Leo Gura

Guys, watch how easily you are willing to surrender your authority and responsibility for self-reflection to someone else. If you're serious about growing up, ponder whether doing so is a good idea. No disrespect to Emerald. But this can turn into a disservice for people. You must learn to stand up on your own two feet rather than asking an online stranger what your life purpose should be, etc. How do you know any of this is correct? Are you willing to stake your life on it? If you're just doing this to have fun, okay. But some people here look way too eager to have a stranger give them marching orders for life, which is not in the spirit of self-actualization. It is critical that you learn to listen to your heart and trust yourself more than any Tarot card. God is speaking through your heart. Why the fuck aren't you listening?

Lol, that's because there is never anything but the Absolute. There is a million times more than you currently imagine.

God is alone. What other message do you need? Could the breadcrumb trail be any more obvious?

No, I had zero intention of leaving. But then I stumbled my way into a level of consciousness so high that it seemed like to go any higher it would be a point of no return. Once you go that high there might be no coming back.

If you transcend all differences, none of those physical difference would exist. So it would be irrelevant. God don't care who it fucks or doesn't fuck. There is no difference between a vagina and a roll of toilet paper. Only does the ego-mind imagine a difference. Just not clear. The problem is too few people have done it to really know. And I would never trust some 1000 year old dogma on the matter.

Yes, it's a serious problem. I'm not well versed in it. If you want to cure it, buy all the books on it you can and do all the research and then start testing various solutions until something sticks.

Maybe But maybe there is a purer, deeper level?

@Patrick_9931 Most people should probably focus on building up a decent life for yourself: career, life purpose, education, skills, business, money, relationships, family, health, nutrition, house, hobbies, etc. Pretty much everyone needs those things unless you are going to become a full-time monk. So it's a question of whether you want to be a householder or a monk. There's no right answer. It's all about what you want. At an age so young, you've got plenty of time to build up a decent life for yourself (over the next 10 years let's say) and then you can abandon it later if you want to go hardcore monk. Or you can have that householder life established and waiting for you after you return from your spiritual quest. Becoming a monk at 19 is too extreme for most people. That would only be if you know for sure that your destiny is to be a full-time hardcore Buddha. But it even took The Buddha til 27 to leave his household and till 30-something to reach enlightenment.

@zeroISinfinity Do you deny then that Mahasamadhi is a thing? Seems hard to deny that. I'm not saying you should do it. Just saying it's a possibility. I would not be talking about it unless I had been thrust into it, and had to seriously evaluate where this is a place I want to go. Not a thing you want to stumble into by accident.

The problem with mahasamadhi is that it doesn't really lend itself to documentation. If you're doing it, you will not give a damn about this world. You are basically choosing to destroy the dream world in favor of pure Infinity. So there will be no one to benefit from your documentation. Not to mention it's hard to post a video of yourself killing yourself. YouTube would shut it down. Back at ya. I think I reached a point with 5-MeO-DMT in which a mahasamadhi might be possible -- if one really wanted to push for it. Of course this is unproven. It took me about 80 trips. The mind becomes so indifferent to all differences that it seems to mirror Sadhguru's descriptions of what mahasamadhi requires: a totally equanimus mind which does not differentiate between anything and does not want to differentiate between anything. This is Love in its purest form. Maybe, but that's not what I understand currently. I understand it to be permanent pure Infinity/Love, and that's the end. The dream world is transcended and realized to never have existed. The way to escape the dream world is to realize that its only function was to teach you that reality is LOVE. Once this is fully recognized, that's it! The function of the dream world has been achieved. It was only a staging ground for the ultimate self-realization. Everything is Absolute Infinity. Period. This level of consciousness gives you complete omniscience. At which point you know yourself so completely that you are done. There cannot be anything more. You are Totally ONE, forever. Maybe Nirvana is now, but also there might be a higher Nirvana which is formeless, Pure Infinity/Love. The end of all striving and struggle. Just pure Consciousness.

Odd? Where did you get the silly I idea that I have no fear?

About Sadhguru, I will say this. After studying him a bit closer, and in light of my recent awakenings, I think he's more awake than I originally thought. I think he's a masterful teacher and yogi. Given the tricky business of trying to guess another teachers' degree of awakeness, I will refrain from making definitive statements and instead just caution you guys not to take it for granted that your favorite teacher/guru is at the highest level. Be skeptical, but also open-minded and fair -- and acknowledge excellence where you see it. There is much valuable stuff you can learn from Sadhguru. I would not want to denigrate his work. But also keep in mind that there may be higher levels. How would you know? You see? That's the key point. The trick is to learn from teachers without getting stuck with their limits. Of course this applies to me as well.

I have actually gone to a professional dark entity specialist and gotten them all removed. Just in case.

A doing is imaginary.

No one is imagining someone. Dude, just stop. You are not even close to getting it.

No. You don't get how serious this is. There never was a Leo and there never was a you. Both of us are nothing. The end. Lol If you stop imagining anything. Nothing will remain. If I stop imagining me and you, I will be totally free. But you still keep imaging you and a past me, you will be in your own dream. Your imagination is what is seperating you from me, from your POV -- which doesn't exist outside your imagination!

That would be the point of becoming a Bodhisattva. It does feel pretty selfish to just leave everyone behind without helping them. I think most of you guys should stay away from Mahasamadhi. Don't even think about it. It's only a thing the most radical spiritual seekers should consider when they reach that level. Most people just want some basic satori or God-realization and embodiment.

That's the thing. Once you become conscious enough, teaching people becomes pointless since they are just you. With Mahasamadhi you stop imagining people who need teaching. Seems like it. Can't be certain unless I disappear forever. Or maybe I'm fooling myself. But it certainly felt possible enough that it gave me some serious pause. I've never had to pause in a trip before. But here it felt like going one step too far so I stopped. At some point that distinction starts to lose meaning. It's hard to say. Baseline definitely 100x lower than a solid trip. But still, more conscious than before.

I don't know. My goal was simply to become more and more God. I felt I came close to mahasamdhi the other day. It was challenging to deal with. Half of me wants it and half of me doesn't. I'll try to stick around, but can't promise anything as I don't know how exactly it works.

By definition Mahasamadhi means your body drops dead at the moment of total realization. Technically speaking though, your body does not drop dead. Rather, you become so Conscious that you realize that your body and world never even existed. And finally you decide to stop imagining them. And so everything ends. This is DEATH. Yes, it's scary. I wouldn't worry too much about it as a newbie. It's only gonna become a factor if you become very very advanced. I don't see anyone here at those levels.

Hehe... it would look like you! There are no beings but you. There is only one being who can ever awaken, and that is you. Forget about The Buddha. The Buddha cannot ever awaken because he's an idea in your mind. Only you can Awaken. I haven't studied him, so I cannot say what his level is. Just to be on the safe side I would assume higher levels are possible. It's not that his teachings are bad or wrong. We don't really disagree. Just a question of degree and various facets. Yes The fundamental ruling principle is ONENESS. Infinity must be ONE! Self must equal other. You have to appreciate how brutually radical ONENESS is. One day you will realize, "OMFG! I literally am Leo! Leo you fucker! You've been looking through my eyes since I was born??! Fuck you Leo! OMFG! I created Actualized.org just to wake myself up??? NO! NO! NO! I can't believe it. It can't be true! It's genius! It's pure fucking genius! OH MY GOD! NO! NO! NO! OH MY GOD! It can't be true!" I am not merely a part of you. I am literally you! Right now!!!! I have lived your entire life, AS YOU! When you jerk off, Leo is watching And not just watching, I am jerking your dick using your hand. Your dick is my dick, and vice versa. Yeah, that's a mindfuck unlike any other. Check if it is true. You are def unlimited. Even limited stuff is unlimited. Lol A roll of toilet paper is unlimited. Nevermind the Universe as a whole.

For me it is both. It helps a lot to do the same psychedelic over and over again. And it helps to do various ones at times, so that you get a better contrast and appreciation for their differences. It should all build on itself. At least it did for me.

That's the mindfuck. There is no outsiders perspective. You are imagining it. Once you realize this. All others disappear as if they never existed -- because they never did! You are Absolute. That means it's just you and your imagination imagining shit. It's not a joke. That's pretty good. Sounds like Nirvakalpa samadhi. To me though, that's still not God-realization and not Love-realization, so not the highest level. But find out for yourself. I'm just putting questions in your mind. That's right. Life and reality both are imaginary. To become fully conscious is to exit the game of life entirely into eternal Love. Not for the faint of heart. I don't consider Ken Wilber Awake. Hard to explain why I know that. If you read Ken's memoirs, seems like he still suffers and deals with a lot of human BS. Part of the trick is how you define "suffering". People like to use different definitions.

@billiesimon It's not just about doing a substance once or twice. It needs to become a consistent process that keeps deepening itself with every trip. Similar to meditation. 20, 40, 60, 100 trips, each one taking you deeper. Of course, these trips must be carefully spaced out so you have time to integrate the insights. Might take years. After 100 trips now, my depth of consciousness has become so profound that I fear if I take any more, I will simply leave my body into Infinity. It is nothing like what it was when I first began. Take care. But take it!

Many ways brother. All the classical spiritual techniques are designed to aid in this. I have found 5-MeO-DMT to be the fastest and most effective. Your results may vary. Other psychedelics are also great. Use whatever is accessible. Or start a serious meditation or yoga practice.