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(Chuckles) 

I must be wicked. 

 

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God I suck at poetry. I was good at it when I was in school. 

But these days my creative instincts are kinda dry. 

Still.... I love writing. Lots of things. 

I want to build a beautiful collection of my thoughts. Not everything in my life is bpd. 

There are normal parts of my personality that sometimes peep out from the inside. 

 


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What should I call you my love.... Let me think of a thousand names, the only thing I can think of when I think of you is love because that's who you are. 

I'm blessed, nothing is more beautiful than being with you. May you have a wonderful day and life, secure and safe, wherever you are and wherever you go, my love for you be pure, unselfish, giving, fond and  true, fixed on loving and serving you. 

 


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Raindrops, beautiful like sparkling dewdrops

Reminds me of us cuddling in a corner. 

Like a desert parched and dry that awaits the rain 

You are the one and only for me who understands my pain 

You fulfill me and my senses, you're the one of my dreams 

You shine brightly on my thirsty being 

Like beautiful raindrops on my skin 

 

 

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All these feelings

I just can't hide.

Nobody is as special as you are to me.

I hope you are beginning to see

Just how much I care for you,

And all my feelings

will always be true.

I can't describe

how much I care,

But when you need me, I'll be there

To wipe those tears

when you are sad,

To make you happy

when you are mad.

I wrote your name in the sky. 

But the wind blew it away. 

I wrote your name in the sand. 

But the waves washed it away. 

I wrote your name in my heart 

 

And forever it will stay. 

 


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(chuckles wildly) 

When I'm with you, I feel like I'm sleepwalking 

When I'm with you, I feel like I'm tripping 

When I'm with you, I could forget my car keys 

When I'm with you, I'm in a different world 

When I'm with you, I'm in an alternate state of consciousness 

When I'm with you, I'm imagining the back seat of a car 

When I'm with you, I feel like I'm walking into the forest 

When I'm with you, I feel like I am daydreaming at night. 

 


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Come hither. 

Maybe something has caught up with me 

Is it you? 

I can barely see you 

There is mist between us. Then you touch me. With your golden hands. You slowly disrobe me 

So delicately 

But your hands are two animals that push the mist aside and touch me 

Who was I before? 

I don't remember. 

Nor do I want to 

Remember a time without you. 

 

Where was I before? 

I don't remember 

I just knew 

When I found you 

I had come home 

 

 


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It is so easy for me to love you 

It is so hard for me to love myself 

It is so easy for me to love you

It is so hard for me to love myself 

I have never wanted anything so much as 

Lay beside you every waking minute 

And every night while I sleep 

I think of you in the middle of stars 

The question is not 

How do I love you? 

The question is 

How would I ever stop? 

 

 


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Words can't describe what you mean to me. 

Words are not enough to describe what I mean 

You are and were the only one for me 

The rest of my life

I will spend looking for those words 

 

 


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We would be so happy flirting under the midnight stars. 

We would be gazing into each other's eyes 

That moment my heart wishes to capture 

There is beauty in your eyes and rapture 

When I saw you first, it took every ounce of me stop myself from wanting you 

When I saw you look into my eyes, it took every ounce of me to not fall in love 

Yet, I fell, this sweet sensation. 

I went along with it, not knowing how I slipped 

This is what I wanted, this is what I wanted. 

I spent my days looking for you 

In every face in the crowd 

My heart sank and that's when I found 

You staring at me through the million faces 

As you captured my heart with your gaze

 


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My home is in a different place 

My heart is in a different place 

My heart is not where my body is 

My heart tries to find a place to live 

In this Emptiness, I wonder if I can ever 

Fulfill the yearnings of my soul 

Wandering aimlessly for a home 

When I think about you 

My soul stops wandering 

As though it found its home 

 


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We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name..

You placed my head on your lap by the side of the graveyard, by the side of the graveyard. 

Our voices choked as our lips softened. 

We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name..

I was in a drunken haze, beautiful stupor, drunk on your love. 

You held my head in your hands and touched my lips 

The birds were gone and the winds were still

We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name..

You attracted my soul, why did you? 

I don't remember what we said to each other 

With you I could stare into every space and only see you 

Why did you love me so much 

Why did you love me so much 

Now my heart doesn't want to leave 

It's happy here in your lap. 

We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name.. 

When I'm lying in the grave, my heart will want you to serenade it with you. 

Because I don't want to be gone without you 

We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name.. 

 

 


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Satan taught me to love you infinitely and more 

 


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And the boss asked me, "who have you fallen in love with Preety?" 

And I said, "it's him." 

And the boss asked me, "who have you fallen in love with Preety?" 

And I said, "it's him." (hiding my face) 

And the boss asked me, "where did you find him?" 

And I said, "in the crowd." 

And the boss asked me, "and why did you like him?" 

And I said, "I liked the way he was watching me. There was something about him and I fell in love. I felt he was the guy of my life." 

And the boss said, "maybe he is. I only wish you happiness." 

 


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Took a ride to the end of the lane
Where no one ever goes
Ended up on a broken train with nobody I know
But the pain and the longing's the same
When you're dyin'
Now I'm lost, and I'm screaming for help alone

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you

It's as if I'm scared
It's as if I'm terrified
It's as if I'm scared
It's as if I'm playing with fire
Scared
It's as if I'm terrified
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax (love)
There is an answer to the darkest times
It's clear we don't understand it
But the last thing on my mind
Is to leave you
I believe that we're in this together
Don't scream, there are so many roads left

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you

It's as if I'm scared (relax)
It's as if I'm terrified
It's as if I'm scared
It's as if I'm playing with fire (relax)
It's as if I'm terrified
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax
Relax

 


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Whenever I'm sleeping in his arms, I think of this tune. 

 


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Robbie Williams feel 

 

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I don't wanna die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her

Scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel
Real love and the love ever after
I cannot get enough

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel
Real love and the love ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand

 


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Satan gave me a rose...... 

 


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I was imagining you chasing me with this song playing in the background. 

I love you Jean
But I can't go out tonight
In the Machine
All my thoughts are bound so tight

Living in recording studios
Makes me feel awake
Life is just a brand new Echo
A Digital Delay

Love in your Eyes
Oh Baby don't you realise
It's only Love in your Eyes
Oh Baby got to compromise

It's only Love
I love you too
But you make me feel so sad
A Mini Moog is just all you need so bad

You are just a damn Sequencer
Moving to the beat
Living with a synthesizer
Cold as a Repeat

Love in your Eyes
Oh Baby don't you realise
It's only Love in your Eyes
Oh Baby got to compromise

It's only Love
Input-Output
Input-Output

I love you Jean
But I can't stand you no more
Why do you scream?
I can't hear the monitors

Your voice needs an Equalizer
Try to sing this song
Filtered in the Harmonizer
We can get along

Love in your Eyes ...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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At the end of the day, someone who deeply loves you comes back to you. 

 


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