Pablo's Game Journal

[pablo_aka_god]

This is an update about what happened since the last time I wrote here...

In March I did Tony Robbins UPW online seminar with friends and really opened myself up to the process. The 2 weeks after I had 5 dates(all from Tinder) and banged 3 our of those 5. One of this girls became a fuck buddy which I've been dating for 2 months. It's not GF material but It's great to spend the winter meanwhile I can focus my energies on my LP without worrying about sex.

I just got Leo's LP course and I'm starting a new stage on my life where I want to build my own business. I am simultaneously working a 9-5 from home(I get payed for 8 hours of work but try to do it in 4) for a startup that is somewhat in line with my LP, trying to create my own brand online and brainstorming ideas for a business.

I didn't want to forget the lesson I took from 2 months ago when I had those beautiful 2 weeks of dates:

I realized that daygame was a waste of time, even though I fucked some girls from DG in the past, it got really uncomfortable, most girls I approached would not be attracted and I was putting a lot of energy into feeling awkward and making others feel awkward. I realized that I do get matches on Tinder but they would die in the first few messages. So I came up with a tunnel: I would first try to say something funny about their profile and chitchat lightheartedly while letting the girl know of my intentions, next I would move her to instagram and this is key: Girls from Tinder get to know us and to know if they want to fuck us more from our IG than from the conversation. So I polished my IG and made sure I would have good quality pictures with friends so they know I have friends and I am social. From IG I could jump to whatsapp or just close the date there. I would invite girls for Dinner so I would work out in the afternoon. I realized that If I make good money why not use it to make things easier for us to meet? that means I can pay for Uber and dinner so we can meet smoothly and also so I can get to choose the time and place which gives me more control of my schedule, I also show the girl that I'm a serious guy that works hard, trains hard so I have limited spots to meet but I'm also willing to invest in her by paying for her Uber and her food if she needs to, in a non needy way,

A key concept that I realized at UPW is about leading with my heart in life, career and relationships. That means that when I talk with a girl on Tinder, IG or in person I don't think about how many messages I send, wether I'm replying too quickly or hiding my intentions. If we matched and I want to meet her it's beta to hide it and waste energy thinking about those things. A question that I ask myself is How would the most confident version of myself act in this situation? would he try to look cool or just express himself fully? Now girls know that I'm a busy man that doesn't have time for BS but who is also not scared of investing in them and telling them that I think they are hot or whatever I think.

I am trying to allow myself to feel the beautiful feminine energy as fully as I can and realized I have a blockage that doesn't allow me to appreciate and connect with the beauty of women. I've been trying to work on this and not be afraid of appreciating beautiful women. I still struggle with it, probably because I'm afraid, I learnt at some point that it's wrong to appreciate feminine beauty, that women don't want me to see their beauty. This seems like a limiting belief!

So this is what I learnt in the last 2 months, Now I'm focussing on my LP and hopefully you don't hear back from me for a few months and I bring great news next time I write. Cheers!

Edited May 17, 2024 by pablo_aka_god

[pablo_aka_god]

btw I started listening to this great audio book from Zan Perrion, he's a guy that talks about the beauty in women and how men that have the best relationship with women are the ones that love them the most.His thesis is that Women recognize which men have a deeply love for them and they want to be around those people, made a lot of sense to me: https://www.amazon.com/Audible-The-Alabaster-Girl/dp/B0BX4MSSVP/ref=sr_1_1?adgrpid=80724797239&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.M43n-reOsHN72ncyojurFy7BmS_a7iwxNtI0aD4zsvohf6BVcQQigDCGiuIxTENADI6_DqKgtJFN0g1CwxIz9OnJg1FnvsPLJ7Yiaii4Vu8IPuym5AEcqjzIhg-D3i76JWq8EC69MjnLIZxPT1A-eldOQuWkei-7AgPi8UVCmkme4xfPNdc78W8kYWmxwUwfo2ao0rKTnfeG_Olgc4W6n478vMbwkwEtkezG8vsvNVw.Amm-O6KgNnc94cx6wvsqflksVGFvY9dA7VxcNzttGug&dib_tag=se&hvadid=585479455892&hvdev=c&hvlocphy=9186399&hvnetw=g&hvqmt=e&hvrand=12381729741254892240&hvtargid=kwd-302026380958&hydadcr=22340_13333061&keywords=the+alabaster+girl&qid=1715976764&sr=8-1

Edited May 17, 2024 by pablo_aka_god

[pablo_aka_god]

Just broke up with my 10 month long brazilian GF Jessica. it's been long since last post so will hyper summarize last year events:

June 2024: My employeer runs out of cash and stops paying my salary while still asking me to work for free on the promise of future payment.

 

August 2024: winter in argentina, no income. living out of savings in a flat that is about to 2X the original rental price of previous year due to a badly negotiated contract and bad Argentinian economy. I'm getting depressed and lonely so make a counterintuitive move: let's go to Brazil!

August 13 2024: I meet and have sex with my new GF, at this time I couldn't believe the great catch I got, the hottest girl of my life to date and she fucks like god.

....

10 very intense months,  I fell in love for the first time and was already considering moving to brazil and even parent my GF's 6 year old kid.

But Girl started disrespecting and lying to me in so manny ways for months.

 

June 9 2025: I find my GF had been hiding a secret IG account from me, when I confront her she acts very weird and goes deep into a chain of lies so I dumped her, it was already too much for me.  I ended relationship with a text and that was it. Girl was so cold about it that makes me think maybe she wanted things to end already.

 

Today, a year after I lost my income and was super miserable alone trapped in a bad rental contract. I was able to get 2 clients that bring 30% more income that last year. got a new rental with a better contract and I experienced the best adventure of my life! thank god I made that decision.

 

It was a 10 month career pause, Now I am working more and career is progressing but I'm back alone.

 

I'm very sad, I made a Tinder account but it suck for me in Buenos AIres. I just contacted an old wing and he's still doing daygame 2 times a week. The wisest thing for me would be to join him. I have a lot of fear and feel very lazy about it so that's a sign this is the right decision.

 

I'm so tired of being alone I want to find the love of my life for once. At least I'm making progress so thank god for that and also thanks rto taking bold actions I'm having new experiences.

 

If I could ask for a whish it would be that next time I write here is to tell you that I got a new GF from daygame and that I feel very happy while still making progress in my career.

Edited June 21 by pablo_aka_god

[pablo_aka_god]

I still love Jessica, so much. I love her with all my heart, but she's sketchy, unstable and a big lier.At the very least she has Borderline personality disorder. And she had so many red flags that I will never know whether she ever truly loved me or was a gold digger trying to extract value frmo me. So I still love her but this relationship is over and I'm willing to be alone and walk in hell if that's what it takes to show the universe that I deserve a woman that respects me.

Edited June 21 by pablo_aka_god

[pablo_aka_god]

current status:

30 years old, around 30 lays(stopped counting)

2 long distance commited relationships

Relationship 1: very nice girl but not hot, dumped her bc of bad sex

Relationship 2: super hot, best sex of my life. borderline personality disorder and lier, left her bc of that.

future plans...

Relationship 3: I want an attractive girl that gives me good sex and is emotionally stable and doesn't lie

 

[pablo_aka_god]

I don't know how deep I should go in this journal for fear of ever being personally identified and regretting making my more intimate thoughts public so I will save the parts I might regret talking about to my paper journal.

I'm both seemingly on track with my life and also have fear about how boring my life is becoming. I'm 30yo. maybe this part of maturing?

in 2025 was the best year for my learning! I'm blown a way for how much I was able to succesfully manage and learn this year:

 

- first half I went through the disillusionment phase of my GF. had a few mind blowing trips, sex and experiences with her that were the best in my life. I fully took in a lot of learnings from her like a new approach to learning were rather than focusing on learning one thing at a time w a lot of pressure you take on manny learning projects. and learn lots of things in parallel, it's ok to be bad at all of them. I do it for the fun. I learnt to relate with other cultures and people who come from poorer parts of the city. I learnt not to fear or stigmatize people that had a very hard past of poverty and violence and who now have a strong personality. I learnt to detect lies and manipulation. to make myself vulnerable to my GF and to have the courage to let her go when I saw no future together. I learnt that I am capable of having a hot GF.

- I recovered my dad's house which was occupied by previous tenants who didn't want to leave and my dad wasn't able to evict them. This house is now the home of my 2 sisters and nephew.

- I moved to a cheaper area, saved the most money in a year I ever did, and learnt to manage my finances.

- I learnt the value of my family and I now spend more time with them.

- I learnt that my closest friend for the last 5 years has been manipulating me and lying to me all this time while portraying himself as a high consciousness person. he's totally delusional, thinks superior to others bc he says will start a multimillion dollar company, has been trying since I met him 5 years ago, he has nothing to show because he's very lazy and spends most of his time watching personal development videos and tonny robbins programs! He became addictive to personal development to the level where he avoids real work and hides under the cheap dopamine you get from listening to a rich guy on YT saying you will be rich and famous. All this time he re contextualizes reality to make himself believe that he will succeed. He cares more about looking good and cool than doing real unsexy work. 

What a plot twist! what a fucking re contextualization, the person that sold himself as the highest conciousness individual in my life and superior to others was actually a delusional tonny robbins hooker who can't get any real work done and spends his day trash talking others. Took me 5 years to open my eyes for this. He has a very high IQ so the level of BS he gives is top notch. He's not just an avg joe saying he will be a multi-millionaire. Also I was a little naive, and really wanted a new friend when I moved to the city, so he filled this spot. he was my wing in a pickup course, so the relationship was useful for me bc we would go out together. until this year when started to see under the curtain.

 

- I learnt that a different friend who sometimes is an asshole and a complicated person can also be a real person. maybe it's an asshole but at least its real and that deserves some respect! Keeping this friend in spite of his rough edges has been a great thing in my life, I realize it's a good person w rough edges and complicated parts. People are complex!

- Learnt to surf, Portuguese, to spend 2 weeks alone and enjoy it, I'm learning BJJ and chess.

- Had an 8 day trip with my mother only the 2 of us! and connected w her at a level I was never able to do.

 

All these things mentioned required emotional investment and I grew a lot from them.

 

Things I feel not untrack with:

Sexual relationships: I've been working on this for the entire year, after I broke up with my GF and spending some time to process the situation I immediately started doing DAYGAME and using Tinder. Since June to today I cold approached 191 girls.

Since June I banged 3 girls: one from cold approach and 2 from Tinder. But I've been stuck in a sexless plateau for the last 2 months and I fear not being able to get out.

I'll keep this research in my personal paper journal

Edited November 23 by pablo_aka_god

[pablo_aka_god]

Also I've been taking Leo's LP course for the last year and a half and I'm still 50% through it.

I don't want to rush it, I really want to learn from it I think it's more effective to do it once even if it takes 3 years than to rush it in 6 months and learn little and having to come back years after.

Since I started I went from no clue to 3 possible paths from my LP:

1- work in med tech building health products and research with AI. 

2-ed-tech, develop new learning technology

3- AI research and development of new technology that will be used to improve the performance of many products and systems, specially if can improve the performance of products in the realm of 1. and 2.

I'll see where life takes me in the next few years. Today I already have work contracts in projects on areas for 1 and 2.

Edited November 25 by pablo_aka_god

[pablo_aka_god]

I realized I had another journal thread for other areas of my life other than dating/game. and this thread was meant for pickup stuff only.

I totally forgot the other thread existed and been publishing everything in this game journal(this thread). from now on I will continue publishing everything here and will discontinue the other one.

Here is the link to the entries in the other journal: 

 Gotta keep things simple!