Just as Nazis are not representative of Blue.

Technically his method is called Mindfulness With Labeling. See, Hear, Feel are the 3 most common labels he teaches. It's extremely simple, but also boring and tedious as fuck.

I think college is mostly a waste of money and time. There are much better uses of time. College is good if you want to be an academic, scholar, doctor, laywer, or STEM field. Otherwise, it's not very useful.

Russell Brand has worldclass charisma and energy and extroversion. You ain't him. That is a very unique personality type. But you can certainly learn lessons from him and learn to be more charismatic.

Great! These trip reports are the best part of the forum. Shows real work occuring.