Leo Gura

I don't have lucid dreams so I don't know. Seems to be a very individual thing. It's hard to answer that because as you become more conscious you see the unity of all things. But at lower levels you don't. So I'm always equating things for you which you don't see as equal. All those terms are ultimately one, but point to various facets of it. Is an elephant synonymous with animal, big, grey, mammal, quadraped, trunk, life, cells, carbon, form, Mind, God, Infinity, Love? The more conscious you become the more you see the elephant as all that. Infinity is a very twisted thing. It can take various forms. You can realize various forms of it. Technically, every physical object is an infinity onto itself. And that's still just one form of Infinity. Infinity can have levels, kinds, various manifestions, formless and formed. It also depends on how you wish to look at it. Your vantage point on it matters. --------- Mind, God, Truth, Consciousness, Love, Self, Infinity are always the whole world you see. But they point to deeper recognitions of that world which you are missing. This is about recognizing the whole world as something deeper than it usually seems. You can see a bird as just a bird, or you can recognize it through higher consciousness as Mind, or God, or Love, or Infinity, or Self, or Truth. Or all the above. What do you see a bird as?

It's so fundamental it's hard to explain it further. Eventually you hit rock bottom and explanation becomes impossible. Rock bottom is Truth. What you're not yet understanding is that truth exists. You don't understand yet that truth is a real thing, not just some idea. Contemplation is necessary into What is truth? You are not conscious yet of what experience is. You think it is something a biological creature is having. You think living beings generate experience via a brain. Yup. Not just Truth. Absolute Truth. You are Truth. Which is why you have awareness. Consciousness is trying to grasp Truth. Consciousness is Truth but it struggles to understand that. That's what you should be contemplating. The answer is not conceptual. It is an Awakening event, an insight you are presently missing. Yes. That's tricky. Depends on what you mean by illusion. But, for example, your dreams at night are Truth at the moment they are happening. Anything that is presently happening must be absolutely true, because it is happening. Notice, if an illusion is happening, it must be true that an illusion is happening, even though the illusion could be misleading. Any illusion still has reality to it, otherwise it would not even appear. A mirage in the desert still has reality. It's just not water. Of course.

Stop assuming that anything at all exists. Nothing can exist unless MIND imagines it. Not even time or space. MIND your entire field of experience. The only thing there ever is.

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The whole market is still very overvalued. I've been making good gains on gold while all the stocks crash.

Imagine that a MIND wanted to create a universe. How would it do it? It would dream very consistently. So here you are. Consistency is the key to making a world.

Why do dreams feel real until you wake up? MIND loves to imagine realities. That's what MIND do. Dreams ARE real. It's just that you can wake up from them.

Much more work ahead for me. This is just the tip of the iceberg of my consciousness of God.

What??

Nice try. You are dodging the serious things I said. If I had, I would not be here. I would be as lost as everyone else. I do every day. It is Christianity's and North Korea's fault, and the fault of those who defend and rationalizd those systems. I don't hate anyone. I don't hate Trump nor anyone I criticize. If fact, I have gone out of my way to steelman Christianity by sharing the best versions of Christians on my blog. I am merely point out how Christianity limits the mind from understanding God. That is my job. Nothing personal. I am here to show you how to free your mind of all human limits. Humans will of course find this upsetting and offensive.

Hard to say. I don't need psychedelics for it any more. But they were certainly vital to my current situation. If not psychedelics you better be doing 200hr retreats.

Oh the cringe

Obviously I'm not talking about ego here. You are thinking of God is some theoretical sense. I am talking about direct consciousness of God in you right now. It's not about positive or negative, it's about how conscious you are of God in the present moment. You can just sit on the couch and have the most profound moment of your life. Murder, rape, etc are irrelevant there. Yes, if you are raped you will still suffer.

Black should have taken my bishop but I made a mouse click error the previous move with my rook. My top rook was supposed to be right over the bishop to protect it. So the two errors canceled each other out. I lost a whole move with that mouse click error. Black had a better move by using his other light square bishop to attack my top rook from blocking the queen. Black's queen would still have been lost but black could have taken out both my rooks which would have made for a more even endgame. Black and I both made some simple errors which made for a close game.

Cyberpunk minus all the cool technology.

The search for meaning is the search for consciousness of yourself as God. Last night I sat for an hour on my couch just stunned by my consciousness of God. This is a level of profoundity nobody understands. You are God and you just sitting there is infinitely profound, if only you develop enough understanding to inferface with it. It's not even about truth, it's about being God. Being God is more meaningful than any human meaning. Nothing has meaning next to God. Your experience of reality becomes divine and metaphysical, not human. That's what I suffer for. Suffering is just the ticket price to God's Disneyland.

There is no other option for me. I will always pursue truth and understanding no matter what the suffering. Yes, what you call meaning is the point for me. The real reward of this work is not minimization of suffering, it is the profound appreciation of God. If all you look at is suffering vs pleasure, this work doesn't make sense. But if you factor in the comprehension of God, it's the only path that makes sense. It's debatable if all you're looking at it pleasure vs suffering. I don't do this work for those reasons. I do it for truth and understanding. --------- People who frame this work as about suffering or even happiness do understand the depth of the work. This work is about metaphysical connection with God.

I cook. Activities like cooking, showering, driving also present good opportunities to keep practicing your meditation while in action. Pickup was very challenging for me. But pickup is also fun. The awakening work is very boring. Yes Yup. Of course. I did that math and found that I would have suffered less had I just never did spirituality. Maybe in 20 years that calculus will change. Life can be made very comfortable these days. The problem with Shinzen's analysis is that 6 months of meditation will not end your suffering. It's debatable what the actual benefit is. That will vary wildly by person.

If I ever share something I received from a forum user, I give credit. That's all that was. You have a twisted mind.

Psychedelics have their own suffering. But psychedelics are not enough for this work. Psychedelics are just the beginning. You cannot skip the tortures if you want serious embodiment.

I mean two weeks of non-stop meditation. 200hrs of meditation in two weeks. That's what this path requires. Over and over again.

It's not primarily physical pain. It is the emotional pain of the ego struggling and dying.

Have you ever meditated for two weeks straight? You know what that feels like? It's basically self-torture. And you may not get any awakening out of it.

Self-help has a much lower cost than serious Awakening. Most people can tolerate the cost of self-help. Very few can tolerate the cost of Awakening. The cost of self-help is like a bee sting. The cost of Awakening is like getting mauled by a bear.