Interruptions Throughout the Day

[AndylizedAAY]

Yesterday, I had so many interruptions that I was unmotivated to meditate, do self-inquiry, do shamanic breathing, etc. I tried to go outside to meditate but I got interruptions from random people. The thing is that I don't think that the people who are interruptinng me would think that the list above is Christian. Also, if Leo trancended religion, how come it seems Hinduistic? I mean Vishudda Das (Koi) says that we are all one and claims to be a student of noon-duality. Would you agree with this video, if so how do change my sleep schedule? If you don't think that I should be getting up earlier, what should I being doing instead? Would you agree that there is a most spiritual time of the day why or why not?  https://youtu.be/IegzPgJ8mz4

Edited June 12, 2022 by AndylizedAAY
I wanted to edit the last question.

[Kksd74628]

@AndylizedAAY

Great questions, bro!

All religions point towards the same thing and that's why all deep conversations may sound like it'd be a part of religion. Religions came when someone had very profound experiences and wanted to teach it. Of course ego misunderstood the teachings and that's why all religions sound kind of the same than the spirituality, but not quite. Religion = blind following like a sheep. If you'd read holy books in intention to find spiritual messages I'd argue that you'd find useful insights.

Showing your spiritual side to people around you is very powerful practice alone, because it boosts your confidence and you see that it is okay to be yourself as you are. If I'd be you I'd start meditating front of different people and if they'd ask something about it I'd just explain the meaning of meditation and why you like it. True friends will accept you after some processing so you shouldn't stress too much about will others accept you as you truly are.

Only your direct experience can show you if there is actually most spiritual time of day for you and that's why you can't ask that question from others. In the most basic level early at morning could be good time, because you were just sleeping and that's the time you have the least amount of things to think about. Evening could be good, because you have done all your work and night, because no one is there to interrupt you. On the other hand meditation during the day may reset your thought patterns so you could function better for example in work or studying.

-joNi-

[AndylizedAAY]

@Kksd74628 Vishudda Das had a very similar experience with mine when it comes to religion. I started to question Christianity. I asked how hell can be reasonable if there are some who are not Christian. The answers from Christianity didn't explain much. I came to the conclusion that people only accept the Christian kind of hell out of fear or they do not find it convincing and that I wanted to find out why. No one would want to live an easy life for eternal damnation. I also questioned the popularity of Christianity and how relative the persecution of Christian really is. I then became an athiest for a little while to further deconstruct Christianity and other religions too with athiest YouTubers along the way in secret. I then came to the conclusion that God existis because it is eternal and is the source for all scientific explanation of the origin of the universe which is why I am looking for God on my own. These are just a few examples with Christianity. If I take VIshudda Das too seriously, I might become hypocritical with a different form of dogma. I doubt that Advita Vedanta is the best, but I will be looking into it. His content resonates with me so far. 

There can also be really long interruptions from myself with masterbation. I expanded my options like hypnosis and restoring the sacral chackra because I was masterbating too much and yet it comes back. Is there some unmet need that is causing this distraction? How do I make sure that this never happens again? I noticed a sense of boredom before it happened but not only that, the masterbation occured after going out with my Dad. Was that a subconscious trigger to seek out some form of entertainment? I mean that is all and good but I find other things more fulfilling. 

Honestly, I do not even know why I am doing any of this. I grew up in the same background. I find my desires to be groundless or having an infinite regress problem. I either want to do something, or I am forced to do something. I cannot be a victim to external circumstances so there is nothing grounding my state of consciousness, there's nothing underneath it.

Edited June 13, 2022 by AndylizedAAY
I wanted to explain about the examples, VIshudda Das, and free will.