Expression of Sincerity

[Sincerity]

Still so, so, so immature.

But this is okay. Working from the place I'm at.

[Sincerity]

^ I LOVE that I'm making this new journal so colorful. I really see myself in it.

I find it inspiring that I'm not only talking about liking some media, but more "personal" things from my life as well. Like enjoying my job.

I want to express gratitude. I want that journal to be filled with colorful spirit and joy for life. I want it to reflect me so good, and shine back at me the radiance of my soul! 🌟🌟🌟

I smile looking at it. What joy to inspire oneself!

[Sincerity]

I had a session with a psychologist today. It went well.

FIrst one in 2 years. As part of my private medical coverage, I have 3 free sessions with a psychologist each year. I remembered it this week and decided to use up the sessions - not like there isn't stuff to talk about. I found a guy that really resonated with me and I really appreciated his perspective today. I'm deeply grateful.

I asked him for help on relationship issues. But then we went further into some deeper and more unconscious issues of mine, which I brought up myself of course. I'm really happy to continue working on these issues with the guy soon - we have another session in 2 weeks. Excited about that.

Also, I went to the cinema today and watched Loveable (2024). It was really great. I cried plenty - that was the goal, actually. I needed that.

I'm probably gonna take my gf to see this movie tomorrow again. She’s eager for that, and I know it'll resonate with her too.

We had a really big fight yesterday, now "resolved". Quite hurtful. Both of us have our conditionings which are difficult to overcome. But in the end we'll pull through, I hope. Though if eventually not, that will be alright as well.

It's been almost 2 years. This relationship has changed me a lot. It's good to have a partner that is also serious about working through her own issues. I appreciate the relationship deeply. 

Edited Tuesday at 08:43 AM by Sincerity

[Sincerity]

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I've felt tired often in the last days. For like a week, or week and a half.

It's been difficult to do things. To do house chores. To sit and work. To get off my ass. To be patient with people close to me.

I went to the office today. That was quite fun.

I find myself annoyed by my gf and parents. I need time alone. Or something, I don't know.

Edited 7 hours ago by Sincerity