Leo Gura

Not from my level of consciousness. I am conscious that there is only me, and nothing else, with no future and no past. Teaching you is completely an illusion. But, hey, the game must go on.

Hehe, cute. How about you surrender to 100 trips of 5-MeO-DMT?

@charles1 Honestly, your greatest risk is not buying it You would lose YEARS of your life on inferior knowledge. But you are right, from your POV there's no way you can know if what I'm saying is true. Such is life. Maybe everything I say is wrong. So what are you gonna do about it?

Yes. It usually takes 100s of hours of such awareness for those qualities to start to appear. The monkey mind disturbs the awareness with agitation and craving. Like rain drops on a still pond. Pacifying the monkey mind usually takes 100s or even 1000s of hours of meditation or other kinds of inner work. Pacifying the monkey mind is actually harder than Awakening itself.

That's exactly right. Self and other are defined relative to each other. So a person who has never seen outside the self cannot really understand what other is. To erase other is also to erase one's self. Which puts you face to face with death. The mind cannot intellectually go there.

These are still stories and games. Your psychedelic journey has only begun. Don't quit so soon. You do not yet understand God or Awakening. So don't make any firm decisions about not doing stuff. You have only dipped your toe in the ocean. The terror of it will go away. It took me 1 year to overcome the terror of my first big 5-MeO-DMT breakthrough and to go back for seconds. It was all games and fear. These days when I trip there is no more terror. Only awe, magic, and Love. But it took close to 100 trips to reach this point. I promise you it's worth it. Just go slowly.

The very notion of a self or an other is imaginary. People assume that self and other are like fixed quantities in the universe. They are not. Self and other only exist if they are imagined to exist. Think of it this way. Before a painter paints a painting of other people, there is no self or other on the canvas. Other has to be painted to exist. Self has to be painted to exist. Otherwise it's just a single canvas. You are not the painted self, you are the whole canvas. There isn't. I'm just playing games with myself because there's nothing better to do. Life would be boring if I didn't buy into any illusions at all. It's like playing a flight simulator. You know crashing the virtual plane makes no difference at all. Yet you still try to fly carefully, avoiding virtual trees and stuff.

If that's true, 5-MeO-DMT will rock your world. You ain't ever gonna access what 5-MeO-DMT can show you via cannabis and tobacco. Not even close. But I'm not denying your cannabis/tobacco realizations. They are in the right direction.

@charles1 Lol, dude, you're WAY overthinking it. The books will blow your mind and change your life and you will never look back. Don't be so paralyzed by avoiding bias that you are unable to take a decisive step. Risking $35 is like the lowest risk in the world. Reading books is not an epistemological submission to anything. I've read many books which were flat out false. And many of the books in my booklis are flat out false on many metaphysical issues. But that doesn't matter. It's all part of the process. You can read a book on witchcraft, disagree with it, and still come out wiser and better for having read it. You don't need to verify a book's truth before reading it. That's backwards. First you read it, then you can assess how true you think it is. You cannot find truth unless you're willing to explore dead ends. Because you can't know ahead of time what is and what isn't a dead end. So a serious truth-seeker must have a high tolerance for risk. You gotta try stuff and fail more and faster than everyone else. Read 200 books, and if they all turn out to be false, great! Now you know which books to avoid as you move on to read the next 200. << That's how you master life. Not through perfectionism and fear of making a mistake. I've read so many bullshit books in retrospect. They were all part of my journey to truth. There was no way I could know they were bullshit until after having read them and many years had passed.

It's possible in theory, if the dose is overly high. But a 1g dose of mushrooms or 125ug of LSD is not going to give anyone a psychotic break unless maybe they were already psychotic to begin with. You have understand that the few people who have psychotic breaks and so forth are already damaged to begin with. The psychedelic isn't what causes it. A lot of damaged people do psychedelics because there's such a huge stigma around it that "normies" are too chicken to try it. A normal person is not going to ever have a psychotic break from 1 or 2 grams of mushrooms. You have higher odds of having a serious reaction to Aspirin or penicillin. The doctor gave me penicillin last year and I had a horrible allergic reaction to it. Yet penicillin is prescribed every day without anyone even thinking twice about it. I agree with that. That is a great shame. But that's easily avoided with low doses.

Why would a psychedelic do damage? What does "damage" even mean here? DMT is not gonna "damage" you at moderate doses. It will fuck with your mind, but that's not damage.

I don't know if that's necessary. Maybe some day. But 5-Meo-DMT is far superior to that for our work of Awakening. 30g of mushrooms will throw you into a twisted nest of crazy dream-like consciousness and you'll hardly remember a thing when you return. Mushrooms are very chaotic and twisted. Not good for reaching clarity. All I know is, healing = Truth & Love. I haven't just seen God. I am God. I can't really explain it to you, but my highest awakening has shown me that he is not awake. But you're welcome to question that. Maybe I'm wrong. If he has secret teachings then I can't speak to that. I can only speak to his public teachings. Why would you stop shy of something deeper if something deeper is possible? Why wouldn't you want the deepest consciousness?

Like I said, the mind cannot fathom Awakening so it tries to fit it into some category it knows, like solipsism. Awakening is not solipsism, but it's also true that you/God is the only thing that exists. So to you that sounds like solipsism and you can't tell the difference. To create that distinction between the absolute and the relative is already a mistake. The relative isn't real. Only the absolute. Yeah, if you want to qualify as "relative", then we can say that you are not alone. But this is precisely the illusion which we're trying to transcend. It's sort of like if you said, "Yeah, I understand that Santa Claus isn't real in the absolute sense. But in the relative world he's real." Okay, but what we're interested in is the absolute sense here, not the relative world of illusions. As an illusion, sure, everyone you know seems "real". No, you're not correct. You imagine that there is a person who imagines you. But actually there is only you imagining others imagining you. When you talk to someone you imagine, you are imagining that person's body too, not just their mind. To put frame it another way, your imagination is so powerful it IS reality! Right now you're still under the dualistic illusion that there is a difference between imagination and reality. As if imagination is somehow inferior or bad. But the difference between reality and imagination is itself something you imagine! This is what allows you/God to create reality out of thin air. Ta-da! Where did all the people you know come from? They were NOT born from biological parents. They were imagined by your mind! If you stop imagining them, they will cease to exist. What makes Awakening very different than classical solipsism is the God part. Classical solipsism has no recognition of self as God. Once you reach God-consciousness, the solipsism stuff becomes pretty irrelevant because you are so amazed at yourself as God.

@Emerald Very good! Finally! Now wait till you try 5-MeO-DMT. All that was child's play The true Awakening is yet ahead after you integrate and move past all the above. Take time to integrate all that, but don't stop there. Killer first trip. A lot for one trip. Too much really. Gotta baby step it not to freak yourself out. You rejected the enlightenment simply because you were too overwhelmed by it without enough gradual tripping and integration work. You needed a return to the safety of your old life. You'll come around. It takes a lot trips to iron out all the resistances, shadow material, and kinks before you can access full God-consciousness. It cannot be done in one or even 10 trips.

To be even more clear, there is much in Leo that is lacking and could use development. It's a never-ending self-improvement project.

The ability to heal is an independent variable. You can be awake with it or without it.

That's not something I've had success with yet. But also not much practice. My healing has been derailed by ever deeper awakenings which make healing oneself seem like a moot point. Healing is a lower power than Awakening. When you are fully conscious that you are God, nothing needs healing. There is no difference between being healthy or sick at that level of consciousness. The desire to heal is in some sense egotistical. It assumes that something is less than Perfect, which is a delusion. At the same time, I do want to heal. It's practically necessary to keep doing my work. Life sucks when you got a chronic illness.

Yes, 30mg snorted. It was intense. No, not yet. Yes, he says some of the same stuff. But it's a question degree and depth. He's certainly much more awake than most humans. But then there are levels which I don't believe even he has ever accessed given his limited neurochemistry. For example, he talks about past lives, opening chakras, his wife leaving her body, etc. This is all imaginary from my level of realization. I don't get the sense that he is conscious that such things are part of his imagination. No. It's hard for me to relate with that. It's certainly nowhere close to Awakening.

Yes, you're imagining that now. But you're probably not conscious of imagination is. It goes far beyond simply thoughts in your head. It also involves physical objects like cars and trees. Perspectives are one thing. But then there is the present moment which is what's Absolute Truth. It's tricky because there are so many levels to illusion. It's a work of absolute genius. I call God the Perfect Illusion. I realized for the first time that God is real, at which point my heart filled with energy that seemed to explode and shoot out my fingertips like Force lighting, and it terrified the hell out of me. I was filled with God's Absolute Love. I realized that Love is not just a human emotion but something much more fundamental and metaphysical. It took many more awakenings to get a fuller understanding of what God and Love actually are. That was merely by first introduction to those notions. It was so radical and otherworldly that my mind had no frame of reference to understand it. It took me about a year to integrate that one breakthrough.

Yup! Although seconds are also imaginary. You aren't really "creating" it. You've always been it, Eternally! This moment has existed forever. Yes, it's fucking insane. I have had moments of awakening so profound I literally had to go on the toilet and shit because I could not hold myself together. I've had moments where my entire body twisted and vibrated and seemed to flip inside out from the realization that I am God. If you saw a video of it, I would appear completely insane. But at the same time, I could not be more clear about what reality is. God is a flawless madman. Yup! You're it, you clever devil you Yes, that's somewhat the right idea. In fact, imagine there is only ever 1 frame in existence. Imagine that reality is 1 fluid frame. That's it. The end. This one fluid frame can change its shape without ever creating a second frame. Yes, that's sorta what I mean. If there is no time, that means everything is Eternal. It has existed forever. So this one fluid frame exists eternally, with no beginning or end. The beginnings and ends of the frame -- questions like where did it come from? What caused it to be this way? etc. -- are imagined. So if you ask, "Where did the current frame come from?" the mind will invent some causal explanation like, "Well, at one point I came out of my Mom's vagina and then I started using my eyes to see the world." << This is imagined and invented in the present to create an illusion of reality. It's just like how Hollywood invents backstory for its characters. The audience might wonder, "But where did Batman come from?" at which point some writer in Hollywood will just imagine a backstory to make Batman seen more real, like "Batman was born to some rich parents in Gotham city 40 years ago." And the audience is gullible enough to just buy it without ever realizing it's just pure fiction. Batman didn't come from rich parents. Batman was invented by some Hollywood business people to make them money! That's where Batman really came from. Could you imagine if you were watching a Batman movie and someone asked Batman about his origins and Batman replied, "Well, you see, the CEO of Warner Brothers wanted to buy a new yacht so he could bang his mistress without his wife finding out about it, so he greenlit this shitty movie. So here I am." You'd shit your pants. That's not what you wanted to here. It's too true!

@nowimhere Good work, but your dose is still too low for the kind of breakthroughs required. Gradually, gradually, see how high you can go without whiting out. White out is no good. You should have some decent headroom before white out. For me, 30mg is getting to max territory. 15mg is a normal breakthrough. 25mg is a heavy as fuck breakthrough. Plugging.

What does it matter what I say? What's true in your experience? << That's what matters I could tell you that I am a spotted giraffe. And what will this do for you?

That's easy. What's changing is Consciousness. Consciousness is that which imagines the present into its current shape. Consciousness is like a gaseous cloud that has infinite shape-shifting ability. This shape-shifting "cloud" is the very substance of everything. Yet it has no inherent substance of its own. It is literally pure imagination made manifest as brick walls, cars, trees, bodies, etc. Imagine a cloud in the sky which can change its shape to become a brick wall, a car, a tree, a body, a memory of your parents, etc. That's what the room you're current sitting in is. It's just hard for you to notice it because the room feels very concrete and rock solid. The cloud is like frozen for you right now. So you can't see it's cloud-like fluid nature. Because it is a fluid acting as a solid. The solidity is just an act which can easily be dissolved with psychedelics or some other practices. Since there is always only the present moment, in this moment you can either be in a state of God consciousness or not. If you are in a state of God consciousness, that's it. It doesn't matter how long it lasts. It could last 1 minute or a lifetime. The difference isn't important from the absolute POV -- since in fact all states are Absolute. But if you fall out of God consciousness back into a state of sleep and delusion, it will matter to you in the relative human sense in that you will have a memory of how good God consciousness feels and you will want to return to it but may not be able to, thus creating suffering. That's a tricky question to answer. Yes, there is, but then also there are even fuller ones. I assume at some point one becomes so conscious Earthly material reality would just disappear forever (AKA physical death). I can only speak to God realization while still remaining within Earthly reality because that's where I wish to remain for now and I could not communicate with you otherwise. That's also a tricky question to answer. I don't have a full solution to that yet. Still working on it. But the assumption that psyches don't create permanent changes is false. Maybe you can't fully live from that peak, but they still create changes in you which will last for a lifetime. It's just a question of how much change are you looking for? If you want to be in peak God consciousness 24/7, I'm not sure yet if that's possible. Seems doubtful. Enlightened masters are not always peaking. But you should be able to inch closer and closer.

There is no lesser or greater.

Yes, a serious set of videos is coming. Hang in till then. It takes a time to explain it all.